the Chronicles of Love

Being Reliant to Others Happiness

I took his cap and his jacket and use it. I don't care how odd I look as long as no one can see me going out with someone.

This is our routine everytime he come to see me. I need to disguise myself all the time and it's sickening.

"What took you so long. You didn't even replied to my messages last night. You didn't even leave a voice message. You know our exam is around the corner. Now you're giving me headaches. You know I cried so hard last night because I missed you so much, I have no focus studying beause of you"

I complained with a ball of tears in my eyes. I don't know how it happened but somehow I am more focused whenever I could hear his voice.

"Shh. It's okay. I'm just a little busy last night with my work. After my shift I forgot to call you because I'm so exhausted that I fell asleep right after" he explained.

" Okay. But next time you better message me or else I'll be so disappointed to you"

He then gave me a kiss on my forehead to calm me down. Five seconds ago I'm fuming with anger but now I'm like a child with a lolli beaming with happiness.

"That's more like it"

I don't know why, but whenever I'm with him I turned into a three year old toddler. My voice is changing, my energy is changing and even if he took me to a street food date everyday I never get tired of it.

But I'm still human longing for another sorts of food.

"What do you like this time?" He asked.

"Baby, I want to have an ice cream now. Please"

" But it's not good. The weather is so hot. You might catch a cold if you eat it" he replied.

I know it's silly but everytime he's the one who's telling me what to do and not to do, it feels so real and rational, and besides I don't want to have a fight with him.

"Just please. My treat"

.

I had to bribe him or I'll get no ice cream.

"Fine. Fine. Let's go" he said.

I jumped in happiness after he said it. I suddenly come to my senses and realized what I have just done. I was terribly embarrassed that I just walked straight across the street without noticing the approaching car. Luckily he had enough time to pull me back.

"That was close, you better be careful. I don't know what to do if you got hurt" he said worriedly.

I was so moved by what he said that I voluntarily come close to him and gave him our first kiss. It's just a millisecond kiss but it feels eternity inside of me. I smiled from ear to ear holding his hand as we cross the street together.

"Excuse me, can I have two chickens please, two large sundae, two large fries,and please put extra gravy on the chickens. Two chicken fillet too, and lastly two large sodas. Thank you"

I ordered everything I wanted to eat because I've been craving this food for awhile now.

"That's it?" he asked.

"Yes. That's it. Do you have anything else in particular? Go on, it might be not happening again" I said jokingly.

I love to mess around with him because he had this attitude that when he's annoyed he starts to frown and there's this cute little dimple under his eye and it's so cute.

"No, I was just wondering, did your parents starved you, that's a lot"

" What? It's just the least actually. But I can't afford more so that's it for now"

Chapter 4

Getting To Know Each Other

Part 4

"Hey girl, I'm afraid your Lola or dad might find out that your sneaking around just to see that guy, and using me as an excuse, omy I don't want to be involved in any crime that you're committing my sweet little demonic bestfriend " Missy complained.

" Omy. Look at you. Isn't you the one who pushed me to give Kian a chance? Hmm? " I replied

" Oh no you don't. Don't you use that invincible weapon towards your bestfriend dorky. Or else it's going to explode on mid-air"

I got used to it, whenever missy and I are talking about something serious it always turns into something silly all the time. Our brain cells just made up a lot of wacky stuff automatically.

"Whenever they call you for me, you know what to do. I told them that I'm working on my thesis and I need your help"

" Girl, you never lied for a man or anything before. I wish only the best and the best for you. And this! This is stupid Leah. I had a bad feeling about this, I am genuinely worried for you"

" You know, everything's under control. Besides I won't let him touch me until we are official, like we are legally together"

I need to convince her for me because if not, I know her, she would tell the truth to them. She is the worst person in lying, so I need to break it well to her. I don't want to be grounded because if that happens I won't see Kian anymore, and if I won't do this, he'll be upset, we will have a fight again and eventually I'll end up crying.

I don't want him to be upset most especially to me.

Never in my life have I imagine to fall this hard to a man, so silly.

I can't imagine my life without him, even if we were just only three months in relationship but it feels like forever everyday.

•=•

"Happy third monthsarrry baby"

I said happily. I could say that in every month that pass, my enthusiasm and happiness towards our relationship are getting more and more deep. It might sound absurd but when you fall for a person, you don't count the days of togetherness, rather the moment that you shared together .

To make him even happier, I gave him my third monthly gift, it's a real 14k gold bracelet with our initials in it. I have been saving my monthly allowance to the maximum to buy him this expensive gift. And when I said maximum it means no cravings, no sodas, only tap water from home, no tricycle on the way home, just walk for less than an hour.

At first it's quite hard but if you really want to, you'll find a way. I even just go to Missy's house to have a free wifi. I even missed a lot of Starbucks moment with my friends just to save up money.

He deserves to be treated that way.

"Hey, is it real? Like can I pawn it? Though ... I was not thinking about pawning it, but is it pawnable?" he asked.

" Awe.. of course baby, you can. Use it the way you want to. You deserve it"

He is the sweetest guy I ever knew.

"Baby, I got nothing for you. You see, I'm quite embarrassed actually to see you today. I got nothing for you as always" he sadly said.

" Aww. Baby, you don't need to give me anything. Your time, love, and effort is too much to ask already. Most especially you have a brother to feed. I totally understand it, I love you Kian"

I know I have to be the most understanding person he could ever had. Being a breadwinner is never easy, I know that even if I have been a silver spooned girl ever since I was in the womb.

"No baby. It is too much. You see, I worked so hard but it's still not enough. I couldn't even afford to go to college because of lack of money. I may look cool but the truth is I'm not. I'm sorry baby. I should have never come in to your life"

" Baby, don't say that. I accept you wholeheartedly, and even if the world turns around, I'll always be here for you. Okay? I will do my best at school so when I graduate, both of us will benefit it. You, me, our future family. You know"

I replied while cupping his face and brushing some of his hair strand to calm him down.

I felt a spark in me when he suddenly caught my eyes. I want to avoid my it but at some point it got stuck and got illuminated by the light in his eyes.

It's like our souls are talking to each other and whispering the greatest word the world have ever spoken.

In just a blink of an eye he caught my lips, I was so stunned that I froze. He wrap his arm around me to support my balance as my knee felt a little weaker. We even managed to sit down on the ground without cutting our kisses in between.

For every seconds that we savour our kisses I felt like I'm about to go crazy. Things are running wild in my head and the more that I resist myself from being carried away, the stronger my desire to keep on going.

I just closed my eyes and let it go. It feel so good that even if we do it til eternity, I won't get tired. I didn't noticed that he is carassing the two round, smooth, silky, shiny logs on my below slowly by slowly with his other hand.

I was wearing a navy blue skirt and a white cropped top, and with a matching long sleeved cardigan that go down to my knee level that made him glide his hands easily all over my lower half.

I don't know what comes to my head that I didn't pull myself away, instead I use my jacket to cover his hands that is now going up and up the other half of my earth.

We are at the beach where there is no people around. I don't know how he found this place, but I'm glad that were the only people around so I don't have to wear those baggy disguise.

"Why did we stop?" I asked..

I mean I'm not a w***e that you can play with on a sandy beach, but if I were to be honest, I'm so ready to take the risk.

I'm a little upset that we stopped but I am more glad that we didn't continue.

"I want us to be legal first before we do this stuff. I don't want to ruin your trust and your family's trust. You're their pride and joy, I know that it will be definitely hard for you if they find out that you just let me touch you under a shady tree" he explained.

If I was not prepared on diving the realm of flesh pleasure, I am most not prepared to what he just said. It send me to tears that I hugged him so tight that I could feel his heartbeat.

"Baby, what's wrong?" He asked.

"I'm just so happy. I love you so much baby. You really know how to give importance to me. I'm so glad that you came to my life. If only I'm brave enough to introduce you to my parents I would have done it before. But I'm so coward to what they might to you, to us, everything is just too hard for me"

Kring.

"Wait. It's missy"

I picked up the phone as I noticed it was my bestfriend, she is always at my back in all times. She made a talk for me whenever my Lola is looking for me.

"Yes girl?"

"I believe you two had so much fun right now but it's nearly two hours, I'm having an anxiety now, I am definitely having a panic attack right now. Can you please come home now? "

" Okay. I'll be their in less than thirty minutes missy. Hang on there, and try not to overthink okay, thank you. Bye" I then hang up the phone.

"I guess I have to go home now. Missy is going crazy there every minute. I don't want to torture my best friend. Haha"

I'm a bit irratated to Missy's drama, though she's my best friend and I love her but sometimes I wish I never knew her. She's ruining my moment. I'll just think that she's really worried about me so I won't have to feel mad about her..

Kian just gave a smile then we started packing up then head to Missy's house right after. I just used my cardigan to cover my body so it won't be too obvious that I am quite naked and my front watermelons are popping out or Missy will become an old ass grandma.

...

"Where is he?" Missy asked.

"Shh. He didn't come all the way here. He just dropped me outside the village. He's worried about what happened to you so we quickly went home"

"Girl, listen, I love you so much but I don't want to do this anymore. Okay? I'm going to die" she complained

" Come on, isn't it fun? "

"Fun your butt. Promise me it will be the last time you will use me as an excuse. You know me, we are bestfriend but when I said no its a... "

" It's a no. Nothing happened anyway so you can breath the most luxurious oxygen now.. inhale.. exhale.. inhale.. exhale.. that's better"

No matter how pissed I am to her I just can't show it or say it to her face, I'm afraid she might be disappointed. Next to my family, she's the least person I want to be mad at me. She's fragile and I can't let myself break it.

•✓•

Kian's POV

" How was your date with that college hot babe eh? " My friend asked.

" Hmmp. Piece of cake. Here, see? It's a 14k gold. I just went to a pawnshop downtown and checked it, you wanna know if it's real or not? Eh?? It's real, and it is pawnable people. Hahaha" I bragged to them.

" Hahaha. Cool... So how about that chick you had that's working at the mall?"

I paused for awhile and stared at the gift Leah gave to me. I love her so much but I need my side chick, and besides I love my side too. She gave me money and everything I need and wants while Leah gave sparks to my life.

" Well, I am going to see her later. I need to burst out. I'm in an excruciating pain right now" I complained.

" Your excru.. what? "

"He didn't scored, that's what he meant. Hahahaha" Baron interrupted.

" Shut up! I had to win her trust. She's fresh, and new and oh.. juicy. Mmm. I could still smell her. One day I could definitely eat her whole, and I'll make sure to make it as memorable as can be" I

" Your so lucky man. I'm a little bit jealous" Mikey said.

" Mikey, you had a long list of transgenders and gays, are those not enough? You greedy moron. Hahaha" all of us burst out laughing.

" Well, I'll leave you all here because I... Need to prepare myself, a little freshen ups and I'm ready to dive deep to the forest of sss"

" Doesn't she trim her jungle? How come that beauty has an sss below her? " All of them laugh hysterically.

" I'll bring pruning shears later, and I'll tell you how it goes"

We are all crying with laughter.

Chapter 5

Getting to know each other

Part 5

"Hmm. Strange" Missy said.

"I know right. He's not like this. He never dropped my call, he always leaves me a message, he... He didn't say I love you for almost 24 hours" I complained.

" I mean, strange that your sharing that to me now. It's ugh. It's ppff. It's obnoxious. I know it's a little too strong word but... Never mind. (Pause) the last time I checked, you told me to never speak about your relationship whenever and or wherever we are. Also, you rarely talk about what going on with you and that Kian, and now her you are, I assume, you must be in a huge crises"

I know, she is a peculiar lady, she give relevance to almost every detail that I told her. Sometimes it gets on my nerves, like it annoys me a lot, but at some point, it is quite beneficial to the both of us.

"I know Missy. What should I do? I need to contact him urgently. I can't wait for another hour without his update"

A ball of tears are now on the verge of falling on my cheeks but I have to keep my cool down. Kian is that kind of person who will never ignore me, he never missed informing me on his daily agenda, his whereabouts, and all. He never missed on checking up on me either.

"He'll call you eventually. Maybe his on his shift right now. You know him, he had to work hard. Maybe disturbing him isn't a good idea, and besides, your beauty is no match to any other girl in town. So calm yourself before you go to the mental hospital because you overthink too much"

Ding.

" Hi, can I see you now? I want to see you"

" Oh thank goodness. He messaged me. At Last. I'll call him. ...Oh my. Why isn't he picking up? Come on pick it up. Pick it up"

" Hey. Calm down. I believe nothing's wrong happen..." Missy said.

"Leah , I know it's not the best time to ask, and I don't know when is that time but I still wanted to ask, when are you going to tell your parents about him? I mean you've come this far yet you still don't tell them the truth? Isn't it tiring, your always hiding, keeping secrets, and all?"

" You how hard my situation is right? If only it's that easy to tell them like, 'I have a boyfriend, but don't worry I'll still do best at school', I won't hide it to them" I replied.

•~•

" Hey, where have you been? I kept on calling you but you kept on declining it. I messaged a million times but you didn't reply. What happened to you? Tell me? Are you busy with your work? Is everything's alright? Or are you with somebody else? Hm? Tell me. Tell me" I asked him furiously.

" Does it matter? I'm here now. See? Come here. I missed you so much" he said and pulled me close to him gently.

Because of my anger I managed to push him back and it surprises him so much.

"Just answer my damn questions Kian. I almost go crazy thinking about it all day, and you just come back like nothing happened, without any explanations?"

I have never yelled at him before, I have never ever screamed or tell him what I really felt inside because I'm scared I might hurt his feelings so I always keep it inside of me, I was lost now and I forgot to control it.

" Okay. No need to shout, I can hear you. First of all, yes I've been so busy lately, I have to work double because my brother is sick. I can't tell you that because I know you'll be worried too. I know how caring you are so I can't let you worry about my problems, okay" he explained.

" Secondly, I have no other woman. Okay? Your the only one I have. I can't see my tomorrow without you. You complete me, so why would I do that? I'm not that imbecile to do such irrational, immature and hideous thing. Okay? I love you, you and you alone. Shh. Don't cry now. It's okay"

He brushed some strands of hair covering my face then gave me a hug.

Something's telling me that there is something wrong, that he is not telling the truth.

But his hug gave warmth and comfort to me that even if it is contradictory to my head, I just believe him. Maybe it's the reality of love, you will give all your trust to your other half.

I convinced myself that everything is okay and it is normal for a healthy relationship that occasionally couple fight for some small reasons. So I let down my guard and hugged him even tighter.

"Are you okay now?" He asked as he wiped some tears falling down from my cheeks.

"Yeah" I replied.

As we walk inside the motel, I could smell some fragrance that I have never smelled before, or if I did, it's not mine.

"Is that you? You smell nice to day"

"Oh yeah? I didn't put any"

" It smells like lavender perfume, hmmm? That's a woman scent"

" Huh? Umh.. oh. Yeah! Maybe I.. I accidentally sprayed my aunt's perfume. Is... Isn't it nice?"

" Tell your aunt she had a great taste"

This room that we are using became a part of us. Whenever we meet, this specific room is always the vacant one. I believe it's the universe that is moving things for us.

" You want to order some food? We can call a delivery. My treat this time" he said

.

" Oh no no. Let me treat you, you already paid the room, so let me return the favour. You need that money for your brother. Just keep it instead. "

" Yeah. Silly me, I just remembered I have to umhh buy him some med-medicine for this evening. But I just want to... "

"No. I insist, keep that, instead of spending it. Let me order the food. Why not we watch movie while we wait for it?"

While we were watching movie I could feel his hands lingering my back passionately. I could feel his soft and warm palm that somehow awakened my soul. He might be just casually rubbing my back but I can't explain why my womanhood became wild.

I just pretended like nothing is happening, I didn't display any response to his action because I know inside of me where it is going, or I might just overthinking again.

I don't want him to know that I kinda like it, but I don't want him to think that I don't like it either. I just don't want him to be too comfortable making me his pleasure toy, but I don't want him to stop either. It definitely sounds ironic but I really like it though.

He seemed annoyed to what I did, you could see in his face the disappoinment. I want to laugh but I don't want to annoy him even more, so I just calm myself even though I really wanted to laugh out loud.

He started kissing my neck. At first I really held back my vehement desire and ignored him to the fullest but in just a little while I am now joining his pleasure game.

I bit my lips because I'm too shy to express what I'm feeling so I bit my lower lip instead and closed my eyes as I savour his warm, soft lips.

You could hear no words that echoed in the room, except the rythmic sound of hungry souls that craved for the satisfaction of human flesh.

"Oh babe...no..ugh.."

I said as he devour the tastelessly delicious melon of mine dancing and swaying in the beat.

"Umh...sh**t...stop, my legs,, ugh"

I said as he spread my two round, soft, silky logs to continue his game downtown.

I am biting my lips even more as he enjoy the food that is served for me. My lips feels like it's swelling but it feels even better.

As we're in the middle of the game, I realized that what I am saying is contradictory to what I am feeling, and I also realized the beauty of irony at the moment.

He suddenly pull his sword out pointing to the target. He looked at me and gave me a grin. I wanted to stop but I can't, I'm too weak to say it. At first her touches the target with his sword then suddenly stabbed it.

I was too surprised that I screamed in pain.

"Wait...I'm coming baby. Faster...ugh...sh**that's it baby, umghh.. hit it. Ohh uhh"

I whispered in between of my breaths.

You could hear debating souls longing not for winning an argument but winning the satisfactory orgasm. After a while, I felt a warm river ran down in between mine below. I was grossed out that I can't even manage to move an inch. But Kian is like a pro that he wiped it with a thick paper towel and dried it out.

(°.°)

After for about a three hours or so of playing the game of flesh, I got too tired and became too lazy to move. I was all laid flat on the bed and I just want to go to sleep.

I felt so special as he dressed me and fixed my hair. He even know how to tie my hair like an expert.

In a couple more minutes our food arrived just in time. I wonder how long would it take to deliver a food. I know I am not a heavy eater but for some reasons, I believe I could manage to eat a whole dinosaur

...

"Where did you come from?"

My throat suddenly dried up and my brain went blank.

" Umh.. what do you mean? I... (scoff) I .. you know. I'm from Missy's house"

I never lied to my grandma before because I know, no matter how good I am at lying, there will be a time that she will definitely finds out the truth.

But now, I'm not scared at all. I feel like I'm an expert at lying. I might be not that confident but I already calculated and mastered the script I have in mind in case she cornered me with her one thousand and one questions.

"I went to Missy's house. You're not there. She even told me, that you never visited her for some reason. But you always told me that your going to her house to do some projects and stuff" grandma said coldly.

My eyes was widened as she said those words. Am I busted? It feels like I swallow a stone and blocked my throat. In an instant my brain became wild thinking possible but unimaginable things.

She can't find out my secret this early, not now. Not now that I loved him so much, not now that I already offered him my ace. Not now, it's way too soon.

" I know having a misunderstanding with the person you trusted the most is not easy, but I know you two will definitely find a way to solve it. I hope it to be sooner" my grandma continued.

Ppff. I was relived that she only thought I had a misunderstanding with missy. I just bend my head the whole time because I'm embarrassed to look at her eyes knowing that I lied to her every single second.

I sighed deeply to cast away those thoughts and make a scene in my head as to what to respond to her.

"La, you know me and missy, we fight a lot, but we managed to solve it on our own way. You told me that fights are part of growing up, I'm just waiting for her to come to me and say sorry to what she have done to me. I live her but I can't tolerate her action" I said.

I'm sorry miss but you need to be the antagonist just this time.

" But always remember to choose your battle child. I don't want you to keep on fighting for nothing. It will not only waste your time, it will also makes you doubt yourself and at some point, instead of gaining something, you will eventually lose everything"

I felt a pain in my chest as she told me those words. Lola's golden words are so powerful that whenever she speak to me that way, it always feels that my soul is struck with a double bladed sword. Her golden wisdom are so wide that whichever point of view you'll look at, it always means the same.

Chapter 6

Being reliant to other's happiness

Part 1

"Baby, have you ever thought about introducing me to your family? We're almost half a year now but you never ask me to meet your family " I said.

" Hmm. How about you, why are we hiding again?" he asked me.

" My problem is quite different from yours" I replied.

" What's the difference? You don't want anybody to know that your in a relationship. After I introduced you to my family, I'm sure it will never be a secret anymore, and the news will spread like a fire. Can you put the fire out? "

On second thought, he's quite right. I can't enjoy our relationship if I'm always thinking that somebody might find it out. So the best solution is to keep it low-key. A little more time and I will graduate, by then I will be confident to tell everyone that there is Kian behind my success.

I hug him tight and kisses his cheek. But he turn around and I was surprised that he caught my lips. He immediately went into deep, intimate kiss.

"Wait. We just got done, I'm a little drowsy. Can we just take a break" I said tiredly.

it will be continue on the next update.