Jacob, I don’t think I wanted that child.
The words settled heavily between us. Hurt flashed through Jacob’s eyes and I felt myself break some more in that moment. He did nothing to hide his emotion. The small softness he had before was gone now. It had evaporated into thin air and in that moment I wanted so desperately for it to come back.
“I-” My voice failed me and failed to produce any more sounds. I knew that there was more to be said. I knew that I wanted to say more but the way Jacob’s face contorted with pain effectively stopped me.
I rubbed my hands against each other in hopes of taking my focus away from Jacob. I couldn't stop now. I had to finish what I had started.
“Jacob, I know that you might think I'm a monster for saying this. For some time, I felt like I was a monster
