The words I had just uttered sunk deeper with each passing second and, slowly, I realized just how much gravity went with it.
“I loved Jacob,” I said again, trying to register it in my head. Openly saying those three words suddenly made everything feel real. The reality check felt like a sudden hit of water waves by the ocean. It washed away the fear I had earlier and replaced it with something new - pity.
My situation was unfortunate and I pitied myself for allowing it to get worse. This had become more than just protecting my family.
Our marriage was not supposed to be one where love blossomed and brought us closer. From day one, we had agreed that our situation was one out of convenience and that it was perfectly tailored to meet both of our needs. I knew that Jacob could never lov
