23 FELICITY That night was the worst night of my life. Feeling rejected one step away from making love was one of my worst nightmares. And it had come to life with the person I had declared all my love to shortly before. He didn't like me. Maybe he felt sorry for me, but I certainly didn't turn him on as much as any girl who was a little prettier than me. This realization made me cry a lot and at the same time I called myself an i***t for thinking that it would work. I knew very well that it was not possible. That morning, when I woke up, I was really down. Then I realized that I was in Ryo's arms and the tears came back. Why did he come back to me if he didn't want me? Why did he keep giving me false hopes? Why couldn't I stop loving him? I sighed, heartbroken. "Is everythi

