Desire becomes Her

Chapter 23

23

She had been with Lucifer since they had moved to France. Though she hated him from the first time she had met him, there was something about him that she just could not resist. She would always belong to Lucian, but Lucifer just had that air of mystery to him, authority, and power. He was the Morning Star; he had been God's favorite before he fell. And as much as she cared for Lucian, she was also very greedy.

She feared the day he would find out. She knew he would be furious. Angry enough at her to take the consequences of laying a hand on her; which did not happen often. That day came months after David had turned four years old. She was sitting at the table coloring with him and Lucian burst into the room. "You little b***h!" She stood up from where she sat, looked at David who had jumped and dropped his crayon. "All that I have done for you, all the things I have been through...for you." His hand drew back and made firm contact with the side of her head. She fell against the wall and looked at him with indignant indifference.

"Lucian, listen--" Her voice was stopped by another smack to the side of her face. He had grabbed her hair in a fist and leaned down to look at her closely.

"Everything I've done for you, all the gifts, and the protection I have given you. And you go and f**k him? He would kill you without another thought. Why...Why would you do this?" He wrenched her head back against the wall again and waited for an answer.

She had grit her teeth, clenched her jaw so tight the muscles had pulled taught on the side of her face. Her head was throbbing and she could taste blood but she still didn't answer him. Soft brown eyes had gone hard as she looked at him, and then over to David who had begun to cry. The replacement Nanny picked him up and took him from the room. "I don’t' know why. Because he is who he is and I felt I had no choice when he came to me." Her voice was as cold as his and she stared right at him; not wavering in her look.

"So he forced you?"

Shook her head. "No, he didn’t force me to do anything. I said yes on my own." Her eyes followed him as he stood up and knocked the table over. Crayons and paper scattered and he came back at her with a fist. He beat her, knowing full well that he would receive a punishment ten times worse for his actions.

.......

She was still clenching her teeth in anger as she sat in one of the many bathrooms of the Villa while Mammon wrapped a bandage around her torso, binding three broken ribs where his boot had made contact with her body. She had a split above her left eyebrow, the eye swollen and puffy. "Not such a nice guy now is he? I told you."

"Too tight, too tight, Mammon" She bit down on an already fat lip and glared at Mammon through the reflection in the mirror. "I know he can get nasty, I'm well aware of what he is.  But he has done worse than this to me and you know that.”

"Levi and myself have done it too, Lucifer is very charming. We just weren't promised to another when we did it." She laughed out loud at Addison's stupidity and tied the bindings around her ribs. "All done. What are you going to do now?"

"I don't know, go to bed?"

"I still honestly don't see what they see in you. Or that you've not figured out how much power you have over the two of them. They'd do anything for you, you know. Anything. But they can also do whatever they want to you if they think it's necessary." Addison took the insult quietly, looking down at her hands. She herself was not sure what they saw in her. "Come on, let’s get you in bed, David is going to have to sleep on his own tonight. One kick in the ribs, and you might kill him." She had made an unconventional friend out of Mammon over the last year and a half. She was not sure how much of a friendship it was, but it seemed the two talked more than herself and Levi. Levi hated her and she knew that. Mammon, though controlled by the Sin she represented, did not let it overtake the personality she had developed over the thousands of years she had spent as a high demon. Perhaps she was just tired of arguing with Levi, and had sought out the only other female she could.

When she woke up the next morning she rolled over with a groan and a sharp intake of breath. Her whole body hurt and her eye was now swollen shut. Somebody was watching her and when she opened her eye she jumped. It was David. He was crouched down at the edge of her bed, just his fingers and his eyes peering over at her. "Hi Mama..."

"Oh...David...go...find somewhere to play. Mama isn't feeling well this morning."

"Are you okay?" He reached up, touched his little fingertips to her face and gave her that sweet little smile.

"Yes, sweetie, Mama is okay. Now, go play.” She reached out, touched his face gently and smiled to him. He smiled back and stood up and walked from her bedroom to find something to do. She rolled onto her back again and tried to take a deep breath. It hurt too much so she continued a shallow pant, wheezy and noisy as she couldn't help but make noise with every breath. She wondered how the rest of this was going to play out. What would Lucifer do to Lucian? They were not matched in strength and power, but they were close. This was going to end up messy in the end.