Imperfection Series

Chapter 11

Book 1 Chapter 11-02

She bit her lower lip, not knowing whether to answer him or not.

"I'm still waiting for your answer flower" there, he said it again, why? He has to stop calling her that if he doesn't want his mother and the rest of the servants thinking something is going on between them when in fact, nothing is going on. But can he really stop calling her that? He has known her with it that sometimes he forgets her real name. And if not for the fact that the nickname he calls her reminds him her name, he wouldn't be able to.

Lilly couldn't stop the feelings that surge through her veins whenever he calls her that but she knows that whatever she might be feeling now is wrong, so damn wrong, just what is wrong with her? She never feels like this when thinking about him before, why does she suddenly wants to be closer to him? She slowly looked up at his beautiful face that looks like a painting under the moonlight, her breath constricted and she look down immediately, not wanting to witness such beauty anymore, "will I be deemed disrespectful if I don't want to answer sir?"

Shane smiled faintly, "no. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, I just really want to know. But it's okay, I hope you will tell me at your own given time" his gaze never leaving her petite figure, he frown, seeming to notice her thin figure for the first time, "why are you so thin?"

Lilly froze, why would he ask such all of a sudden? Curiously, she look at her own self, the gown she was putting on is the maid's attire, it's quite big on her and also Nora, it's only Gina that looks good in it because of her plump figure, "I'm sorry sir but I'm not thin, it's the gown that it's too big" she answered with a tinge of stubbornness on her beautiful delicate face. Why in the world will he say that she is thin?

Shane wanted to laugh at the look on her face, indeed, she is still his little flower, never hesitating to show her displeasure when annoyed, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to annoy you."

Shocked at his apologies, Lilly looked at him, their eyes met and lock. For a moment, she didn't want to look away, she wanted to keep looking at him, at his beautiful gray eyes that seems to pull at her soul, urging her to get closer to him and caress his sweet, sweet face.

Shane wasn't better on the other hand, he as well wanted to take two giant strides and get to her, he wants to trace her face like he often do when she was little. Ever since learning from her mother this afternoon that she is the sweet girl that made him long for a sister, he had wanted to pull her into his arms and give a sweet hug. He wants to ruffle her wavy deep brown hair like he often do when he offered her chocolates, he wants to place a gentle kiss on her forehead for his lips are itching to feel her delicate looking skin, but too bad, things that he casually did when she was still a child can't be done anymore by him without her misinterpreting the innocent thoughts at the gesture.

He had always been the type to do what he thinks but now, for the sake of his reputation in her memories, he didn't take a single step closer to her, rather, to burn his urge, his hand holding the beautiful delicate lily flower tightened, crushing the sweet thing in it.

"Lilly!" Someone shouted far from them, freeing them both from their thoughts and spiritual entanglement.

Lilly looked away first, she recognized the voice as Nora's and from her understanding of Nora, if she doesn't answer her soon enough or appear before her, she would come looking for her. And what she wouldn't want in this world is for her to come now and see her talking to Shane, hell no, even if she is her friend, she wouldn't want such to happen.

She looked back at Shane to see that he was looking at the tiny figure standing near the big house, far away from them. His gaze slowly returned to her and she gasped, looking down immediately, "I will have to go now sir, it seems like I'm needed."

"Indeed" Shane nodded, "alright, I will let you go do your duties."

"Thank you sir. I will be leaving now" she curtsied. With a nod from Shane, she turned and ran back to the house.

Shane watched her run, his mind played a vision for him as he remembered standing in his room balcony and watch her as she runs to her mother with her tiny feet. He smiled at the memory, she was so young then, beautiful and chubby. He was often drawn to pinch her chubby looking cheeks and she will always look up at him in smiles. He compared his memory Lilly to the present one and he realize that the memory one always look up at him and smile while the present one always withdraw her face from him by looking down.

He thinks he prefer the memory one but she is just a child while the present one is a full grown legal adult. Not that he wants to do anything with her, but he will love it if she will treat him like an older brother like she did then than how she is treating him like her master now.

He sighed, watching as she interacts with whoever that was calling her before they both entered the house. He looked back at his father's studio which was what brought him there in the first place and suddenly, he doesn't have the urge to remove it again.

He let out a deep breath, not knowing what was wrong with him but he ended up smiling to himself and bringing the crushed lily in his hand to his face, he smelled the petals and even though already crushed and lost its beauty, it's still smells enchanting. He looked back at the house, thinking that the flower is just like the real Lilly. Even though already a maid and so thin, she hasn't lost her charm.

"God Shane, what are you thinking?" He muttered to himself before shoving the damaged lily into his pants pocket and walking back to the house.