Fates Prayer

Chapter 6

I honestly thought we had had this conversation before. I honestly thought we had made it clear that there was no way he was my mate, and even if he was, it was too dangerous to pursue. I honestly thought she would at least listen to me on this. 

But I guess not. "Ember, we've been over this," I said trying to reason with her,

"I know but, but YOU'RE WRONG!" She all but screamed at me after a small stutter, which might I add, was not necessary considering where she spends her time. That's going to give me a migraine later.

"Ember-" I started before getting cut off by the most painful burst in my leg. What the actual hell is going on? I have never felt this kind of pain before; except for my first shift- wait.

" Ember, you need to calm down!" She was force shifting with me. In case you couldn't tell this had not happened before, she has never been this mad at me.

It didn't matter how much or how hard I tried Ember kept shifting. Not being able to hold it back anymore I let her anger consume me causing me more blazing balls of pain than when I was holding it off. Suddenly, the pain: just stopped. The shooting pains I had once felt everywhere subsided; all of it just gone; I felt a blissful sense of euphoria with just letting it all go and giving Ember control.

Deep down, I knew that mine and Ember's bond was had just hit a bump in the road and changed for the worse though I also knew I didn't want to admit that to myself. Ever.

After a while of running in wolf form, Ember gave me control and ran back to the tower. She wasn't present to me anymore I couldn't talk to her or reason with her and that made me upset in a way I had never felt: it meant that I knew she was mad at me and I couldn't do anything about it. 

Making myself dinner, I still couldn't feel her and she didn't start pacing in my head when she smelt the food I was cooking like she usually does, it felt empty, she had always been there taking up space in my mind; influencing my decisions; making jokes that only she found funny. Now she was gone, I was missing the most important part of myself. And all because I wouldn't listen to her about that man that we saw in the clearing of the woods.

I still wonder what his name was and why he had such an effect on Ember that she got so mad about me saying that he wasn't our mate? Unless he was? I mean there is a chance, but I had given up on having a mate years ago because anyone who met me wouldn't last long enough for a conversation with me. Why would there be one person in the world who wouldn't die when meeting me? It just seems a bit far fetched if you ask me. Though if it as possible then I wouldn't mind it being him: it may sound weird but he appears to radiate power and it feels comforting. Oh, my goddess. His aura is comforting to me. Is there a way that means that Ember was correct? Why do I have a fluttery feeling in my chest right now? Okay, it's settled if he comes anywhere near me and doesn't explode or die,

I will consider the idea that he is my mate. Oh, my goddess. A mate. Me a mate, I wouldn't even know what to do, how to act. Some could say I was raised by wolves. What would I say? Would we kiss? Hold hands? What if he wants to mate me? Goddess, I need Ember back if this guy is my mate.

P.S This is my first book so thank you for patience.