36: Worthless
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I sigh in content as I lay in bed. I don’t know what it is. But I am feeling a strange bliss right now. I literally cannot remember when was the last time I had s*x—this intense—with someone. It’s been a long-long time. I went on dates and made out with men. But s*x itself — it’s been long.
M walks away from me, and I hear a click of the bathroom door. I grin like a fool and slide the blindfold above my eyes.
How long will we play this game?
Will we divorce each other without even seeing one’s faces?
No, I decide, I would like to see him. Not now, because I’m enjoying this. But later—I would like to see his face.
I turn on my back and wince at the tingling sensation. My body is warm at spots where he spanked and flogged me. It wasn’t too hard. Each
