Pain
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"One year has passed everything changed one year ago in my life ,I found a reason but I also found more pain Haha its funny I know but "love always comes with pain" the day I saw her in that cafe where she was working because the owner of the cafe is very old so she used to work there in return she just want her favorite cup of coffee .after that day I follow her whenever she went ,like a shadow I followed her .I saw her crying in mid night ,I saw her obbesion with coffee, I saw her every little detail about her body ,her face her nails color also but she never paid attention to the things around her
She was in her own world that she never saw that someone also cry in night's with her someone also smiles seeing her smile but someone also break whenever he saw her with Tyler....Tyler I wish I was Tyler I never compare myself with anyone but when I saw her I wish that how beautiful my life will be if I were at her place.....
I also knows that Tyler is also mangled with elina I also knew that he never wanted to married ana the day when ana went to marrY him I planned that if Tyler don't came I will marry her and I did , I was happy I thought that now I will get love she will love me unconditionally but it seems like I have no connection with happiness on our wedding night she was laughing and screaming Tyler's name ,after that night actually every night she murmured Tyler's name .
On the second day of our marriage she cooked food for me she is a my innocent child but she told me I'm looking like a child that day I wanted to made love with her but I controlled myself
Every day she used to find excuses to know more about me but in the night she never thought about me her mind and dreams always filled with Tyler's thoughts just like whole day I think about my business but in the night my dream belongs to her her cute smile.but I never forced her for anything at least for a month she cooked breakfast dinner for me but after that she didn't even asked me I eat or not you want to know the reason ofcourse it is Tyler I welcomed this pain also with my open arms, I told you I have a deep connection with pain but I trusted her whatever she told I trusted her but in return what I got heartbreak my doctor admitted me for 3 days because of my unbearable heart pain, when I she told me that she is going to park but she went to meet Tyler, she kissed him when she came home ,I waited for her to open her her mouth but she told me that she had met her uncle today , i felt like poking I tortured myself I cried until I couldn't anymore....
But I still love her I do every day ,every single second. I
Want her to hold me when at midnight I cried in shower because of my unbearable pain ,I want her to hold me a little when I beat myself ,I want her to fill my life with colors when I always choose black I just want her.....
But she wants only Tyler, even she now didn't pay attention to my dark circles my ,swollen eyes she ceases Tyler's cheeks that lucky basterd
It it's been a year ,3 months .we have been married for three months f*****g 3 months ,I thought that when I will marry her I will enjoy the rest of 7 months of my life with ana and after that my everything will be belong to ana even my whole empire which I build ,when doctor told me about this I just....just want to be happy with my ana ,my love I transferred my whole property to ana ,after 4 months when I will die she will be able to live her life happily
At least God is not that ungrateful when I wake up in the morning Ana's long hair cover's her entire face and my chest she sleeps like a panda I smile every day when I see her like that but soon it vanished when in the day Tyler hug her kiss her or in night when she lie
After 3 months I don't know if I even able to hold a pen or not but now I want to write or share my all pain in this diary because I m alone, yet I have everything money, power a beautiful wife but I have no one I just want a one last thing from you God just when my soul will leave my body I want my ana to hold me i know its impossible but just i want
I don't know ana when you will be found about my this little secret dairy room but when you will just don't blame yourself for your lies
Now good night my dairy" I sign walking out of my secret room which is in the bathroom, ana is sitting on the bedroom couch she look into my eyes thn my body ouchh!!!!I'm half n***d
"Sorry...its.... I forgot to wear clothes "I said scratching my back neck
"Did I ever tell you how hot you are"ana said ,shocking me to the cure
"Ummm....what....no...you never"i shutter
She closed the gap between us wrapping her arms around my neck she said "can I kiss you"i saw sadness in her eyes ,I m seeing this from past couple of days maybe Tyler and ana fight
"Why you want to kiss me"i asked
"Because you're my husband, "she replied, how funny this is she never think about me when she spend her day with Tyler
"Ana ....I...I can't " my eyes filled with tears shrugging her hands
"I love you Daniel....so much "ana said tears also filled in her eyes, she never talk to me like this than why today
"Don't make fun of me ana please "I whispered as more tears fell from my eyes
"Please ...... let me hold you ....let me erase your pain .....let me Daniel "she whispered,placed her head my chest
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