Torn between two mates

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2 months later

Maze POV 

Its been over 2 months since Billie basically kicked my ass at Jax’s house. Nothing was the same. We barely talked and when we did she would give me cold, short responses. She avoided me at all costs, she stopped coming out for nights out in the city, and she basically stopped being Billie. It was now summer vacation and usually we always plan a trip to the beach, but this time it was different. Billie wasn’t sure if she was coming, she kept saying she needs time. How much more time does she need? I missed her. I missed her laugh. I missed her barging into my room. I missed everything about her. How can you miss someone so much when you live with them? Even when she was home she always kept her room closed. She would only use the living room if I wasn’t home. She would cook, but only while I was at work. How can everything be the “same” but yet so different. Jax was right by my side. He can see that both of us were hurting but he said the same thing that she needs more time. I had just gotten home and her car is out back. Usually I work until 3:00 but I had taken a half day and was home by noon. I didn’t tell Billie but maybe I should’ve in case she wanted to leave. I walked through the gate and I saw the back door open and I could’ve never been more happier. Something that used to piss me off, gave me some new hope that things can start going back to normal. I walked into the house and it was silent. I made sure to be extra quiet so I wouldn’t disturb her if she wasn’t in her room. I hung my keys up and I noticed her phone and keys were on the counter top. As I set my phone down, I noticed her phone light up. She had so many unread messages. 

Bex: hey girl, I should be home in about a week or so! PLANS?! 

Jax: Hey B, how u feeling? Did you talk to him?

Random number: Hey sexy, swing by.

Random number 2: Let’s fuck

Random 3: Hotttieeeee?

Paul: Guys night out ? 

Bryan: Hey, did you want to meet at the same café again?

That message caught my eye. Who the f**k was Bryan? Who was I kidding? He is probably the better choice for her then me. I don’t deserve her. I don’t deserve her time. I don’t deserve her touch. I was heading upstairs when I saw her. She was on the couch cuddled up with her favorite blanket holding a book. she looked so gorgeous so comfortable and I just felt this wave of sadness hit me. I passed her slowly so I wouldn’t wake her and made my way to room and closed my door. The next thing I did, I even surprised myself. I broke down and cried heavily. I never cried over any girls before because I figured there would always be more. But this time was different. I wanted Billie and I knew I couldn’t have her. I didn’t deserve her. I cried for what felt like hours until my eyelids got heavy and I drifted off into a deep sleep. 

Billie POV: I woke up to the sound of a door closing. I looked around and realized I must’ve felt asleep while reading my book. But wait, who was in the house? I looked over and it was only 12:15, did someone come in? Maze wouldn’t be home for another 3 hours, should I call him? I slowly got up and tip toed to the kitchen and I grabbed my rolling pin. I let out a sigh of relief when I see Maze’s keys hanging on the hook and I peek out the window and see if truck outside. Why is he home early? Did something happen at work? Was he sick? I decided that I wanted to go upstairs and check on him. I walked slowly up the stairs because I was so nervous. Things were so different but we both needed time to heal. I stopped in front of his door and went for the door knob and I stopped when I heard him crying on the other side. I froze. Wait. Was he crying? I have never seen him cry before. Ever. I reached again for the doorknob when I heard so faintly, “Billie, I’m so sorry,” and with that his sobs just got louder and louder. I stood outside his door for an entire hour. I wanted to go in and comfort him, but a part of me told me not too. He needs to feel what I felt. What I’m still feeling. I backed away slowly from his room and my heart sank. I wanted to hug him. Hold him. Kiss him and tell him everything was going to be alright, but I needed more time. I walked back downstairs and went for my phone. I had a couple of messages that made me roll my eyes but I only wanted to talk to Jax. Bex had texted me too and I sent her a quick Yes! Lets plan once your home!

Billie: Hey Jax, im feeling ok…Maze is home from work early do you know why?

Jax: Are you going to talk to him? And no? he didn’t tell me anything. Maybe not feeling well? Ill shoot him a message. 

Billie: I was going to go ask him and I heard him, he was crying……

Jax: Hes hurting because he hurt you…

Billie: Did he tell you that? Do you guys talk about me? What did he say?

Jax: Woah! Slow down and you need to talk to him B, not hear it from me. 

Billie: I gotta meet Bryan later tonight at the café to go over some new recipes. Maybe I should see if Maze doesn’t have plans tomorrow then maybe we can talk? Maybe movie night? Can you come?

Jax: Sorry B, this you have to do alone, okay? It’s best for the both of you. Just be honest. Goodluck, love ya

Billie: yeah yeah yeah love ya 2 jerk

Jax: ;)

I looked over and heard a small vibration and it was Maze’s phone going off on top of the microwave. I went over and it was Jax.

Jax: Hey man, how’s work? Hang later? Hmu.  

I was glad, he didn’t rat me out and say that I told him, that he was home from work early. I was curious and I looked at other messages he had.

Bex: Hey fuckface, plans this summer?

Paul: Long time no see and no talk. What’s been going on?

Eli: Hey fucker, stop avoiding everyone, lets have a guys night this weekend. Well plus our both Bs lol. 

Mark: Douchbag, did you fall off the face of the earth????

Evan: MAZE??? You alive???

Sasha: Handsome? I can cheer you up!

Ellie: Hey wanna hang?

Sarah: You over her yet? Come on your boring!

Random number: Make me cumm!!!!

I felt so sad he was avoiding all our friends. I didn’t know this. Did everyone know what happened? Did they know what was going on? It made me mad that he other girls messaging him, but why did I get so mad? It took all I had in me to walk away from his phone before I messaged those skanks back. Maze and I were in a rough patch, but we wanted to be together right? I’m lost in my thoughts and grab my phone. I just remembered I needed to text Bryan back. I had met Bryan two weeks ago at this baking class I was taking to get my mind off everything, and it turn out his grandmother is from Italy and she has some awesome recipes. We’ve been meeting for some drinks and exchanging recipes and different blogs. Plus, he was a really good friend. And oh yeah, he’s also gay. 

Billie: Hey Bryan, yes same café I love that coconut milk drink! I have some new blogs we can look at. Ill bring my laptop. 

Bryan: omg girl tell me about it! Its so yummy. Sounds good what time? 

Billie: 1 hour?

Bryan: Seriously only one hour to get ready?! Fine 

Billie: u love me !

Bryan: don’t push it! 

Billie: :(

I chuckled out loud and was starting to make my way upstairs, when I suddenly bumped into Maze. I bumped off his chest and was going to fall down and then he caught me. “I’m sorry, I just wanted to grab a drink and my phone, B.” There was nothing more I wanted to do then to take my hands and wrap them around his neck and bring him closer. But I composed myself and looked up at him. “It’s ok,” I softly squeaked out. I looked him and our eyes met. His eyes were tired and I can see the look of sorrow in his eyes. Hey gave me a soft smile and walked passed me over to his phone. “Hey, you busy tomm?”I blurt out and look at him. He was turned around but I see him freeze in his steps and he tenses up and slowly turns around and looks at me. “No, I’m off all day,” he said softly while picking up a glass and getting some water. “would you like to talk and have a movie night?” I asked while I twirl my shirt in my fingers and look at my feet. “If that’s what you want, I’ll do it,” he replies softly. “ok, tomorrow then,” I quick say and turn around quickly to go upstairs. I ran up the steps and close my door and I find myself heavily breathing on my bed. Just one more day. I am so excited! Oh crap, let me get ready to go meet bryan before he has a hissy fit!