Tristans affair

3. WORST

MEILYN MILLY

I sipped on my wine as i waited. Angry and saddened a the same time. I am not even horny nor do i want anyone ,but its not fair that he gets to sleep with someone whilst i wait like a useless possesion. I am done having Tristan Zelda invade my thoughts and my body.If he cant leave me be then he will have to share me. I do not care if e finds out or not , i need to do this for my own conscious . I have never slept with anyone after him because the first time he f****d me , he claimed me and ruined me for anyone. I did not dare wish, let alone look at another guy.He was the one who knew how to get me at my highest and till today he is the only person . It did not have to be complicated like that. I wish it was only me he f****d like that.The doorbell rings and i am brought back to reality. I sigh and smirk and then i open the door. Azele smiles clearly liking what he sees. I nstead of the pyjamas i was wearing i changed into a red silk night gown and underneath is my lingerie,black stockings and black underwear. My boobs spill out of he bra and it becomes a sight for his sore eyes.

"i must say i like what im seeing"I smile

"come in" he walks inside and i look outside feeling as if someone is watching me. I check both sides and then i close the door.

NEXT MORNINGThe sun pierces the curtains and goes direct into my eyes and i open them knowing my day has already started. I sit up straight and i notice Azele staring right besides me . It was pointless the whole night under somebody else moaning and cusssing , every single thing was not enough to get that man's image from my mind. Its like he lives inside my head. I almost moaned his name at some point. I sigh, my first sigh in the moaning, a thousand of those are going to come as the day proceeds. I walk into my bathroom and i start my morning routine dreading work today. I come out of the bathroom and shuffle for clothes in my closet . I find a black longsleved dress that rests above my knees and i wear a blazer on top of it. I get in my silver heels and i opt for silver jewelery. I leave my hair down reminding myself how i need a new hairstyle by the end of the week . I grab my black purse and i make coffee . I zone off until i feel hands behind my back

"penny for your thoughts princess" Azele says behind me and i force a smile

"nothing" i pour my coffee then i look at him

"I need to go to work so can you get your things so i lock up" he sighs because he already know what it means . He gets his things and leaves and i follow behind him getting in my car.I am a bit late and i get stuck in traffic but alas i make it to work. I hurriedly walk to my office and i put my bag down and i get started with work. Astrid enters the office holding a bunch of files and i smile defeated.

"sorry" she mouths as she places them down

"I dont know how this is going to work but i will have to make this work somehow" i state wearing my glasses

"Can i get you coffee perhaps" she asks

"no i came prepared" she smiles

"is he in the office"

" yeah" she says and then she leaves the office . I sigh and get started with work. I have so many files to work on since he has decided to not frequent the office anymore. The engagement has him tied up and as his secretary i have to chime in and handle everything. At least he pays me handsomely for that. I work on the files and put the ones that need his attention on the side. Its not even 12 and my back pains . I stand and take the files i need to take to him then i make my way to his office. On the way i meet Monica and she looks at me up and down before she states

"he said no one should disturb him" she says with disdain. I understand her frustrations but today i am not in the mood.

"I do not intend to disturb him , thats why i am going to leave the files then leave"

she scoffs and walks away making sure she bumps into me. I chuckle angrily before making my way into his office. I knock and he does not answer. I sigh and make my way

"Mr Tri...." he interupts me

"I am pretty sure Monica told you i dont want anyone to disturb me youre no excpetion Meilyn" i look at him shocked and he does not spare me any glance

" I am sorry i just need to..."

"get out " he commands. To say i am shocked would be an understatement. I look at him wide eyed and then he decides to spare me a glance

"excuse me" i say shocked

"you heard me , get out" i look at him anger seething through me and i leave his office. I walk to hurriedly to my office , people sparing glances at me and some snickering . I close my door and i get my bag , taking my pills i drink them and take a deep breath calming myself. I really need the doctors appointment that i keep delaying so i take the phone and call the doctor scheduling my appointment in the afternoon. I am still trying to process his attitude towards me. I have seen him angry but he has never in his life raised his voice at me. Nommater how many times i have shunned him away he has never shouted and of all days today is the day he does this. I am seething with anger as i sit on my chair. I put my head on my desk, sighing i decided to do what i get paid for. By 12 most of the files are sorted so i decide to ue my lunch for my doctors appointment. I take the files and i go to Astrid's office. Upon entering i see he is there and they both immediately shut up . I give the files to Astrid

"please can you leave these in Mr Zeldas office" i turn to walk away

"where are you going " he half shouts at me . Astrid looks at him disaprovingly the she looks at me

"Mr Zelda senior is coming , you need to be present"i hold back my tears but my voice still breaks

" I will be back by then " i say then i leave before anyone could say anything

I walk to my car . I get in and i have my little crying session before driving to the hospital. I walk to Doctor Steenburg's office and she smiles upon seeing me

"I can explain"i say and she interupts

"theres no explanation as to why you are not paying attention to your own health. Sit down" she always makes me feel guilty. I quietely sit down.

"Are you taking your medication" she looks at me

" yes"

"I hate to say this but your health is declining and you will regret not having that operation done Meilyn" your blood is depleting and these pills will be futile at some point. I fight my tears and i look down

"just get the operation done please its not like you cannot afford it you...."

" please " i finally cry after long.

"thats my decision i dont want to change anything " she does not say anything . She takes more tests but i can see the sign of defeat in her eyes. After she is done she gives me more pills and i bid her goodbye. I have another hour to spare so i decide i have one last place to visit. I get to the prison and knowing me the guards let me in. I sit on the chair and i wait for him to come. He comes in and sits on the chair oppposite me. This sight still breaks my heart but i look at him and i smile.

"whats wrong baby" he knows before i can tell him that something is wrong .

" my life is falling apart dad " my voice breaks

"what did the doctor say" he sighs and looks at me pity on his face . I remove my glasses and wipe my tears

"she said my blood is depleting faster and the pills might stop working at some point"

"You should call her"

"NO" i shout

He sighs , he wants to hug me but his hands are tied. All he can do is hush me from the other side

" you need to come back , i miss you daddy" i wipe my tears

"i will be out soon " he states. I miss him. He is the only person present in my life . He is the only one who cares about me . I wish for the day he comes out.

"what happened to the guy you were seeing, your boss" I look down in shame then i sigh

"he is to be married soon" i sniff

" leave him be , he is not worth you loosing your life"

"I know" i sigh not wanting to have this conversation. I stand up and smile faintly.

" I have a meeting in thirty minutes its hectic at work i have to go" he smiles at me then as usual he breaks the room and comes to hug me , much to the guards dismay.

"i am coming soon princess , youre not alone i love you" i hug him back

" I love you too daddy" we break the hug and then i leave. I rush to the office and i am a bit late. I leave my bag and i rush in the boardroom and i feel a bit embarrased because everybody is sitted and all eyes are on me as i enter. I bow and apologise and as if he senses something is wrong Mr Zelda senior dismisses me. I think my eyes are still red from all the tearing up. I sit on the chair facing Tristan and he sits besides his fiance and Astrid is on the other side. There are a few board members which means is just as important. Mr Zelda speaks on the company and the profits that are coming. He mentions a new investor who he tasks everybody is suppose to please so he can sign a deal with us. He mentions Tristans engagement and how he will not be frequently be visiting the office and my heart drops to my chest. I am lost in my own world and i do not notice him call out my name

"Meilyn" Astrids calls for me and all eyes are on me.

"I uh i apologise" Mr Zelda senior looks at me then sighs

"I trust you Meilyn , to do your job properly, you have never let me down before so please dont start now, you will hamdle most of the work and i will have the others report to you is that understood"

" yes sir " i fix my glasses and the meeting proceeds. I do not spare a glance at Tristan i am even too tired to think about him anymore and as soon as the meeting is done i leave and take my things. I get in my car and drive home hoping the day does not get worser than it is.