Worthless

1955 Words
Six months. The numbers had stopped meaning anything a long time ago. But if you asked Serena, she'd tell you it was six months and twelve days since Day Zero, six months and twelve days since her mother's last text — *I'm okay baby. I'm okay. Stay safe. I love you.* — six months and twelve days since she'd let herself believe that survival was something you earned, not just something that happened to you while you were waiting to die. Safe Zone 7 had grown. Fifty thousand people now, packed into a perimeter that had expanded three times already and was preparing for a fourth. The walls were reinforced concrete, ten feet high, topped with razor wire and watchtowers. The sectors were fixed now, permanent, with the Alphas at the center and the Omegas ringing the outer edge like a buffer between the living and everything else. She'd been reassigned four more times. Inventory. Sanitation. Laundry. Latrine maintenance. Currently, she was on burial detail — not the actual digging, but the documentation. She catalogued the dead, recorded their names and classifications, tried to make them into something more than bodies. It didn't help. Nothing helped. But it was work, and work kept her hands busy while her mind tried not to think. --- The new arrivals came in on a Tuesday. The processing station was crowded, as always — people stripped down for medical examination, children crying, adults too exhausted to do either. The Omega intake line was longer than it had been six months ago. More Omegas were surviving the initial conversion now, or at least surviving it differently, their bodies accepting the infection in ways that left them alive but changed. Serena was supposed to be directing traffic — pointing new Omegas toward the registration desk, the medical screening, the intake shower. She was standing at her post, clipboard in hand, watching the line snake around the temporary barriers, when she saw the woman being guided through by a Beta escort. She was young — maybe nineteen, maybe younger, it was hard to tell with the gauntness — and she was completely blind. Her eyes were pale, clouded, the irises milky white in a way that spoke of a disability that predated the outbreak. She moved with the careful confidence of someone who had been navigating a dark world long before the world itself went dark. "Name?" the registrar asked. "Zara Okonkwo." "Classification?" The escort answered. "Omega. Confirmed at intake checkpoint." " assigned housing. Building 14, Room 7. Escort her there." The escort pointed at Serena. "You. Take her." It wasn't a request. --- They walked in silence for the first five minutes. Serena guided her by the elbow — a technique she'd learned from watching the Beta escorts, firm but not controlling. The path from processing to Building 14 wound through three sectors and two checkpoints, and the journey gave her time to study the woman beside her. Zara walked like she was listening to something. Her head tilted slightly, catching sounds Serena couldn't hear. Her lips moved occasionally, as if she was having a conversation with someone no one else could see. "You're wondering why I'm not scared," Zara said. Serena flinched. "I wasn't—" "You were. I can hear it. The way your breathing changes when you look at me. The hesitation in your step when we pass the checkpoints." She smiled. It was a small, private smile. "You think I'm fragile. You think you need to protect me." "I don't think that." "You think it anyway. It's okay. Everyone does." They passed through the second checkpoint. The guard barely glanced at them — two Omegas, one guiding the other, nothing worth noticing. Serena kept her eyes forward. "What happened to you?" she asked. "Before. Your eyes." "Congenital. Born blind. My mother used to say I saw things the rest of the world couldn't." Zara's smile faded. "She died on Day Zero. I was in a shelter with her when the infected broke through. I heard them before anyone else did. The way they moved — the sound was different. Wrong. Like something was pulling at them from the inside." She paused. "I got out. She didn't." "I'm sorry." "Don't be. You didn't kill her." Zara's hand tightened on Serena's arm — a brief pressure, there and gone. "You're not the kind of person who hurts people. I can feel it. You're... hollow. Emptied out. Like someone scooped everything soft and warm out of you and left just enough to keep walking." Serena didn't respond. They walked the rest of the way in silence. --- Building 14, Room 7 was a six-person dorm. Zara was assigned to the corner bunk, and Serena helped her settle in — showed her where the door was, the latrine, the emergency exit. It was the kind of thing she'd learned to do without thinking, the automatic efficiency of someone who had stopped expecting help and started giving it instead. "Thank you," Zara said, sitting on the edge of her bunk. "What's your name?" "Serena." "Serena." She tasted the word. "That's a name for someone who fights. From the Latin 'serenus' — calm, peaceful. But there's another meaning. 'Serious.' The serious one." She tilted her head. "Which one are you?" "I don't know anymore." Zara smiled again. It was the kind of smile that should have been comforting but instead made something cold move in Serena's chest. "You will," she said. "You're close to something. I can feel it. Like standing next to a storm about to break." --- They started eating together after that. It wasn't a conscious decision. Serena had been eating alone since she arrived — sitting in the corner of the mess hall with her tray, eyes on her food, ears closed to everything else. But after Zara, it felt wrong to go back to that. So she sat across from the younger woman at the Omega table and ate her cold rations and tried not to think about why it mattered. The other Omegas noticed. Of course they did. Eating with someone was a statement, a claim, an admission that you existed in relation to another person. The unspoken rule of Building 14 was isolation. Zara was breaking it. "You shouldn't sit with me," Serena said one evening, three weeks after they'd met. "People talk." "Let them." "Zara—" "Serena." Zara set down her fork. She was eating less than she should have been — the rations were barely enough for someone with full sight and full function, and for someone navigating a world that didn't accommodate her, it was worse. "I've been blind my whole life. I know what it's like to be invisible. To be the person everyone else looks through because they don't know what to do with you." She reached across the table and found Serena's hand. Her grip was warm, certain. "You don't look through me," she said. "You look at me. You see me. Do you understand how rare that is?" Serena didn't say anything. She couldn't. But she didn't pull her hand away. --- The nightmare came on a Thursday. She was back in the Walmart — not the memory of it, but the dream-version, stretched and distorted by six months of trying not to think about it. The aisles stretched into infinity. The fluorescent lights buzzed and flickered. The things in the dark were watching her. She was running, but her legs wouldn't work. She was screaming, but no sound came out. And in front of her, stretching back farther than she could see, were the dead. Hundreds of them. Thousands. All standing still, all facing her, their black eyes catching the light like stars. And then — one of them moved. It stepped forward, out of the line, and looked at her. Not at her body. At her. Into her. Through her. And it smiled. She woke up gasping, her heart slamming against her ribs, her wrist burning like someone had pressed a hot iron to the brand. She clapped her hand over it, feeling the raised letters beneath her skin — O-M-E-G-A — and the heat radiating from them in waves. "Serena?" Zara's voice, from the bunk below. "Are you awake?" She couldn't speak. She just breathed, ragged and loud in the darkness. "I'm awake," Zara said. "I've been awake. You've been — I could feel you. Something's happening to you. Something big." "I had a dream." "I know. I was there." A pause. "Not physically. But I was there. I saw them too." "You saw—" Serena sat up. "You saw the dead?" "All of them. All at once. And they were looking at you." Zara's voice was steady, certain. "Serena, they know who you are. Not the you that files manifests and cleans latrines. The you underneath. The real you." "That's impossible." "I told you. I was born seeing things other people can't." Zara sat up in her bunk. The darkness in the room was absolute — the backup generators only ran essential services, and the Omega dorms weren't essential. "On Day Zero, before anyone else knew what was happening, I could feel them. The infected. The ones who'd turned. They felt like — pressure. Like standing next to a waterfall. I knew they were there before I heard them." "What does that have to do with me?" "I can feel everything. But you — you're different. You're not receiving. You're transmitting." Serena's wrist burned. Zara continued, her voice dropping to a whisper. "I've been reading the old texts. The pre-outbreak texts, the ones that were classified and buried and forgotten. There's a history no one talks about. A name for people like you." "What name?" "Omega." Zara said it differently this time — not like a classification, not like a sentence, but like a title. "Do you know what the Greek alphabet means? Alpha. Beta. Omega. The beginning. The middle. The end. They called the outbreak survivors by those names because they didn't understand what they were really naming." "Understanding what?" "The end. Omega means 'the end.'" Zara's hand found Serena's in the darkness. "Ancient cultures believed in something they called the Omega Point — the final state, the ultimate convergence, the moment when everything becomes one. They thought the universe was moving toward a final purpose, and that purpose was called Omega." "You're saying—" "I'm saying the people who classified us got it backward. They thought Omega meant weakest. But Omega means last. Omega means final. Omega means the one who ends things." She squeezed Serena's hand. "You're not weak, Serena. You're the end of something. And I think — I think whatever's in those dead things, whatever's driving them, they know it too. They're afraid of you." The burning in her wrist shifted. Not pain anymore. Warmth. Like blood returning to a limb that had been numb for months. She looked down at her brand in the dark. And for just a moment — so brief she might have imagined it — the letters glowed. --- She didn't tell anyone else. What would she say? *I might be something other than human. The dead know it. My friend who can't see says I'm supposed to end the world.* She went to work. She filed manifests. She cleaned latrines and stacked supply crates and ate her meals alone even though Zara sat across from her now, a small act of rebellion that cost more than anyone would ever know. But at night, in the dark, she listened. And sometimes — just sometimes — she thought she could hear them too. The dead. Not moving. Not hunting. Just... waiting. For her.
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