Katherine's Fate

Chapter 17

I stood and listened to what Liam was telling me. I knew in my heart that he was right but how could I tell him that I wasn’t as strong as every one of them thought I was? How did you explain to people who have known you so long that the person they knew was still there she is just buried so far beneath the pain and hurt that you don’t know how to find her again? I did my best to not allow the tears burning my eyes to fall, but I couldn’t have stopped them once they started. I looked up at Will and Liam as they fell and said, “I’m so far beyond sorry. I know that I have caused great suffering but I don’t know how to change the fact that I got away from who I should be. The girl you all knew is still somewhere inside but I don’t know where she is or how to get back to her.” I felt strong arms come around me and looked up at Alex as he offered me comfort. 

Somehow that just made the tears fall faster and I didn’t know what to do, so I allowed the heartache and pain to flow out of me with my tears. We stood there for what felt like forever but I know it was only about 10 minutes. No one said anything or even moved while I let go of the pain I felt for the last three years of being cut off from my friends and family. Once I had managed to stop crying I looked at Will and said, “Is there anything you want to add?” When he said, “No, I think enough has been said tonight, I will say my piece another night.” I looked at him with red rimmed eyes and said, “Why wait? You want to put me through more tears? You wish to rip my heart out on another day? Please William just tell me what is weighing heavily on your heart.” I never called him by his full name, and I think that is what really got him to talk.

He looked at me with brotherly love in his eyes and said, “I just want to say that you are not the same woman we knew so long ago. And I know this is going to hurt more than anything anyone could ever say but I think it needs to be said.” He paused for a moment while he gathered his courage to say whatever it was. I had a feeling that I knew what he was about to say but I hoped I was wrong. He took a breath and said, “Austin would be very disappointed in you.” 

That was what I had been waiting for. I knew one of them would say it I just didn’t expect it from Will. I looked at him and said, “You may very well be right, but whether he is or not doesn’t matter. I know he is watching over me from the beyond. In my darkest moments, when I felt utterly alone with my pain, guilt, and shame he was right there with me. He may not be able to protect me the same as before, but I know his strength is with me no matter what. You know I think we need Chad in here as well. He is just as close to me as he was to Austin, he deserves to say his piece as well. Lin go grab him from the bar please.” Lin moved toward the door but Liam said, “I don’t think that is necessary, he has nothing to do with any of this.” 

That was how Liam wanted to play this, ok. I warned Alex that my blow up was coming. I pushed away from Alex as I got closer to Liam and spoke in Romanian as I said, “He has nothing to do with this? Are you f*****g kidding me Liam? You just told me that he nearly went crazy and broke down my door. You and I both know he deserves to tell me how he really feels, not put on this stupid happy façade that he had on earlier when I talked to him. You did that didn’t you? You used your power to make sure he didn’t say anything out in the restaurant. Well I need to know what he thinks. Matter of fact I’ll go get him my damn self.” 

I moved toward the door but Liam moved quicker than the human eyes could follow and was standing in my way before I got two steps. I looked him in the eyes and said, “Move out of my way. Now.” He put a hand on my shoulder and said, “Calm done little one. You will settle nothing by being mad at me.” Oh no. He didn’t go there, I looked at him as I said, “Liam I’m going to give you 5 seconds to get your hand off me and move or by the Great Goddess you will be hurting. You and I both know that of the people in this room I’m one of the only ones that can hurt you.” He looked at my eyes and I saw his eyes widen for a moment before he moved out of the way.

I left the office and went towards the bar. As I got closer Chad noticed me and moved over to me and asked in soft Romanian, “My little fire, what is the matter? You might want to be careful who you look at like that.” I spoke back, “What do you mean? What look?” He laughed and said, “Your eyes are glowing green little fire. It’s like there are flames within them.” I softly touched my face and said, “That explains why Liam followed my order to move out of my way. I need you in the office.” I kept my eyes downcast until we got back into the office. When I looked around everyone’s eyes widened and Heather took a small step back as she gasped. I guess my anger is still a little out of control. How do I stop this? I said, “I guess I’m not exactly normal. I’m sorry guys I didn’t think this would happen again, it hasn’t happened since my brother died.” I closed my eyes and pinched the bridge of my nose as I tried to get a handle on my anger. 

I felt Alex move close to me, but I backed away from him as I said, “Please don’t touch me right now. I have an idea what is going on but I didn’t think it would happen again. Liam how do I stop this?” I looked at Liam to see him staring curiously at Alex and Kris. I looked up at him as well and noticed that his eyes were a little brighter than they should be. What was that all about? Kris’s were the same way, and then I realized that Kris was looking at Heather. I looked over at her and her eyes seemed a little brighter as well. What did this mean? I said, “Liam, I need your help. How do I stop this?” Liam finally looked at me as he said, “To be perfectly honest, I don’t think I can tell you anything of any good except, let Alex help you.” I was confused as I said, “What can Alex do that you can’t? My eyes are freaking glowing, the same way Austin’s used to. You helped him, but now your saying you can’t help me.”

Liam looked at me then at Alex and he said, “I think he can help you more than I can. I would do what I can but I already tried when you went to get Chad. There is nothing I can do, but I say let him try.” I looked over at him and said, “Can you help me? I don’t know how to get it to stop.” He looked at me and said, “I think I can, I think you know a little of what is going on but you don’t know all of it. I promise the time is rapidly approaching for me to tell you but not right now. Do you want my help?” I looked down for a moment; he knows what is going on with me. But he won’t tell me yet. I said, “Yes I still want your help. I can’t get a handle on my anger right now but I can’t leave this room without some help.” 

He said, “Ok, close your eyes; I’ll do what I can.” I closed my eyes and waited to see what he would do. I felt him place his hands on either side of my face. As soon as his hands touched me it felt like I was on fire from the inside out. A warm tingling sensation began to replace the fire and I didn’t want it to stop. I opened my eyes to see that his face was only inches from mine. I heard his voice in my head say, ‘Calm yourself, rely on my strength, count on me as no other, and believe that I will love and cherish you above my own life.’ I was shocked, did that just happen? What the hell was happening to me?