To Be Loved

Chapter 3

"Calm down, man. It's just a coffee with Mr. Alex. What's the problem?" She was feigning innocence.

"Ha-ha, yeah, right, silly of me. What's the problem? It’s just that my wife is going to drink coffee, which she wasn’t supposed to drink in the first place with this strange man in his office. Oh, what was his name again?" He asked furiously.

"His name is Alex, baby." Her calmness irritated him.

"I don't f**king care what his name is." He was yelling and was about to lose his sanity.

"You're the one who asked, Omar." She was trying to hide her giggle.

"Don't try to change the topic, Mrs. Miller."

"I didn’t do that.”

“Jass!” He emphasized her name.

She sighed and said, “Omar… you need to stop your overreacting protectiveness, Mr. Angry Wolf."

He smiled at the old nickname she still calls him by when she is frustrated with him. It reminds him of their old times. At that time, he had never imagined he would love someone this deeply.

Back then, if someone had told him he would fall head over heels in love with her and he would be frightened of the thought of her leaving him, he would smash his face and make sure he wouldn’t spit nonsense again.

She is his all, and just hearing her voice, seeing her smile, or even the sound of her breath calms him down and makes him feel alive and complete.

He needs to snap out of it. Now is not the time to surrender to his thoughts and feelings. He sometimes can't control his feelings and thoughts when it comes to her. He is still afraid of losing her again. It's frightening him.

His overprotectiveness is not due to a lack of confidence in her; it's due to a lack of confidence in himself. He still feels that he is not good enough for her, and someday she will feel that way, or someone better than him will take her away.

Despite his fears and insecurity, he won't let that happen and will keep her beside him until his last breath.

''Mr. Angry Wolf, are you still there?''

''Yes, I am. So who is he?" He said it in a calm tone.

''He is Sarah's chaser, the famous Mr. Morris.” She said, with a slight laugh, that she wanted to see his facial expressions now. He must look embarrassed about his outburst. She knows about his insecurity and fears of her leaving him.

''Hey, husband of mine, I will never leave you until you tell me to. You are my first love, the first touch, the first kiss, and the father of our children, and I love you so much that I cannot even think about leaving you or looking at someone other than you. Stop thinking about what happened in the past, Omar. The past stays in the past. I am not going anywhere. You will be stuck with me for the rest of your life.''

He could feel her love for him in her voice, which wrapped around him like a warm blanket, but recently he couldn't stop thinking about that awful night. and he doesn't know why.

That night, he almost lost her because of his stupidity, his lack of trust in her, and his damn anger. He can't forget her hot red blood that was on his hands, her body losing its warmth, and her eyes closing after a long breath of pain. His heart still aches at that memory.

Jasmine stopped walking after realizing that she had reached Mr. Alex's office. Knowing what her husband is thinking about, he still can't find forgiveness in himself for something that was not even his fault or that he did.

''Please, please stop thinking about that night; you know it wasn't your fault."

"I... I know, but I..." She cut him off before saying stupid things.

"No, don’t continue and listen to me for once, please. If you hadn't come to rescue me that night, I wouldn't be alive or even have had a chance of surviving. I'm still breathing because of you. I have a wonderful family because of you. Every damn beautiful thing I have now is because of you, so don't think about the past; only think about what you and I are having right now, okay? Why did your brain recall the past again?" He didn't reply for five minutes. She would have thought that the call had ended if it weren't for the sound of his breathing. She was sure he was thinking about her words.

''I… I don’t know why my brain started to play the old memories.” He stopped talking for a minute and let out a sigh. “Okay, you are right; I will try to do that. Just know that I love you so much, and without you, I wouldn't have been the man I have become now. If you think that what you have is because of me, you are wrong. Everything I have is because of you. You make me feel complete and alive. Thank you for everything, love. '' Her heart was making a party inside, even after they had been married for five years. Any small gesture from him can make her heart beat like she has been running a marathon and make every inch of her body vibe in a good way, and he is an i***t for not noticing that.

A long sigh leaves her lips, and he hears it. “Why the long sigh, beautiful?''.

''None of your business.” She retorted.

''Ouch, that's hurt, love.”

''That's supposed to''. She heard him whine like a baby. She shook her head in amazement. She really married a big baby.

*"Ataealm ank haqan ahmaq, lakinani uhbk kathyran." She speaks in her mother tongue, and he hates it when she speaks in Arabic; he can't understand what she is saying.

''Baby, What did you say? You know I can't understand it."

"I'm not going to tell you, and that's not my problem. I told you to learn it, but you didn't listen. Bye, baby. I have reached Mr. Alex's office.''

“But baby," "Bye, Omar; have a nice day, honey." She interrupts him and hangs up.

She stood in front of the office door and took a deep breath. She was going to knock, but the door was opened by Mr. Alex.

''Mrs. Jasmine, you are finally here. I was going to look for you; I thought that you had lost your way''. Said Mr. Alex with a reluctant smile.

''Don't worry, I will not lose my way, Mr. Morris; have you forgotten that I studied here for a year and gave you a hard time? Oh, sorry, I have given you the best period of your life. Stop being formal. It's weird'', I said with a grin.

He shook his head when she called him like Sarah does. He was relieved that she hadn't changed and was still the same sassy and cheerful girl.

He shook his head. ''You didn't change. That's a relief.”

''Why would I? I am cool like this''. She gave him a smile full of confidence.

''OK, Mrs. Full of Confidence, come in; I have Brazilian coffee." When she heard that, she gave him puppy eyes, and that made him laugh hard at her. She will never change.

''Oh, I see you are still addicted to it, and for your information, I will give you a small amount of coffee. Put that in your mind.” She whined like a wronged puppy.

''Why are you so mean? If you have invited me to drink coffee, give it to me in full generosity, not in a small amount, old man.” She fought back.

"No, I will not, and don’t call me an old man, young lady." He warned her.

''You are so stingy, Mr. Alex, and I will get what I want.'' Her challenging tone was clear to his ears.

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* You know you are an i***t, but I love you so much.