Unforgiveable

Sneaking Out

                                                                                     Crissy's Pov :

Omg ! What the hell am I doing. I love my husband I really do but Marquan is right he's not just a crush. Of course I couldn't tell him that but in all honesty I was in love with Marquan as well. It's been hell trying to avoid him. Every time I see him I get a little hot. Tavias was good in bed but Marquan he was AMAZiNG. The things he made my body do I hadn't even experienced before.

                                              " Honey I'm home," I yelled as I entered the door.

                                               " I'm upstairs love." yelled Tavias.

                                             " Hey how are you?" I asked Tavias as I started to get undress to get in the shower.

                                             " I'm great how are you how was work?" said Tavias. He hated the fact that I was     working with Marquan. I secretly loved it.

                                           " Work was great. It was really busy today. I'm beat though. I think I'm gonna shower and get ready for bed, I can barely keep my eyes open Marquan." WHAT THE f**k DID I JUST CALL HIM.

                                           " What the f**k did you just call me Crissy?" said Tavias as he slowly stood up inching his way closer to me.

                                        " I said Tavias what the f**k are you talking about?" I said nervously trieng to play it off the best way I could. I haven't seen Tavias in physically in a year and I know they say the army can change you. I was actually scared of Tavias right now. The look in his eyes was burning a whole in my soul.

                                         " Crissy I'm gone ask you one time and one time only and God help you you better not be f*****g lieng to me. You f*****g this man? And make sure you keep it real with me. I been with you since middle school I know when you're lieng.

                                       " Tavias noooo. Nooo I'm not f*****g him," I said nervously. This man knows me like the back of his hands he knows I'm lieng right now.

                                      " Naaaaah you like him don't you? It's ok be honest we can change you liking him but if you had s*x with him we can't come back from that. " he said with sadness and anger mixed in his tone.

                                       " Tavias I have just had a long day I promise you I'm not having s*x with nor have feelings for Marquan. I have to call his name just as much as I say your name a day. I just got your names mixed up I barely been sleeping these past few days I'm so sorry I swear." I said hoping he would buy that lie.

                                    " Ok I'm going to take your word for it. I was gonna give you a dose of s****l healing but I'm more than turned off now. I'll probably be asleep by the time you get out of the shower so goodnight. " said Tavias as he got in the bed and snatched the covers over his head. Mannnnn what the hell am I doing. Marquan messed my head all up tonight. I still want to go see him though especially now that I'm horny and my husband doesn't even want to look at me. I waited until I knew Tavias was asleep before I slipped away to the guest room to call Marquan and tell him to swing by the end of my road and pick me up on the way to the hotel.

                                 Marquan and I shared a night of passion. This guy was really making me wish that I would have just told Tavias the truth so he would leave me that way Marquan and I could just be together. I love both of them but I'm emotionally connected to Marrquan more than I am with Tavias. I mean what's expected out of a relationship that I spend mostly by myself. No it doesn't make it right but what else could I do. I have needs just like a man has needs. I mean how do I know that Tavias is being faithful every time he's away.

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Shit it's morning I dozed off Tavias is going to be pissed.