Twin Flames

Chapter 9

I felt a hand on my cheek, and I focused my gaze on the person in front of me. Without knowing it, my thumb wiped the tears on her cheeks and I cupped her face. She leaned in closer to my hand and placed her hand on the back of mine. Her eyes closed as she spoke softly, “it’s warm.” It was the same as in that memory. Coming back to my senses, I moved away from her. Something wasn’t right. It felt like I knew her, yet I don’t really know her.

“Who…who are you?” I asked, not sure why I said it so lowly.

“My name’s Carlie. Well, Carlyna now, but it used to be Carlie. You knew me as Carlie,” she said softly. It was the exact same name as in that ‘memory’ that flashed into my mind. Was it alright to call that a memory? Pushing it away from my mind, I decided to get it over with. Apologize to her and leave, I told myself. “I apologize for insulting you. You saying that you know me and seeing you twice on the same day was quite overwhelming. I presumed you to be one of the women I’ve slept with looking for me just to get money out of me.” What the hell am I saying?

“I don’t need your money Mateo,” she said angrily. “I understand that I have made a mistake and I am now apologizing for it.” She stared at me for a while, “you really can’t remember me, can you?” she asked me. “Sadly no. Why are you so insistent on this?”

“Because you’re more important to me than life itself. You’ve always been. Now I need you to remember me because I need you. I need you by my side just like you promised you'd always be there,” she said softly with a lot of determination. The ‘memory’ that I saw in my mind came back to me. Did she do that? Did she make me see that? “I’ve never made such a promise,” I told her, not believing that the flashes I saw were a part of my memory. “You did in the past. Before the world came to this. I know you better than anyone.”

“doesn’t that just make you a stalker?” I asked, tired of this conversation. She was going to keep on insisting that I knew her, and it would never end. Deciding to leave, “Look Carlie, I don’t know why you think you know me, but I have absolutely no clue who you are. So please, for both our sakes, leave me alone,” I turned away from her and headed for the door.

“Your full name is Mateo Thane Giovanni. Your middle name is Thane because your older brother thought you looked like a tiny little warrior. Your brothers’ name is Vasil Giovanni. You don’t talk about him much. It took me years to learn just a little bit about him,” she chuckled lowly, and I felt something tighten in my heart. What was wrong with me? I’m always numb, but today, anything that included her made my emotions stir up from deep within me. “But you love him, you’ll always protect him no matter what and he’ll do the same for you in a heartbeat. That’s what it means for you two, since you only have each other.” I turned back to her, “how do you know all this?”

“You love sugar,” she continued, ignoring my question, “I know I can bribe you with candy any day,” a small smile formed on her lips, and I moved closer to her, “you prefer whiskey to wine. I was always the wine type. That’s why you bought them.” how does she know I have bottles of wine in my cellar? I always bought them on impulse without even knowing why. “How do you know this?” I asked her again, but she kept on talking, not bothering to answer me, “your nose scrunches up when you are trying hard not to laugh, you always clench your fist when you’re irritated. You love summer more than winter…” I grabbed hold of her hands and pinned her on the wall. “Jazz is your favorite type of music. You love travelling, you’re always looking for an adventure. It was one of the things you used to play pretend with Vasil…”

“Shut up!” I yelled at her. “Don’t talk about me like you know me. How the f**k do you even know Vasil?”

“And…and you’re a gifted. Your attribute is fire. That’s why you’re always so warm to me. Cause all I know is the cold. I know you love me, Mateo. Deep down you need to remember that and come back to me,” her eyes shone fiercely but the tears swelling inside them betrayed her. That was my secret. Only Nathan knew. How… how did she…?

“Did you mess with my head? Is that how you got to know all this? You put that fake memory in my head, didn’t you?”

“You had a memory of us?” she asked hopefully.

“Why are you asking and you’re the one who put it in my head?” I accused angrily. “My attribute is ice. My gift. Is ice,” she gritted out and froze my hands. I tried to thaw them, but it wasn’t working. Why the hell wasn’t it working? I was a fire elemental for Christ’s sake. “What did you do?” I glared at her. “In the past, there wouldn’t have been a single bit of ice on you. No matter how much I tried, you always had more control over your gift than I did. But I spent quite a long time alone. A really long time thinking, and I finally learnt that there are other forms of my ice just like there are other forms of your fire.” She drew in deep breaths as if she was trying to calm down and got rid of the ice on my arms. “Listen to the ice Mateo. Listen to my ice, to me, just like how I always listened to your fire.”

She leaned in closer and pressed her lips against mine. They were cold but they warmed me up even more than my fire ever did. I must have gone crazy because I kissed her back. Her lips were sweet, like a new type of candy only meant for me. Damn it! She was right, I can’t ever say no to something so sweet. My hands moved to her waist, and I pressed her close against me. I could feel my flames rising, the desire I didn’t know within me threatening to escape, threatening to engulf her in my flames. Our tongues danced together in my fire and her ice, creating a perfect harmony that I never imagined would exist. It wasn’t enough. I wanted more of her. Was I losing my mind? It seemed so because I took hold of her leg and raised it up to my waist. Her slit showed off her creamy skin and I pressed my arousal against her center. I heard her groan as her hands tightened around my neck. “f**k! I missed you Mateo,” she managed to say, her voice heavy and her breathing flustered. I pressed a kiss on her neck and bit on the skin. I twirled my tongue on her skin and teased her. Each time I heard her moan, I thought I was going to die. The bulge in my pants was becoming painful. How did I get so hard from just a kiss? I looked at her face and I almost gave in. Her eyes filled with desire and her cheeks flushed red. She looked so beautiful with her face showing how much she wanted me under the moon’s gaze, in this dimly lit darkness under a blanket of stars. I needed to think clearly. I wasn’t going to get involved with her. I didn’t know her. I’m not supposed to know her. But why does my body react like this towards her? It’s like my body has a mind of its own and it knows her while my mind doesn’t. I felt my bracelet tingling on my wrist. Was I losing control? I need to end this. I couldn’t afford to lose control here, not in front of her.

I closed my eyes and drew in deep breaths. I need to start thinking with my brain and not with my libido. I let her down and took a step back. She gave me a confused expression, her face still full of desire. s**t! What man wouldn’t get turned on after getting to see such a face on a beautiful woman? I wouldn’t lie and say she wasn’t pretty. When I bumped into her in the morning, she took my breath away. She still does. Her grey eyes felt like they could see deep within me. I needed to get out of here or else I would r****h her on this balcony with everyone in the ballroom around us just seconds away from finding us in a compromising situation. The thought slightly excited me and I scolded myself. This is what I pay for having such fetishes.

“Goodnight,” was the only sane word I could let out of my mouth. I walked out of the door before I could grab her again and refused to let go. “Did you apologize to her?” Nathan asked me and I walked past him. I couldn’t talk. All I needed was to take care of the baggage in my pants before I lost my mind. I got into the bathroom and locked myself in a stall. I dropped off my pants and touched myself. I imagined it was her hand jerking me off. I nearly groaned out loud. Her flushed face and her voice were on repeat in my mind. I couldn’t get rid of the image of how sexy she looked with her cheeks tinted with a rosy, red color, how she was brimming with desire for me in those grey eyes of hers. f**k! It wasn’t enough, I thought as I looked at the mess in my hands. I wanted to be inside her. I chuckled; I hadn’t m*********d in a public place like this since high school. A grown man doing this in a bathroom. I’m pathetic. I wiped my hands with a tissue and washed my hands in the sink. I got out of the bathroom and saw Nathan waiting for me outside the door. “Are you okay? What happened?”

“Nothing. I’m gonna leave now. I’ll see you in the office.”

I got into my car and drove home. I looked at my bed and I thought how it would feel to see her sprawled on my bed naked waiting for me. I felt something in my pants, and I smacked my head. Why do I do this to myself? I took a shower that did nothing to get rid of my hard on. I slumped onto my bed and wondered why the hell I even did that. It wasn’t like me to just come onto someone like that. I always thought things through before I took a woman for myself. But she got rid of my senses. Her shaky voice saying my name breathlessly ringed in my ear. I opened my bedside table and popped the pills that were supposed to be helping me get rid of my nightmares. If I didn’t take them, her face would become a nightmare to my sanity. I needed to get rid of this feeling. I closed my eyes and waited for the drugs to take effect and help me sleep without thinking of all the problems that were on my mind.