The bonfire crackled in front of us, spitting orange light into the night sky. Wood snapped, sparks floated, smoke curled into our clothes and hair. Someone passed around marshmallows and cheap soda. Music thudded from a Bluetooth speaker, half drowned by the laughter and screaming from our circle.
It was almost perfect.
Almost—because she sat next to him.
Some classmate with bangs and bare shoulders. She slipped into the spot before I could. Casual. Friendly. Too friendly. Her knees touched his.
I wanted to break her wrist.
But I smiled.
Took my place across the circle, directly facing him. I watched them with the same blank expression I always wore. Calm.
Unbothered. But my fingers were curled tight in my lap, nails digging crescents into my skin.
He didn’t seem to notice her leaning close when she spoke.
Of course he didn’t. He never noticed anything.
Until it was too late.
The bottle spun lazily in the middle of the circle, surrounded by empty chip bags and sticky fingers and flushed, laughing faces. Truth or Dare. The ritual of hormonal teenagers and secrets we were too eager to spill.
The glass spun again.
Slower.
Slower.
Until the neck pointed at me.
Everyone ooh’d. Someone whistled. Someone else shouted, “Dare!”
I blinked slowly, playing dumb. “What?”
“You have to kiss someone!” the girl beside Evren called out.
Laughter. More cheers. Hands clapping. I tilted my head like I was embarrassed. Brought my fingers to my lips like I didn’t know what to do.
But I knew.
“Oh my god,” I said with a small laugh. “Are you guys serious?”
“Yes!”
“Pick someone already!”
"Kiss someone you'd want to sleep with" someone shouted, and the circle practically erupted.
He looked up at that—eyes catching mine across the firelight. A flicker of confusion there. A pause. His posture still loose, still unbothered, but I could see the slight tension in his shoulders now.
I stood up.
Slow. Careful.
Walked through the gap in the circle like I was walking to an altar. The group fell quieter. Everyone leaned in.
I didn’t kiss him.
Not yet.
I bent down, leaned close until my lips brushed his ear and my breath ghosted down his neck.
“Just go along with it,” I whispered. “Please.”
I felt him go still.
So still.
Then I pulled back, looked at him with big, wide eyes. Silent. Expectant. The circle waited, buzzing with anticipation.
He hesitated. For a second. Two. Maybe three.
Then he stood.
The whole group lost it—laughs, cheers, teasing calls like “Oooohhh!” and “Finally!” filled the night air.
But my ears rang with nothing.
Because all I could focus on was the warmth of his body beside mine. The faint, uncertain look in his eyes. Like he wasn’t sure what was happening or why—but he was still here.
Still willing.
He leaned toward me slightly, awkward in that unsure way only someone beautiful and quiet could be. He smelled like smoke and sun and something faintly sweet—maybe marshmallows. Maybe him.
I reached for his cheek, fingers feather-light.
And finally—finally—I kissed him.
Just the corner of his mouth.
Soft. Too fast to be anything more than innocent.
But my whole body lit up like the fire behind us.
Because it wasn’t about what the kiss was.
It was about the fact that it happened. That he let it.
That I was one step deeper. One layer closer.
The crowd cheered again, and I let my fingers trail down his arm for just a second longer before sitting back down, cheeks flushed—
but not from the game.
Evren stayed standing a little too long.
And when he sat, he didn't smile. Didn't joke. Just stared into the fire.
He didn't know what it meant.
But I did.
And I would make sure he'd never forget it.