Why would he want me?

Chapter 10: Here We Go

Julie POV

I was nervous about work this week and seeing Cameron the next day. Surprisingly though everything was normal. He would say good morning to me, flash me a big smile. He did tell me how nice I looked a few times and that he was excited for Friday, but other than that he was very professional, and you would have never guessed that he had his hands all over me prior. I guess I shouldn’t be surprised, he is a police officer, and I know he takes his job seriously.

Friday is here, on my way out of work Cameron stopped me and say “6 o’clock, I’ll be at your place to get you”. There were a few stares as some of my coworkers heard him, but I told him okay, and that I would be ready.

“Awesome, I’ll see you then Julie.” Cameron said excitedly.

I am honestly nothing but a ball of nerves, I have never really been on a real date before, and I have no real idea what to expect. I went to the store after work yesterday so I could find something a normal women would wear on a date. I had no idea what to get because I have never shopped for date attire before. I went into one store and this representative was so nice, she helped me find an outfit that really made my curves look good. I was completely shocked, I was not comfy with all the skin and cleavage, but I do have to say that I did look good.

As I am getting ready, I decide that I’ll wear a little more make up then I usually do. I am not a makeup person and only ever wear mascara. I was never taught how to do my make up but after a few tutorials, I decided on a little bit of blush and lip gloss to go along with my mascara. I don’t do heels, but I do have a nice pair of flats that I thought looked cute with my outfit. I take one last look in the mirror and take in my appearance. My hair is curly and flowing past my shoulders. I am wearing a dress that sinches the waist a bit and leggings under it. My cleavage is out, and I have a half jacket on to cover up some of my arms. I never usually feel confident but even I can say that I am looking good right now.

I find myself once again pacing my living room, anxiety flaring wondering if I am doing the right thing. I know that I have a strong attraction to Cameron, something about him makes me feel safe and wanted, but I don’t know if that’s enough to risk myself.

“I need to get out of my head”, I tell myself. I am messing up everything before it even started, and I need to chill out.

“Calm down Julie, it’s not like he proposed, it’s just a date.” Even though it’s just a date, a part of me wants to be ravished by Cameron. I haven’t stopped thinking about the way he felt touching me and the fire that engulfed me. I have never burned so good, and I don’t want it to stop.

I hear the knock at the door, take some deep breathes, “here we go.”