Love Hate Relationship Series

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Although I told myself every single time that I will talk to her this time but whenever I see her, my heart beat increases and a giant lump grows in my throat and so all I could do is nod. I leave my class first every time to stand at the cafeteria door so that I will see her and for her to say hi, to which I will smile to her" he licked his lips and smiled.

Book2 Chapter27-02

"When school is over for the day, I will stand at the school gate again, so that she will say goodbye, to which I will wave. This was how it was for the both of us for one good year. The next year, I will be graduating from high school but I told myself I must win her heart, so I started putting flowers in her locker. The first day I put nine red roses but I happened to hear from her that her preference is white, so since then, it became nine white roses with a note. I never send her ten roses and I never send her one hundred roses, that is because, I believed it will only be an even number with me around and since I know that won't be possible soon, I always send her a note, handwritten by me to stand as me.

So therefore, nine roses with a handwritten note, makes it ten. Ninety nine white roses with a handwritten note, makes it a hundred, the notes stands as me while the flowers as my love. Everyday when she opens her locker to see the roses, she always smile and that always make me happy. Graduation was fast approaching, so I told myself I won't leave highschool without letting her know of how I feel.

I took a whole night to write a love letter for her, I poured out my feelings in words and I handmade an envelope which I decorated with lots of heart emoticons. I folded the letter neatly and put in the envelope, determined to give it to her in school tomorrow but at the end, I couldn't so I went to my best friend Sean and pleaded with him to help me pass it to her. Sean was aware of my feelings for her, he had seen me a lot of times sneakily putting the flowers in her locker so as my friend, he agreed.

I followed him to her class but stopped at the door and peeked inside, I watched Sean walked up to her with my letter in his hand, my heart was beating really fast at what her reaction would be. She took the letter from Sean with a smile but rather than read it, she looked at him and asked 'you are my secret admirer, aren't you?' My heart beat stopped and I looked at Sean my friend to deny it and point me as the one but rather than do any of those" Michael paused, his eyes teared up and Gary looked at him to continue with eagerness in his eyes.

"Sean nodded and claimed to be her secret admirer, my heart shattered, Sean was my friend, my best friend, so why would he? Just as my mind was thinking on Sean's betrayal, I heard her 'I knew it, with the way you always look at me, here, since you are here, there is no need being secret anymore because I accept. Sean, I will be your girlfriend' the pain I felt in my heart knew no bound, I watched as my best friend kissed the only girl I was so madly in love with.

Unable to endure the pain, I left her class and walked away, I wanted so badly to kill myself, her and Sean. Why didn't she read the letter? Why did she make assumption? What makes her so sure Sean is the one? My mind kept throwing different questions at me and it all boiled down to why she didn't read the letter. Sean returned my letter back to me saying 'sorry dude, but the girl chose me over you' I wanted so badly to punch him but I couldn't, I'm not known as a violent type in school and also, I didn't want her to see me as a bad boy. I left to meet her, to tell her I am her secret admirer, not Sean but when I saw her again, she was introducing Sean to her friends as her boyfriend, she looked so happy and I know I can't ruin her happiness, maybe the person she really love is Sean and not me.

I left and minded my business throughout the rest of the school days and I left the country three weeks after graduation, I didn't even go to prom because I couldn't take seeing them together. That was why I never had any friends again, friends are not trustworthy. It was also the reason I gave you such a hard time that first year you came along. It was my first heartbreak from her and it really killed me, you witnessed the second, third and fourth" Michael sighed and sipped from his drink, he seemed to have become a little sober after talking about his first heartbreak.

Gary was shocked and speechless, he never knew that was how it all began "but Mistress..."

"She never knew of my true feelings for her, even though she had hurt me uncountable times, she had done do indirectly, which is why I said I was wrong, I shouldn't have been angry with her for something she knows nothing about but I was just angry with her for being quick at assuming, she never cools down and let the guy identify himself, she is quick at accepting. Once the guy is from her highschool, she believes he is the one sending her flowers, that was my anger. She never gives me chance to reveal myself, she is so quick at believing that this is the person" Michael frowned as he talked about the root of his anger.

"But boss, have you ever considered the fact that maybe mistress really wants to know her secret admirer which is why she believes anyone that shows interest in her is the person?"

Michael froze, he never considered that fact "would she really?"

"Boss, no woman wouldn't want to know. I have seen the way she looked around anytime she received the flowers. I believe she really wants to know her secret admirer, which is why she accepts any man that comes her way, believing him to be the person."

Michael stared at Gary with a new realization "she might really want to know."

Book2 Chapter28-01

Michael grabbed the handrails as he slowly but gently takes each step, he was sweating profusely and was breathing heavily, with each step he took, his hands tightened on the handrails and his brows creased tightly. The gentle voice of Dr. Cage urging him on while he stood behind him, ready to grab him should he lose his balance.

"That's it. That's it. One more step. You are getting it. You are getting it. Go on, keep trying. You can do it. Good work, now one more. That's it. You are doing great. Marvelous" Dr. Cage kept praising and urging him with each step he took.

Michael let series of hard breathing escaped through his mouth, beads of sweat forming on his forehead and soaking his body and the hospital cloth he was putting on. He took one step and stopped, panting, his eyes closed as he tried to endure the pains that surged from his waist down to his feet, he licked his lips and slowly opened his eyes while shaking his head softly "I can't go on" he breathed out.

"No, no, no it's okay, you have tried for today. That's twenty steps, amazing" Dr. Cage praised and helped him sit on his wheelchair, he handed him a towel which Michael took and dabbed at his face and neck, he was still breathing heavily when Dr. Cage wheeled him to his locker to change into his clothes before wheeling him out to meet Gary.

Gary rushed to Michael when he saw him, he took over wheeling him from Dr. Cage after muttering "thank you" to him. They got outside to their car and while opening the door he asked Michael "where to boss, home or office?"

"Home" Michael answered as Gary helped him into the car. Gary shut the door and quickly got in the driver's seat before driving off.

Michael watched Gary through the barricade in the car, he could sense there was something wrong with his expression but he can't name it. He wanted to leave him be but his curiosity got the best of him "what's wrong with you?"

"Huh?" Gary looked like he had been called out of his thoughts, he glanced at Michael at the backseat briefly before putting his eyes back on the road "nothing boss, I'm good."

Michael remained silent and spoke after a while "we have been together for nearly eleven years, don't think I won't know when something is troubling you or is it because I act like I don't care a times?"

"That's it boss, when did you start caring?" Gary looked at him briefly again with a faint smile just in time to see Michael roll his eyes.

"Well forgive me for caring, I won't bother myself anymore."

Gary chuckled softly and heaved a sigh "I'm happy you are caring, at least it shows that you are still human" he took the time to joke with him.

"What the?" Michael leaned forward and passed his hand through the barricade to give him a knock but Gary saw his action through the rear mirror and dodged the sneak attack, laughing. Michael withdrew his hand and straightened his suit before asking "how is she today?"

Hearing the question, Gary's smile vanished and he looked troubled again like he really wants to say something but don't know how. Michael saw through his difficulties and asked again "what's wrong? Did something happen?"

Gary contemplated over telling him and decided to just let it off his system "boss, mistress" he sighed "mistress visited her lawyer today" he glanced at Michael through the rear mirror to see his action.

Michael's heart missed a beat when he heard 'lawyer' but he didn't let his fear show as he asked "what for?" Even though his heart was already pointing at something but he didn't want to believe it.

Gary bit his lips as he answered "she is filing a divorce."

Michael felt a lump grow in his throat, he swallowed to push it down but it didn't budge, he sucked in a deep breath and looked out through the window, he felt his eyes sting as his vision blurred. His heart grew heavy and he felt alone, the little happiness he has been getting for the past few days of watching her smile while picking up his flowers and reading his notes vanished without a trace and he felt so cold that he shivered, he tried to speak but opening his mouth caused the tears which were already forming in his eyes to drop and he reached up his hand to cover his mouth immediately while he fought to get a hold of himself.

Gary watched everything through the rear mirror and his heart ached for him, he knew his boss will be seriously affected should he learn of his mistress recent action. These past few days have left the boss really happy, he has finally opened his heart for the mistress again and he is working really hard on himself just to walk again in order to go get her back only for her to be filing a divorce even before he started working properly. A month was all it needed for the boss to work on his own again, why didn't mistress have a little more patient?