Deaths Curse (7nation army novel series)

only nix

So back to why we are here i'm at a shift point all shifters have them for me first blood was not what it was supposed to be. Usually it's your first period but for me it's the day I was r***d. It started out as a normal day with my mom and i, dad was away on alpha business, out by the lake. What happened next was the smell of blood. Then my fathers’ delta grayson staggering into the clearing bloody. Then what thought were rogues. I stood frozen and they killed her. My mothers’ screams and the scent of her blood filled the air. I screamed nothing came out. `Quiet child please no need to fear me i'm nix your dark wolf whatever happens i will take the pain’ I closed my eyes and nix took me to a place where i would not feel.

“Hello” I looked out at the place i was when it all started but no one was there but me.

“Hello” I called out again still nothing. My 7 yr old brain was not understanding. 

“ What is going on?” I cried. A hand touched my shoulder. 

“Calm child, everything will be ok.” the old woman stated.

Her eyes were as blue as an ocean. Gaze on me as steady as waves that break against the shore. She wore a tribal dress that I can only describe in my child brain as unusual. To say this woman looked ancient was not an understatement. 

“Who are you?” I asked. She chuckled. 

“Who do you think, little one?” to my amazement, i only had one answer.

“The moon goddess?” more of a question than a statement. 

“You are a smart one. I suspect that you know the story of why your pack possesses two wolves.” she asked. I shook my head yes. 

“Death and the alpha that came way before fought over a mate. The alpha cursed at death and he was punished for his disrespect. Our wolves are chosen by nature but I'm not sure mine was though.” I paused.

“Why do you think that is the case?” she posed the question. As if she did not know the answer already, more out of curiosity than anything.

“I'm too young and no one knows my true nature.” I spoke with the knowledge that was true.

“Not true and not false, but I know your heart.  See things you don't know. You and you alone have the ability to change your pack's fate. Will you choose death or the alpha?” this old lady was serious she chuckled as if she read my mind. Then I knew she did.

“Old lady huh?” i was about to apologize but she continued. “Well I know a lot which makes me a good judge. Choose what you want but be careful death does not play fair.” im really confused but cant really be mad at that. She sees this and continues on.

“Ok so the girl or mate ‘you’ is born again every so often each time you never choose. This time you must.” she sits next to me on the ground by the lake. She holds me close. I cry because im so young.

“Why is this happening to me” i sob.

“It is a gift my child. Do not worry. You will choose what is right in the end.” she paused

“How will i know?” still crying and barely audible.

“The wolves will know. They will protect you until you choose. They will not give you the answers but will give you what you need.” comforting me was what i wanted from my mother but i knew i would never have that again. Something i would never have again. It was all to much.

“But there is only nix.” i said dead calm.

“Eros will be there soon. Nix says she is a dark wolf but i would not be so sure child. Just like you there are things nix will never say. Unlike eros nix was the original wolf to the girl of the story.” seeing i had had enough of story time she left it at that and we sat on the edge of the lake watching the waves hit the shore. As i drifted off to sleep.   

 I don't know how long nix was incontrol but when i woke up almost all of them were dead. Sore and confused covered in blood but everyone in the pack heard nix. They did not come near me at all, none but greyson. He understood where nix came from and why. No pity from him just love and training.