Locked Addiction

1. Beautiful Story

I was in the middle of my piano lesson, when I heard my phone. I saw a message from my boyfriend Sebastian. "Hey babe! Big party tonight at Explosion. DJ Savage playin. Put something nice, I will pick u up at 10pm." Great, party that's what I needed. I looked at the watch. Oh, I reminded myself that my piano lesson finishes at 8.30. It was 8 already. It will take me 20 minutes to get home by bus. Maybe I will call my dad to pick me up so I can have enough time to get ready. I dialed my dad's number. I knew he would pick me up. He loves it. I don't often ask him for favours, so every time I ask him for even 5 minutes, he's really happy to spend it with me. He is a great dad. I feel guilty for not spending more time with him, but all my after-school classes, my boyfriend, part-time work and social life leaving me not much time. Maybe I took too much on my shoulders.

"Hello?" my dad answered. "Hey dad! Can you pick me up from my piano lesson today? I'm going to the party and Seb will pick me up at 10. I don't want to be late. Pleaseeee?"

"All the homework done?", "Of course dad, you know it's always done. There's nothing more important than my uni.", "I know sweetheart. Sure, I'll be waiting at the car park at the front of the school", "Thank you dad, love you!"

I am so lucky to have such great parents. I could say we were a perfect family. Me and my brother didn't have to worry about anything, we always had a lot of love in our house. Our parents were the perfect married couple. I was always dreaming of such a great relationship. Loving husband and great father for my children. Unfortunately, these days it's really hard to find a great family man. My boyfriend was lovely, but he was not really sure about having kids. I was obsessed with this guy, I could get out in the middle of family dinner when he called to go and see him. I was always worried if he was healthy and happy if he had a good sleep. I love it when he calls me. Each time we have an argument I'm scared that he will not talk to me for a while. I could cry and not sleep the whole night. I can't even count with my fingers how many arguments I had with my parents because of him. That I didn't come home for a night, that I was home late, that I forgot about grandma's birthday and was chilling all day with him, that I was crying because of him again. Well, he is really hard to get to. Sometimes he says a lot of bad things that he regrets later. I understand I make him angry a lot. He also gets quite angry when I'm shy in bed. I'm not really experienced. He was my second. I should really try harder. But I know he loves me. He always calls me the day after the argument and apologizes. I love his hugs and all the adventures we experience together.

I tried a few more songs with my teacher and finished the piano lesson. I packed my stuff and went outside. My dad was already waiting in the car park. It was raining quite heavily. I saw my dad taking an umbrella from the back seat. He got out of the car, opened an umbrella and ran to me. He hugged me and, keeping an umbrella above us both, he walked me to the car. I got inside the car. Aww, my dad was such a gentleman. I hope Sebastian will one day grow up and be like my dad. Princess from the best romance book. Maybe I'm reading too many books and expecting too much from the boys? But well, if my dad can, others can too.

We came back home. I left my wet clothes on the heater downstairs and ran to my room. I didn't have enough time to shower so I just picked up my short white dress and leather jacket. I dressed up and did my make-up again. I took a pair of white sneakers. I'm not really a heels person. I really like to be comfortable. If I could, I would go in my jeans and t-shirt but Sebastian didn't like that. I should look good for my boyfriend. I believe that you should always take care of yourself, even after a long relationship. We humans are mainly attracted to appearance, then personality.

I looked at my phone. Sebastian texted me that he was already in front of my house. I sprayed my perfume and took a last look at the mirror to see if everything looked fine. I ran downstairs and went outside. I was so excited about seeing Sebastian. I hadn't seen him for 3 days, as he was in the other city visiting his older brother.

I jumped inside his car and hugged him tight. He gave me a hug and a long, sweet kiss. "Hello baby! I missed you, looking cute as always," he said.

"Thank you, love. I missed you too. 3 days seemed like forever. I will not let you leave me for that long ever again."

"You know it's not possible, there will be time I will need to travel. But not anytime soon. Ready? Let's go partyyyy!"

"Sure, I really need it after a hard week."

We drove to the club. I was holding his hand while he was driving. I love it when he holds my thigh during the ride. His warm hand was giving me goose-flesh. We were listening to our favourite songs, looking at each other and laughing. It will be a great night!

When we arrived at the club, we left our jackets in the clock room and headed to the dance floor. Explosion club was incredible. Two large dance floors and one vip room. One dancefloor was for disco only. There were usually live singers there, quite famous in our country. It had lots of pink and yellow lighting. Round stage at the front, and backstage behind. Two bars and 10 louges on the sides. Next to the disco room there were large doors which allowed access to the club room, where only EDM music was played. This room was huge and very energetic. It had over 200 different lights and 12 large screens on each wall showing either graphics or music videos. At the front of the dance floor there was a stage. The DJ was in the middle and on the sides there were 2 balconies where lady dancers were dancing in beautiful outfits. I loved watching them, they looked so hot. I attended some dance classes, but these were usually Latino, not as hot as the one here. Music was great tonight. DJ Savage was one of our favourite DJs. When he came to the club, it was always full and everyone had a lot of fun.

We went to the bar and ordered our drinks. We also had a few shots of Jagerbomb to start with. Sebastian ordered Whiskey with cola, and I took a Pornstar Martini as usual. It was my favourite drink, but I was never limiting myself only to one type.

We took our glasses and went to our friends who were sitting at the table. We were always booking the table before the party, it's way more comfortable to have a piece of space for yourself.

Time passed quickly as we had a lot of fun. Suddenly, I noticed that Sebastin was missing for quite a long time, while I had a conversation with my friend Sandra. I looked around to see if he was somewhere near. Most of our friends had already left as it was nearly the end of the party. I asked Sandra if she had seen Seb or if he said that he was going somewhere. She said she hadn't seen him for a while. I took my phone and texted him. "Babe, where are you? I think we should go home now. The party is nearly over."

I quickly received the reply "Yeah, I just went to the bathroom. Go outside and wait next to my car. I will take something from it and we'll order a cab."

I told Sandra about the message, I said goodbye and went quickly to the bathroom. When I finished washing my hands I went outside to Seb's car. It was raining very heavily. They were closing the club doors and I couldn't wait inside, so I was just waiting next to the car. I texted Sebastian to hurry as I was soaking wet.

Few minutes passed and I started to get angry. Rain was pouring heavily and there was no sign of Seb. I tried to call him but his phone was off. I didn't know where he went. They will not let me inside the club again to look for him. I was looking around, walking from side to side as I got really cold. I took my leather jacket off me and held it above my head. I didnt wanted to get any more wet. Water was falling through my eyes and I could barely see.

Suddenly, the club doors opened, and a group of people left the club. I was hoping that it was Seb but all of them passed and the security guy closed the doors. This means that everyone left the club. Where the h*ll is Sebastian?! I left his car and headed towards the club building to see if he was not anywhere around. When I was passing the small garden next to the club used for smoking I heard laugh of a man. I decided to pass it quickly. I didn't want any trouble. Everyone was gone and I was alone. Luckily he didn't notice me. When I was walking, I heard a girl talking. I was about to go further when I heard a familiar voice. I moved back to the smoking area and I saw him, kissing ginger dancer from the club. She was beautiful, stillwearing the costume. He was holding her leg on his hips, the other hand he kept between her legs. His lips were kissing her neck. She had both of her hands laying down on his shoulders. "How could you?!" I shouted towards him. Sebastian looked at me suprised. "Ana, listen..." He moved girl to the side and started walking towards me. "How could you?! I gave you everything that I had! I love you! How could you! Why? Just why?" I fell on my knees. I started crying and shouting so badly like someone was burning me alive. It hurts, it hurts so much. I was hoping it was just a dream. But no, it was real. My worst nightmare was happening just now. My Sebastian, my lovely Sebastian was holding another woman, making me wait in the rain. He didn't care, he was not even scared right now. "Ana, please listen." He didn't even come closer to me. "I'm sorry, I know I meant a lot to you but it happened, and I...I just don't feel it anymore."

This is not happening. He's just drunk, she has put something inside his drink. He's not sober. It's not real. It's not real! My heart broke into pieces. I didn't know what was going on.

"Please, tell me you did not say that. Please, please!" I shouted through the tears.

"Ana, I'm sorry, but this is over. You were just not enough..."

My eyes opened widely. What did he just say? It's not real.

"Sebastian. No! No! I love you!" then I realised it was real "No! I hate you! How could you? I never did anything to hurt you and you didn't even have a bal*s to talk to me! You just took a first better, had fun and you are just telling me it's over?!"

"Sorry Ana"

"I hate you!"

He took the girl's hand and left.

I can't believe he just left like that. We've been dating for over 2 years. Did he cheat on me already? Or is it the first time? Am I a fool? Am I really that bad? What have I done? I loved him so much. And now I'm just left alone in the middle of the car park, soaking in rain and my tears....