The unC.R.I.M.E

Chapter 19

I heard a knock on my bedroom door and I sighed walking to it and unlocking it, opening it and expecting to see my mother but instead I saw Czar. I rolled my eyes but let him in and closed the door behind him.

"I thought you'd left," I told him honestly as I slid out of my slippers and climbed into my bed, burying myself in my blankets.

He sat on the edge of the bed, and lounged there like he belonged, "I thought I should but your mother wouldn't let me," he answered me instead and I groaned.

"Sorry about my brother's behaviour earlier and most importantly mine as well. We don't usually argue," I sighed, "it's just, you know, it's because of you."

He nodded, looking at me, "yeah, I know your brother doesn't like me and he has good reason not to."

"I..." I began, "I know you're really bad, Czar, and my brother told me you're in the mafia, and you run it. And I just, I don't want to get involved with all of that," I told him honestly, shaking my head.

"Matter of fact," I reached underneath my pillows and took out the keys, "I believe this belongs to you. I can't keep these gifts, it's too much."

"I bought them for you," he told me, not taking the keys from my hands. "I won't take them back. Listen, Dr, I know I don't have a lot going for me right now, but I can guarantee you that I'm not here to play games with you."

"Czar," I smiled, "I've told you the kind of woman that I am. I want to be a wife, I am a wife. I want to be a mother and I will be a mother. I want the white picket fence with two and a half children as I cook for my husband after a long day at work. That's the kind of life that I want, and I don't think that's you."

I saw him look around my room as he scoffed, chuckling to himself, "you know," he paused and then looked at me, "at first, that wasn't me at all. I never wanted a relationship and never wanted children. I didn’t care for any of that because I knew that it made someone weak," he paused, "until I met you. I started wanting things I've never wanted before. I started dreaming about my future with you in it. I wanted silly things like a pet husky, and a child. I want date nights and romantic moments, I want us to have our own favourite song and stay up late at night talking about our past and how our lives changed since the very first time we met. For the first time in my life, I wanted to break out of my silence. And I've only known you a week..."

I didn't know what to say, I just looked at him and then shyly looked away, "Czar-"

"I want you in my life, and not temporarily, I want you here, by my side, until the day I die."

"That's not the first time I'm hearing those words, Czar. You're not the first man to tell me this," I said sadly, closing my eyes and hoping to not be affected by his words.

"But I'll be the last."

"You'll just break my heart, Czar, and I'll break yours. We can't be together."

"Who says we can't?"

"You're a killer, Czar."

"I am."

"I can't do whatever this is, Czar. I can't keep doing this. You can't keep pitching up and just inviting yourself in," I snapped at him, shaking my head as I sat up in my bed, "you can't keep forcing yourself into my life because you know we can't be together."

"Who says we can't be together?" he repeated the question.

"Me, dammit, me," I snapped and tried to collect myself, "I say we can't. We're from two different worlds and you keep coming here and coming to see me," I tried to slow down my talking but I kept going, "and you keep doing all this cute s**t that just makes my heart melt," my voice raised with every word, "and I can't fight the s**t that I feel for you. I can't fight it, Czar, because you're just always there. If it's not physically, then you're in my mind and I can't take it anymore. I don't want to get hurt, Czar, I don't want to fall for you."

He smirked, "why do you keep fighting me?"

"Because," I breathed out, sighing and calmed down, "I...because you keep pulling me in and I'm afraid I won't ever be able to pull out of whatever you're dragging me into."

His smirk turned into a smile and I looked away, "the sooner you stop fighting the inevitable, the sooner we can settle down."

I rolled my eyes, unable to help the silly smile that grew on my face.

"I mean, don't we have a baby to raise?" he asked me and I looked at him raising an eyebrow, "oh, you thought you were going to be a single mother?" he asked me, chuckling as he shook his head, "think again."

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"You were way out of line," I said strictly as I looked at Leonardo from across his bedroom, "and you need to apologize, not only to myself and the whole family, but to Czar as well."

He turned to look at me with a look that screamed "You have the audacity!"

"Excuse me?" he scoffed as he walked towards me, "apologize to who for what?" he asked me.

"You were very rude, Leonardo. You did all that to embarrass Czar in front of the whole family," I scolded him, feeling protective over Czar.

"But did I lie?" he paused waiting for me to answer, "was I lying when I called him a monster? You wouldn't know, Sabrina because you don't know s**t. I know all of that man's secrets and trust me when I say, that man is capable of anything," he spat out.

"I don't care about what he's capable of Leonardo, I really don't care. He may be the monster but right now you're the one acting like it. Act your age, Leonardo, be graceful and grown. You're not only embarrassing yourself but Ivy as well."

"Listen here," he snapped at me but I slapped his finger away from my face.

"No, you listen here," I said forcefully, "I'm not that 22 year old girl anymore, I've had years to deal with what happened, and I've learnt from my mistakes. I've matured over the years, Leonardo, and I'm not that naive girl anymore. I need you to get that through your head. I don't care about what you say about Czar, I'll deal with that myself. Gosh, just let me live my life."

I saw him shake his head in disappointment, "I'll be sure to say nice things at your funeral," he just said.

"That's not funny," I said with a straight face, I slapped his chest, "that wasn't funny and don't you ever say anything like that again. What's gotten into you, Leonardo?" I asked him.

"You're so weak and pathetic," he sneered, "all you fall for is trash."

"Wow," I just said unable to react to his words.

"f**k you, Sabrina," he continued, stepped back from me, "I don't give a f**k about you anymore. You will die, and I'll be laughing because I warned you. I'll never help you, Sabrina."

"Really, Leonardo? I hope you feel real good about yourself," I said my throat tightening at how mean he was being.

"Go be his next conquest," he laughed, "he'll f**k you and then kill you. Or if not, he’ll cut you loose and you'll be a broken useless piece of human meat all over again."

"All over again?" I asked, broken, my voice cracking, "Leonardo..."

He looked at me emotionless but I couldn't stop the tears before I hardened my gaze but only for a second before I felt myself break down again, "don't you ever talk to me again."

I said, meaning every single word before I turned around and ran out of his room.

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