Russia felt different. It didn't feel like home anymore. It felt like my heart belonged in the New York apartment with the perfect view, the young surgeon and her baby. That's where it felt like I belonged but I had to leave. I was falling into that routine fast, and I didn't want to break from it but I knew it was a matter of time before I had to leave.
She deserves so much more than that and I need to wrap my head around everything. If I wanted to be with her, I had to leave Czar Hutcherson behind and become this whole new person. Is she worth it? Am I ready?
I was confused and when I'm confused I get angry, very angry. Luckily, I had someone I could take it out on- somebody who actually deserved it.
I walked through my home, remembering when I'd brought Sabrina here, and she was cryi
