To you

Chapter 3

I opened the doorknob of my home, holding a plastic bag with crispy chickens inside. It's kinda dark outside already and I hope it doesn't annoy Jesse that I'm being late for his request. I can't help but chuckled at the image of him feeling annoyed. Jesse is the cutest even if I compared him to a girl. He is not girly, just cute.

I moved my feet inside the house and found it so dark without any lightning. I questioned myself, trying to guessing everyone's schedule for today. If it's my parents, probably they're out for work but Jesse? Is he out?

I close the door and walked to the switch to light the room. it's so unusually quiet then walked again to the dinning room. I put the plastic bag on the table as I looked at the dishes unusually still in the sink. I started to feel worried. Even if Jesse decide to go out he usually cleaned the house beforehand. I moved my feet towards his room, he probably asleep but that's weird. I always know his routine.

I barge into his room. I could see the curtains moving softly against the wind. The window are wide open. The bed is kinda mess and I saw Jesse sat on the floor behind the bed with his back facing me. I sigh in relief but he seemed not to noticed that I'm coming.

"Jess?" I called while walking closer to him. He doesn't respond.

"Jesse?" I called again but still no respond.

I stopped besides him but he still not moving an inch nor looking at me. He just stared straight to the floor. I crouching down, looking at him then I noticed how mess he looked like.

His eyes were swollen and I could see the traces of tears on his cheeks. The uneasiness feeling starting to fill my limbs as I hold his shoulders.

"Jesse, what happened?" I asked worriedly. He moved his face towards me and stared on my face with his empty eyes.

"Jesse, please tell me what happened. Why did you cried?" I asked again but Jesse just moved his face, looking down.

"Jesse..." I plead.

He slowly moved his hands to hold mine. I could feel his hands trembling slightly then softly release my hands from his shoulders.

"Nothing happened brother..." He said finally without looking at me. "I just, felt a little tired so..."

"Are you sure?" I asked still not feel convinced. He nodded then moved his head towards me. "Welcome home, brother." He said while he smiled at me but somehow, his smile, didn't looked the same as the usual.

He get up and walked towards the window to close it. I still not moving from where I am. No, it's more like I can't move. Jesse being so weird now and it's enough make my mind wander around to every possibility that could happened when I'm not besides him.

Compared to his boy friends, Jesse is rather weaker that's why if-

"Did you bought the chicken?" He asked made me awake from my mind. I slowly get up and looked at him.

"Umm, yeah. It's on the table."

"Okay." He said then walked out from his room leaving me alone there.

I sat on his bed feeling frustrated. He is not experienced the thing that I'm thinking about right? There is no way in hell that he is. I made sure everyone knows how much I cherish him.

I groaned and rub my face harshly. "f**k!"

***

I walked towards the dinning room and saw a plastic bag on the table. I sighed. I've lost my appetite and walked towards the sink to wash the dishes.

My mind keep replaying the same scenes made my heart aches everytime. I close the faucet as I'm done washing the dishes and move to the table to open the chicken's package. I heard a stepping sound near me and saw Axel there.

"We'll just be eating this for dinner, is that okay?" I forced myself to smiled as I asked him.

"It's fine." He said then sit on the chair near me. I nodded.

I looked at the crispy chicken. My stomach stirred wanting to puke at the sight. "I'm taking a bath first." I said while moving away from the table but Axel stopped me by holding on my hand.

"Eat first." He said.

"I will eat after bath. Don't worry brother." I said then release his hand from mine.

"Are you sure nothing happened to you?" He asked worriedly. I stunned.

I'm hurt... I don't know what to do. I want to cry. I want you to hug me. I want you to promise me that you won't hold her in your arms anymore. I want you to do it with me instead of her, why did you do that brother?

"Yeah, nothing happened to me." I replied then smiling at him.

Please love me because I love you.

***

At the end I didn't eat nor sleep. Axel probably worried because I could heard he knocked on my room last night but I pretended to be asleep so he could left me alone. I don't really want to see him because everytime I did, all I could see is him smiling on the pleasure Clara gave.

I sighed. I acted like a jealous boyfriend when I'm not even the one. Axel might be clueless and find me weird but whatever he deserves it. I felt an arm on my shoulders made me move my head towards the owner of that arm.

"Look at you bro." William said while looking at me with oh so pitiful eyes.

I sighed. "I don't have the energy to fight with you today so I will let this one."

"I know." He smirked. I rolled my eyes.

"You know? Mrs. Serena didn't come today so we might not have any classes to attend for today." He said while pinching my cheek making me groaning in pain.

"So, this great Lord William decide to invite your lonely ass to his home and your answer?" I pinch his hand making him groaned in pain as he stop pinching my cheek. "So mean~"

I rolled my eyes. "Okay, I'm up." And William immediately smiling so wide.

"Great!" He said excitedly. I smiled on his behaviour.

"Oh! By the way, earlier, Axel come to me."

I sighed. "Did he said something weird?" William patted my head.

"No, nothing like that. Just asking your whereabouts."

"I see."

William smiled then put his arm around my shoulders. "Now, now, let's go back to class and take our bag." He said then forcing my body to move.

"But it's not the time yet?" I asked feeling unsure.

William smirked. "What's the point on staying at school when the teacher isn't present for teaching?" He asked making me speechless but groaned.

"We are die if the teachers found out." And William just laughed.

Without we knowing, a pair of shoes standing there behind us. Watching as we are getting further from the sight.

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Tbc.