After talking to Joel, I would be lying if I say that I managed to rest all night. Never before in my life had someone been as honest as he was. Hearing that he sees this relationship as lifelong left me speechless because I assumed that after his disappointment, he didn't want to try anything, especially not with me, who was the substitute in that situation.
It left me with a lot to reflect on, as I never imagined a future with him. I always had in mind that this was like a deal with an expiration date, and I always thought divorce was the only option for both of us. Knowing that he even took the time to buy a house in Greece for us makes me understand that he always saw this marriage as real, unlike me, who always denied it, and that made me feel like the worst person in the world.
Bec
