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My feelings are like the sea. I can’t foresee what they’d agree. Waves of happy, a hurricane of sad, depending the day I had. I feel like power overtakes me, maybe I should have come by the sea. I feel like I’m drowning in my emotion, I cannot make any distinctions, what is good or what is bad, I just get hit by the tide.My thoughts become the beach, and I walk on the shore of memory.
The gale attacks my face and as nothing to do with the sea breeze, it wails my name and countless other memories. Sometimes I try drinking the sea, forget all those memories, but I can’t seem to get thirsty enough. That sea, sometimes, gets quiet, during that time, it looks like the desert and I seem to forget. My mind forgets ‘till I can’t remember what I recall, just swimming in the sea of my thoughts. Sometimes, during the harder time. I lose the light in the sandstorm, and when I open my eyes the scenery is different. I don’t know anymore if it’s the rest of the world or me. During those days I can’t grasp why my feelings are so unknowable. I lose myself in the sea, and the sand, is this the truth is this a lie, can’t the world just abandon me for a while?
And people say just smile think positive, all will be right. But it won’t cause I can’t make it alright, I can persuade myself to smile. I went silently, I want peace, can nobody consider my grief? My heart beats so hard right now, there are so many souls here now. The sun shines directly on my shore today, can’t I just leave for one day? I have difficulties opening my heart to others, making choices, I can’t consider. Do I like you enough to stay today, in a world that doesn’t understand my way? Sometimes I want to disappear, neglecting my responsibilities and living by that sea of thoughts.
There is hope everywhere. In the water, the sky, and the sand. My future is not so distant anymore, I can see shapes of decision making their way toward me. But maybe it’s me, I’m swimming since so long I can’t remember when I started. I don’t want to cry anymore, for my goals are approximately at hand for me. Can’t I rest a little bit more, before my real life begins? Can’t I sleep just a bit longer? I feel so tired right now... I don’t want to wake up, but the future won’t come by itself, I know? I can’t lose everything I achieved. Edifying a wall that I’m now piercing with windows.
I used to think everyone was the same, everything was the same, but now I see the difference. My sea of thought is still there, but I now have a boat.It makes the lie of the world stop in their tracks. I won’t fall in lies, anymore. I won’t be caught in lies, anymore. I’ll be determined and surf on the waves.
My feelings are like the sea. I can’t foresee what they’d agree. Waves of happy, a hurricane of sad, depending the day I had. I feel like power overtakes me, maybe I should have come by the sea. I feel like I’m drowning in my emotion. I cannot make any distinctions, which is good or what is bad. I just get hit by the tide. My thoughts become the beach, and I walk on the shore of memory.
My boat is made of hope, and he sails from smiles.
- Writer
