My Beautiful Fighter

Eps 8- I WAS a gay

Lucas was walking to his car as fast as he can. He worry Dream will do something terrible. When he got back in the ward room he see Dream was scrolling her phone.

“I’m hungry.” She said to Lucas. Lucas smile. Relief.

“You can eat first.” He said while walk to Dream’s bed. She frown.

“No. I want accompany.” She reply.

“Okay. Give me 5 minutes.” Lucas said while took off his shirt and make his way to the bathroom.

“Lucas!” She yell. Lucas almost jump himself shock.

“What?” He said.

“Your back.” Dream reply.

“What’s wrong with my back?”

“Got giant scratches.” she said. Lucas try to look his back but his chest was too puff make him difficult to turn his head. He then open the bathroom door and look through mirror provided in it. There is a few scratches on his back right shoulder. Some were wounded scabies and some still bleed. He smile. Silly me. I am fallen in love with her till I dare to injured my precious body saving her from fallen to the ground when she was running to her family yesterday morning.

“It’s nothing. You don’t have to worry.” He said to Dream from the bathroom.

“It does looks bad. I’ll call the nurse.” She said while click the nurse button.

“You don’t have too.” He reply. A few second after that a nurse come in.

“Yes Ms Inara. What can I help you?” Ask the nurse to Dream.

“Can you um... treat his scratches?” Dream said. The nurse turn her head to Lucas which was shirtless. The nurse gulp her saliva. Lucas has been built his body for years so his body was stunning to stare at. His abdomen was muscular and got six pack also. Just like Chris Hemsworth body. The nurse nodded after stare at his body for few seconds.

“Let me get the medicine.” She say before she walks away.

“Let me shower real quick.” He said while close the door. He then start to shower as fast as he can. But the sore kind of made him need to slow things up.

“Lucas. The nurse is here.” Dream call him from outside. He then put his pant and put on his sweater on his left side and he got out from the bathroom.

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“I’m sorry.” I said to him. He turn his face to me.

“I’m sorry I hurt you. I didn’t mean too. I swear!” I say.

“What do you mean?” He ask me back.

“I didn’t mean to make you hurt yourself. It’s just that I was too happy seeing my family back.” I look down on the food tray. He laugh.

“So you prefer to hurt your fiancé instead of hurting me?” He ask. I keep quiet. Doesn’t know how to answer his question. I did want Razif to be hurt but fall into his arm is like step on my dead body first. But in the same time I was sorry for Lucas. He might get permanent scar on his back because of me. I can feel my tears are about to fall.

“Hey hey. I was kidding. Don’t take it personal. I know you hate him now. I was trying to cheer you up.” He said while pull my chin upward to him. I push his hand slowly.

“I’m sorry Drea.... Inara. I won’t mention him again. Can you forgive me?” He said looking straight into my eyes. I took a deep breath and I nod with smile. I mean how much longer should I hold back my sorrow for a trash like Razif. I won’t let him win by suffer myself.

“So you are a CEO?” I said to him. Try to change the topic. He laugh while nod.

“It was my generation company. Started with my great grandparents then to my grandpa and pass down to my father and now I’m taking over the company. The architecture blood runs in me. How about you?” He ask me back.

“Oh actually I just finished my degree last four months. But I still didn’t get any job yet. Well not until I was being ‘kidnap’. So after all this were settled down I really need to find job.” I reply.

“What degree are you taken?”

“It was investment management.”

“Wow such a tough core. So do you manage to finish it well?” He ask.

“You are talking to Inara Sophea. I passed with flying colors and got 5 dean award straight.” I said while flip my hair like a diva.

“Wow. Beauty with brainer. I like that.” He say. We both laugh.

“So how many siblings are you have?” He ask me.

“Only me and my big bug brother Izzat. Our mom passed away when I was 16 years old due to car accident. She was hit by a drunk driver.” I reply with calm.

“Oh I’m sorry. I don’t know.” I saw guilty in his eyes.

“Naah. It’s okay. I know she was happy up there. And she was waiting for us.” I reply with smile. Lucas was amaze.

“Okay I got a serious question now.” He say.

“Just shot.” I said while feeding myself.

“How come your eyes is green-ish while your brother and your father don’t?” He ask. I burst to laughter.

“I always got that question all my life. It was from my mother. Her mother which is my granny was mixed of France and Malay. She inherits her green-ish eyes to me. But it sort of genetic disorder. It only passed down to the female. That is why Izzat doesn’t have green-ish eyes. You should see my mother eyes. It was greener than me. Mine is green and brown but hers is like amber. It was calming and remind you to the forest. I remember when I was little and I always got bullied for my eyes were different and Izzat will kick those rascal butt. And the funny part is their parent came to see ours and my father will gave him punishment.” I laugh thinking how protective my brother was. Lucas also laugh.

“So he just kept quiet? Not even defending himself?” He ask. I shake my head no.

“Actually he crossed the line by hitting those punk while they just mocking me. So that is why he got punish for. Using violence towards others.” I said.

“Wow your family really strict.” He said. I nod.

“Yup because my father was a soldier. And because of that Izzat WAS also a soldier.”

“Was?”

“Yes. He resigned after her got shot during fight with the smugglers on border. He was in coma for six months. At that point we prepared ourself if he is going to die. But miracle happen. He woke up just a day before his wife given birth. After he is fully recover he did tried to go out on the field but he is just trauma plus he just got a son. He didn’t want his son raised up as an orphan so he quit and run my father’s business.”

“So why didn’t you be a soldier?”

“Well because I promised to my father that I won’t separate from him. But hey it’s Inara. I was kind of stubborn. So I persuade my father to let me be independent. So I move out and rent a room nearby my college with my friends. I was always protected by my male family members since I was a kid. Gosh. I wish I didn’t move out and this kind of s**t didn’t happen to me.”

“Well technically if you don’t move out and you didn’t go through this incident you wouldn’t met me and my family.” He said while he slicked his hair backward.

“Well if we are destined to be met then in any ways either we could still be meet.” I reply with smirk on my face.

“Hmm that’s also true.” He said.

“Enough of me. Now yours.” I say.

“Well you know lot of me.”

“True. Okay then. Who is your first love?” I ask. His face suddenly blush.

“Puppy love is my elementary school. I didn’t even remember her name. It was way too long.” He said.

“Then your first love?” I ask again.

“Erm. I didn’t have my first love yet.” He said while scratch his back hair.

“You got to be kidding me. For real?” I say almost yell.

“Well. I don’t know if it’s consider as love or not. I was gay.” He turn his face to other side avoiding my eye contact. Well I am actually surprised.

“Oh? So are you still a gay?” I ask him with soft voice. So he would be comfortable to talk with me.

“No. I just broke up with him just a few days. I didn’t feel the sensation anymore with him. I mean the feeling doesn’t arouse me anymore.” He being sincere.

“That is actually good.” I say while give a smile. He smile back.

“So how long have you been dating him?”

“It was two years. And now I felt regret I waste my time with someone like him.” He reply. And we talk about almost everything on that night until we both fall asleep.

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“The good news is Razif is now under police remand.” Izzat said to me.

“I don’t know if that is good enough for him.” I said.

“It really not good enough. That son of b***h should die.” Izzat said.

“No. That’s now what I mean. Don’t you think a bad guy going into bad place will become worst?” I said. Izzat and Lucas look at me with unbelievable look.

“Look sis. I know you trying to get things right for everyone. But he deserves it.”

“But he got his punishment right? I mean his leg was been shot. That is supposed to be a lesson for him.”

“Inara Sophea! I won’t let you withdraw the police report. They have been doing an investigation. The paper is already open. There is no way you can take back the report. Even if you can I won’t allow that. Either he stays inside behind those bar or I’ll kill him myself.” Izzat say with firm.

“Count me in.” Lucas supporting Izzat. Gosh I just got two big brothers didn’t I?

“What I was saying is he deserve punishment but I don’t like the idea he is being hold into jail.” I said trying to open a box of chocolate milk.

“Sis? I know what you want to say but as a big brother I just want set things right for my baby sister. Oh yeah I almost forgot. I asked kak Mardhiah and her family to broke your engagement with Razif. She just went to met his family this morning.” Izzat add. I nod.

“So how was she? Is she’s okay with her second pregnancy? How was my little nephew? Gosh I miss him.” I ask excitedly.

“Yeah she’s okay. Btw she send regards to you. She can’t wait to meet you. Since you were gone she cries every night saying poor my baby sister where is she? Even when I was on duty she didn’t act like that. You are such a possessive person. What spell did you gave to my wife huh?” He said. I laugh.

“I gave her love spell. Spoilt brat! Jealous with his own little sister.” I mock him.

“How was father? Where is him?” I ask. Izzat stay silent for a while.

“He is still trying to put things together.” Izzat said with sad.

“Do you know why God test us?” I ask him.

“I know. He test us because He know His servant limit. He test us because He loves us. He test us so that we won’t forget Him.” He said.

“Who taught you that?” Lucas ask. Show interest.

“Our mother listen to preach every time she has chance. And she always remind us to be a good servant to Him. He didn’t gave something without a reason. There is always a silver lining on every things towards what He gave test for. There is never without reason on everything we got and had.” Said Izzat. Lucas nod understand.

“Hey what about the wedding?” I ask him.

“It is cancel sis. I just say I ask your sister in law to break up your engagement. But the catering and wedding planner not been inform yet. I will call them by tomorrow. I rather loss deposit that loss my one and only sister.” He said. My heart was overwhelming.

“What are we gonna do about the baby?” I ask him. Worried.

“I don’t know. But for sure I won’t let you marry that brat. I rather die than marrying you to the person r**e you. And for sure I rather hold the shame than look at you suffer. You are my one and only sister. I repeat this three times today. You are my one and only sister. I won’t let anybody hurt you. Enough is enough. I failed once. I won’t fail twice. Mark my word.” My eyes were shattered.

“This is going to be a rough journey for us but I will stick with you no matter what happen.” Izzat said while kiss my forehead. I hold back my tears. I am a fighter. I can get this through. I am Inara!