Treat You Better

Kabanata 6

I never know love will be this cruel. I saw how love overflows between my parents. I've seen how my dad looks at my mom like she is the only girl in the world. I've seen how my mom appreciate my dad's efforts to make us all smile. I grew up listening to the story of my parents, that they fight for each others love, that they never give up even if they knew that it will be so hard. They showered our house with unconditional love so I dont know why I have to witness Lyra rejecting Mico over and over again. Is it so hard for Lyra to sacrifice things just to be with the one you love? I dont think so. Was it intentional? For me to really realize that love is not really that enough to fight because I live my life believing that love will always be enough reason for you to be strong, for you to hold her/his hand and show everyone that no one can come between the both of you.

Bago ko maisip na mali na hanapin si Mico ay nagawa ko na. Nilibot ko ang buong building. Baka nakaalis na siya o baka nagpalipas na ng oras sa ibang lugar but he rather wants to be alone, maybe? Thats what I know since he keep on running away from the crowd from the people who cars for him just to chase the last person to care for him.

Isang lugar na lang ang hindi ko pa napupuntahan and that is the Rooftop. Nagbakasali ako na andoon siya kaya naman tumulak ako para magpunta doon.

Pagkabukas ko ng pintuan sa rooftop I saw him sitting near the edge nagmumuni muni sa kalangitan it seems like he just finished crying.

Maglalakad na sana ako patungo doon nang mapagtanto ko kung anong ginagawa ko. I dont even know him. He even hates me around because I keep on seeing his other side.

Pero umiling lamang ako at nagpatuloy na lamang sa paglalakad papunta sa kanya. Nang makarating ako sa tabi niya ay naupo ako, nilingon niya ako at isang kunot noo lamang ang naisagot niya sa akin.

"I don't want you here" deklara niya.

"I know, you never want me around you because I keep on witnessing you being rejected over and over again" derederetso kong sagot.

Nagiwas lamang siya ng tingin at tumitig sa kalangitan

"Bakit mo ba hinahayaang ganyanin ka niya?" I knowxI don't have the right to ask that question pero hindi ko kasi talaga maintindihan.

"Because I love her" that is enough statement for me to shut my mouth.

Why do we keep on chasing after the people who will never love us back, who is not deserving and not worth it.

Nag iwas ako ng tingin at tumingin sa mga gusaling katabi ng kung saan kami naroroon ngayon. Bakit ko ba kasi iyon tinanong, but who cares right? Why is that my heart keeps on beating so fast right now.

"She is the only one I have" he started. Nilingon ko siya. kumunot ang noo ko. Ano bang sinasabi niya.

"After my parents die, she was the only girl who tries to make me smile and then one day she told me she wants to be an artist, I ve seen how see wants to be famous that bad so I told her I will be there for her when she will be famous. My fault too" umiling iling ako

Mas lalong kumunot ang noo ko. Okay thats it?

"Kung mahal ka niya hindi niy hahayaan na ganito kayo kahit ano pa man yung rason niya" umpisa ko.

"Why am I saying this to you, hindi mo rin naman naiintindihan ang konsepto ng pagmamahal" umiiling iling nalang siya.

How can he say that! Did he know me para sabihin yan

"Believe me, based on what you tell me? I known it better than you do"

Then I saw something precious, his tears flowing in his cheeks and in some point I dont know why but my heart will break. This past few days witnessing him being rejected over and over again makes me sad. All I know is that I dont want him sad. I want him smile and enjoy and do the things he want to do and not doing it for someone else. I want him to be appreciated the way people appreciates him. I want him to be loved the way people loves him so much. I want to believe in him.

Sa sinabi ko ay kumunot lamang ang noo niya at nang makita niyang nakatitig ako sa mga luhang bumabagsak sa mga mata niya ay lumingon sa ibang direksyon.

"You dint have to hide it anymore you know I've seen you being in the worst situation" sabi ko sakanya.

Tumango siya ng bahagya.

"I know" pagsang ayon naman niya.

"You dont have to chase for the people who dont love you back" sabi ko pa sakanya because that is true

"She loves me" sagot niya. Umiling ako

"Love will never be that selfish Mico " do I look like a love expert now?

"You talk like you've seen love the way it should be done" hindi siya nakatingin sakin ngunit napapansin ko ang pagkagulo ng isip at mukha niya na para bang mali na lahat ng pinaniniwalaan niya sa mundo.

I should be the one being mature here right? After all, I am one year older than him

"I did and believe me, never siyang naging ganito" tumayo na ako at naglakad palayo sakanya

"Where are you going?" pahabol niya.

"Dont worry, aagawin kita sakanya"

Ako man ay nagulat ngunit totoo.