Torn Between Two Mates

6- Why Do I Have To Do This?

Chase’s Journal 3/5/2002 9:35 am

Why am I stuck with such a dumb assignment? I guess I have to start this journal by introducing myself. I don’t know many guys who would actually use a journal but I need to pass this class, so let me just get this s**t over with. At least I'm not the only one who's doing it. I’ve seen people writing in the same kind of notebook earlier today which means we have the same teacher.

All right here goes nothing:

I don’t like this assignment. Big shocker. I prefer to not share my life secrets or issues with anyone but it is what it is. At least no one will read this.

I’m almost done with school and when I’m finished, I don’t really know what I’ll do.

I have dark hair and my eyes are reddish-brown. I know it's not a common color.

I’m Hispanic, but don’t ask me to talk to you in Spanish because I’ll only be able to curse you out, which I wouldn’t mind doing lol.

I come from a pack from up North that’s mainly run by women. It’s not the norm but they are badass. I moved here to join my uncle's pack because the schooling is better and he needs someone he can count on to be his successor as Beta, so here I am.

I haven’t found my mate and honestly, I’m not sure I ever will. The closest I have ever come to anything that resembles a possibility of a mate is right now.

The queen that’s sitting right next to me is so damn beautiful and smells so good but my wolf isn’t reacting to her. He’s calm right now, she seems to put him in a peaceful state.

From what I’ve been told only mates can cause each other to be calm like that, but he’s not claiming her as his mate.

Okay, back to describing myself.

I don’t take s**t from anyone.

I will tell you exactly what I’m thinking and not give a f**k how it would make you feel. I know I sound like an asshole but I have no filter. Why hold s**t in when I don’t have to.

I can be a sweet guy, but if I don’t want to be or I don’t feel like being one don’t expect it. This side of me usually comes out when I’m annoyed or pissed off.

I don’t let anyone know the true me because the secrets I have hidden are a lot to take in.

A lot of people view me as an asshole but no one ever chooses to stay away from me lol.

Damn this girl to the side of me smells so good. She smells like vanilla and milk chocolate mixed together, I know it sounds like a weird scent but on her, it's definitely not. Her scent is really distracting me right now. I’m trying my best not to lean in closer to her. Omg, that sounded creepy. If I were in her class I wouldn’t be able to get anything done. I can’t stop myself from having not so “vanilla” thoughts about her.

What? Don’t judge me! If you were me, these types of thoughts would run through your heads also. See what I did there? ”heads.”

The classroom just emptied out.

I was too distracted to notice when she got up to leave when everyone cleared out.

Time to get out of here.

Deuces.