Lilith’s POV
“Lilith!!” he growled as he raised his hands as if to hit me. I wanted to step back, to crouch, to close my eyes and maybe flinch.
But, I stood there. I raised a brow and locked eyes with him. His eyes dimmed, “What the f**k was that for?” he asked brushing his cheek as he stepped back.
That was for lying to me all these years. That was for cheating on me. That was for being allegedly connected to my dad’s death.
That was for f*****g another damn shewolf on my matrimonal bed. I took a deep breath and balled up my fist. I will make him pay, bit by bit. I will make him see what the f**k he had done to me.
“Ryker,” I called as I cupped my mouth, feigning shock at my reaction. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to.”
“What!!” he asked, tilting his head as he scanned me.
“You shouldn’t have yelled in my face like that. I was triggered and I didn’t know when I slapped you.”
He was confused. Yes, he should be. That wasn’t the first time he yelled at my face, but that was the first time I had slapped him for doing that.
Well, it might not be the last, if he doesn’t control himself.
I brushed past him, my lips spreading a smile. “I am sorry. I will be in the room.”
I stormed up the stairs, as I entered my room. I slammed the door shut and I pressed my back on the door, running my hand through my hair.
I huffed a few deep breaths as I looked at the bed. A memory of them banging rushed into my mind again.
“Ugh!’’ I groaned as I rushed to the bathroom sink. I emptied my stomach into the sink and I rinsed my mouth.
“I’d thought he was still mine. Because even though he wasn’t doing every other thing right, at least he was faithful. So I thought. That b*st*rd.”
I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked like a shadow of myself, because I had given all for this man. I had sacrificed my true self, just to please him.
It wasn’t enough. It wasn't enough.
I pressed my lips into a thin line as tears trickled out of my eyes and down my cheeks.
I recalled how the Alpha had stared at me. The way he spoke to me with so much respect, made me think if I was not the problem.
I don’t know if it was me. But I would do better for myself. I will think of myself from now on.
I stormed out of the bathroom and rushed to the wardrobe, I started to pick out all my things. I can’t sleep in Ryker’s w***e room. It was suffocating in here.
“Lil, you haven’t made dinner, the sitting room is messy too.” Ryker walked in on me folding my clothes in a suitcase. “Lil. Wh- where are you going? You didn’t inform me that you were travelling.”
I turned to him wearing a fake smile. “No. I am not traveling. But–”
“But?” He asked as he walked up to me.
I dropped the dress in my hand and I walked up to him and took his hands. I saw the red slap mark on his face and it made me feel so good.
“Baby. I want to give you space.”
“Why?” he furrowed his brows.
Why? Wasn’t that what you’d always wanted? I sighed. “You need it dear. Plus it could spice things up in our relationship. Having to sleep in a separate room. You know?” I winked at him.
I didn’t want to give him any more reason than that. So I hope he buys that. He grinned and nodded his head.
“You are right, Lil. So when are you preparing dinner?”
Arsehole. He jumped on the opportunity of getting rid of me at once. Well, I was the one that is getting rid of a cheat like you.
I smiled. “Once I am done with this, I will make dinner.”
He stepped back and pecked my forehead, before he left the room. I wiped off his kiss with the back of my hand as I rolled my eyes.
I carried my things into the guest room, and by the time I was done arranging my things, I was famished. But I was even more tired to go cook.
I slumped on the bed. “I wish I could just get some snacks to eat tonight.”
I grinned as I recalled that I had cake and juice in the fridge. I went to the kitchen. Ryker was not in the sitting room. Probably he was in the room. I took a slice of cake and I was about to keep it when I recalled how Ryker used to body shame me.
“He called me fat, just to feel batte about himself, and I started to eat less because of that. I even got sick one time.”
Enough of his monarchy over my life and my choices. I can do whatever I want.
I took an extra slice of cake and I walked to my room.
“I miss you, already, babe,” Ryker said from his room. He was having a call with her.
I gritted my teeth as I boiled out of anger. I stormed towards my new room and I slammed the door, locking it from inside.
I munched on my food as I glared at the door. When I was done eating, he knocked on the door.
“Lil. I thought you would have made dinner by now. Lil?”
Yeah. While you make love calls
with that b***h mate of yours. You could sleep hungry for all I care. I knew Ryker doesn’t eat snacks. He would have a hard time, unless he cooks, which I know he doesn’t know how to.
I took out my headset and placed some music as I turned off my light to sleep. The door was shaking, he was still knocking.
“That serves you right,” I muttered as I closed my eyes to sleep.