My Secret Life

Chapter 15

" Baby, tell me what's it, going to take to keep it

All the way one hundred

You won't get it 'til I'm gone' away (away)

I bet you start loving me

Soon as I start loving someone else

Somebody better than you

I bet you start needing me

Soon as you see me with someone else

Somebody other than you

And I know that it hurts

You know that it hurts your pride

But you thought the grass was greener on the other side

I bet you start loving me

Soon as I start loving someone else

Somebody better than you

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

I hate, I hate that I'm singing this song, singing this song

Cause I love you

Yeah I love you

Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

I’m all cried out

I’m all tried out

I’m all fired out

Yeah

Right now it’s killing me

Cause now I have to find someone else

When all I wanted was you."

Ciara I Bet

Moriah POV...

"Samantha I'll Be Back.."

"Really Riah You Been Out In These Streets For The Past Week."

"Baby I have to do this for us to make it."

"You could get a real job either way it go we gone make it."

"A real job ain't gone pay for this house Samantha."

"Are you cheating on me."

"What no why would you even think that."

"Maybe because you came home last night with scratches on you and you had a big red bruise on your neck it looked like a hickey."

"I got into a right and the guy choked me I'm not cheating on you Samantha."

"What makes you think I believe you. You come home late and leave early so what's really going on Riah."

"Nothing is going on Samantha I'm trying to provide for us."

"You are too deep into this Riah and I'm only saying this because I love you. You are going to get hurt and lose everything you've worked so hard for including me."

I just looked at her.

She can't be serious.

I'm doing this for us.

I'm out here everyday and night for us.

"So your not going to respond to what I just said." She asked

"Samantha I'm doing this for us....."

"No Riah you aren't. I don't care nothing about this I never did. You are doing this for you. You are in love with the money and what it can buy you. None of that ever mattered to me. You are what matters to me. But you are going to lose me if you stay in these streets."

"So you saying you gone leave me if I don't stop."

"I'm not saying that Riah. These streets are bring you down. You are turning into somebody I don't even know anymore. They are changing you and not in a good way and soon you will push me away because of them. I'm trying to prevent that from happening."

"You don't know what's going to happen to me out her." I said

"I Know You Could Die Out Here." She yelled.

"I Of All People Know How The Streets Work. How Could You Stand There And Say I Don’t Know. I Know More Than Your Stupid Ass That Thinks The Streets Are All Fun And Games Until s**t Gets Real And You On A Death Bed." She yelled.

"You Just Don’t Understand Riah. I'm trying to get you out before you fall to deep." She cried

"To late for that I'm deep into the game but that don't mean I'm changing."

She laughed.

"You not listening to anything I just said. This is pointless." She raised her hands like she was surrendering.

"What I heard you." I said

"No you didn't cause if you would have you would have said "Okay Samantha I'll Go Talk To Morris And See If I Can Quit Or If He Can Find Me A Legit Job" But You Didn’t I'm Not Trying To Change You But Somethings Got To Give Riah."

I was just too deep in.

I couldn't let go what has been me since I was 14.

These streets weren't my life but it was the only money I knew.

"Samantha I just can't give them up."

"Not Even For Me." She cried looking at me with hope in her eyes.

"You can't even give up something so little for the girl you claim has your heart and you in love with. For goodness sake you got my name tattooed right where your heart is Moriah and you gone stand there and tell me you can't give up the streets for me. Wow!"

I looked at the tears roll down her face it broke my heart to see I was causing her pain.

But I just couldn't bring myself to give her the answer she wanted.

She looked up at me and the look she was giving me broke my heart.

Samantha POV...

I just looked at Riah.

I know I looked mess I just got out of bed and now I'm crying my eyes out.

I just can't believe she said she couldn't give up the streets.

Not Even For Me.

She claimed she loved me and that I have her heart.

No doubt I know it's true.

But when she said that it made her words a lie to me and it broke my heart.

She just stood there looking at me.

The look on her face told me it was hurting her cause she is hurting me.

"If you walk out that door you are telling me that your heart and home is in the streets and that what we have means nothing to you."

She looked at me in disbelief.

"Sammy Baby you can't be serious. I love you you mean everything to me you are my heart my soul my world."

"Well prove it Riah. Don't walk out the door. Stay here with me. Don't go out in the streets. Show me your home is here and this is were you need and want to be." I said.

She just stood there.

I'm guessing deciding what she should do.

"I'm sorry Samantha."

And with that she was out the door.

To say I'm heartbroken was I don't even know.

This pain didn't even feel like a heartbreak.

It felt like I had no soul no life I was motionless and breathless.

She chose the streets over me.

I walked up the stairs and cried.

This pain was to much.

I loved her.

I thought she loved me too.

I guess I was wrong.

Sariah</3