My Secret Life

Chapter 16

Moriah Pov.....

3 weeks later.....

I been missing Samantha like crazy.

It's been 3 weeks without my baby.

Even at school we walk past each other like we don't even know each other.

I've been miserable.

I haven't slept good or ate good.

I miss her touch.

Her kiss.

Her smile.

Her laugh.

Her beauty.

I Miss Everything About Her.

I had to get her back but I didn't know how so I went to Megan for some advice.

"Hey Riah what you doing here."

"I need your help Megan I'm going crazy without Samantha. I miss her so much and I just want her back I don't know what to do." I flopped down on her couch and put my head in my hands.

"Riah if you want her back go get her back."

"How do I do that Megan I'm so lost without her."

"Prove yourself to her."

I gave her a confusing look.

"Look Riah if you really want Samantha back like you say you do you are going to have to prove to her that you can change. That means staying out of these streets and making her feel like she is all you want and need. You are a smart girl Riah you just make dumb decisions. Stand Up For Yawl Love Fight For It Prove That You Want It And That You Are Willing To Change."

I sat there listening to her.

She was right if I want Samantha back I was going to have to do more than apologize.

"Remember Forever Aint Enough Love Runs Deeper Than That Especially If It's True Love. Forever Is Only Enough If You Make It Enough And At Some Point That Forever Will End."

"Your right. But she won't even talk to me."

"Well you go to the next step show up at the house and fight for her."

"Thanks Megan I really appreciate the advice."

"Your Welcome Riah Now Go Fight For Your Girl. Love You." She said hugging me.

"Love you too."

I got up and walked to the door.

I got in my car and took a drive.

So many thoughts were running through my mind.

I needed Samantha back.

She means everything to me.

"Remember Forever Aint Enough. It's Only Enough If You Make It Enough And Soon That Forever Will End." Megan's words replayed in my head.

I turned on the radio and one of my favorite songs these past 3 weeks was one.

" I can't sleep at night

Knowing that you ain't right by

I can't, I can't sleep at night

Tonight I was right, just want you by my side

I can't sleep at night

Knowing that you ain't right by

Cause when it's all over

You're what my heart's beating for

Where's the fire if we never break through

What's trust if we never be true

Wonder if you're ever feeling that

Do you toss and turn?

You can love me too

Cause I give up and I won't lie

I sit there looking at the time

Didn't want you to leave, you had to go

Too bad the pain doesn't follow"

This Song made me think of Samantha.

I can't sleep when me and my baby are on bad terms.

I drove for a few more minutes and found myself outside our house.

I sat there lost in my thoughts.

I must have been sitting there for a little to long cause there was a tap on my window.

I rolled it down to see Samantha.

"Are you just going to sit out here in the cold or are you going to come in." She said looking at me.

"Yeah"

I got out the car and followed her inside.

"Have a seat would you like something to drink."

"Water would be fine."

She walked off into the kitchen.

I sat there staring at pictures of us on the coffee table sitting in the middle of the floor.

I picked up the picture of us at our 18th birthday party.

It made me smile.

I was kissing her neck while she laughed and held her promise ring up to the camera.

"That was one of the best days of my life."

I looked up at her still smiling.

"Here you go." She handed me the water.

"Thank you."

It was quite as I took a sip on the water.

She sat next to me and starred off into space.

"Look Samantha can we talk."

"We have nothing to talk about Riah."

"I think we do Samantha I'm tired of this."

"Tired of what."

"This. Me not being with you. It's making me go crazy Sammy. I miss you. I Miss Us. We was a power couple."

"You couldn't even do one simple thing Riah it's your fault we're like this." She was crying.

"You remember the first time we had and argument and I sung to you." She said.

"Yeah I remember I just can't remember the song."

"It went like this.."

" It still hurts,

Yeah,

Remember when, it was you and me,

Wasting time, it was chemistry,

All the things we did,

It was magic, but now it's gone, gone,

She ain't no you, and I ain't no her,

But I know if we'd tried,

Baby, we could've worked,

And you may see me smiling'

Try and cover the hurt...

But baby I need you to know...

I'm still in love with you,

And I just can't let it go,

Baby I just don't know what else to do,

So I got to let you know...

You cut me deep, deep,

Deep, deep,

I never knew it hurt so bad...

Girl you cut me deep, deep,

Deep, deep,

After I gave you all I had,

I miss the way we, we used to be,

"I love you girl, I promise that you're my everything",

But now those words ain't nothing but a memory,

But it's now gone, gone,

She ain't no you, and I ain't no her,

But I know if we tried,

Baby, we could've worked,

And you might see me smiling'

Try and cover the hurt...

But baby I need you to know...

I'm still in love with you,

And I just can't let it go,

Baby I just don't know what else to do,

So I got to let you know...

You cut me deep, deep, (so)

Deep, deep, (oh)

I never knew it hurt so bad,

Girl you cut me deep, deep (so)

Deep, deep, (so)

After I gave you all I had,

Not a day goes by, you ain't on my mind,

All the time girl, (on my mind),

I know you're with her, and it's me you hurt,

But it's fine girl, (but it's fine),

I'm still in love with you,

And I just can't let it go,

Baby I just don't know what else to do,

So I got to let you know...

You cut me deep, deep, (so)

Deep, deep, (oh)

I never knew it hurt so bad,

Girl you cut me deep, deep,

Deep, deep,

After I gave you all I had,

Girl you cut me deep, deep,

Deep, deep,

After I gave you all I had."

"It was Auburn Deep You just added your own little mix to it."

"Yes and after that you promises to never hurt me again but look where we are Riah. I'm Hurting."

"I'm sorry Samantha I'm willing to change I'm willing to do anything as long as I can have you back baby. I can't sleep eat do anything without you. My heart beats for you. A wise one once told me Forever Ain't Enough Love Is So Much Deeper Than That Especially If It's True Love Forever Is Only Enough If You Make It Enough And Soon That Forever Will End. I'm trying to prove that I can change I want that Forever Ain't Enough Type Of Love"

" MmmmmMMMmmmmMMM ohohohoh yeah, yeah yeah

Thinking back, to the feeling that I had when I first saw your face, I knew that it was you,

Some time has passed, and the feelings that I had before still are the same, cause you never changed, nooo

Even though I don’t show it girl, I just want you to know, that even if we fight a million times over little things,

We can still make it better I meant what I said when I gave you that promise ring, that I’m a love you forever,

I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now girl more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough

I've been searching my whole life,

I'm lucky I found you, no better girl too you aint leaving cause forever aint enough you see me for who I am and not for who I'm not no,

I'm telling you that I'm sorry if I tend to treat you the wrong way but I care you know my heart is there

Even though I don’t show it girl,

I just want you to know, that even if we fight that even if we fight a million times over little things,

We can still make it better I meant what I said when I gave you that promise ring that I’m a love you forever,

I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now girl more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough,

I've been searching my whole life, I'm lucky I found you,

No better girl too you aint leaving forever aint enough (forever aint enough)

Forever aint enough (forever aint enough)

Forever aint enough (forever aint enough)

Forever aint enough of woah yea

It aint enough

Even if we fight a million times over little things, we can still make it better,

I meant what I said when I gave you that promise ring, that I’m a love you forever,

I fall for you deeper everyday, feel it now girl more than ever, but with our type of love, forever aint enough,

Aye I've been searching my whole life,

I'm lucky that I found you ooo oo oh baby yeah forever aint enough

Aint enough ohh babyy oooooo oooo girl aint enough," (Song In The Media.)

I got through singing to her and she was crying.

"I am madly in love with you Samantha and I will do anything just please don't give up on us."

She whipped her tears before speaking.

"I love you too Riah. With all my heart. Promise me there will be no more streets that's all I want from you baby. Please just please tell me you are going to leave these streets."

"I promise baby I promise from here on out I'm out the game and the streets are no longer my home. My home right here with my forever lady."

She started smiling before pulling me into a kiss.

I Got My Baby Back Finally.