You Are Nothing to Me

Chapter 8

"All right, stop it, stop it, start the next game!"

Mu Chen obviously saw that I was nervous and unnatural, so hastily changed the topic, but bad luck is, the next game was selected by me.

I stared at that pointed at my wine bottle actually have a tear-free feeling, this section of the eye of the generation is obviously will be teased general, as expected, colleagues never want to release me, directly asked me the question, said:" Xia An, quickly answer, if boss Mu really confessed to you to let you be his girlfriend would you be willing?"

"Me ……"

I suddenly can not say a word, only feel their face rose a hot feeling.Just as I was thinking about how to deal with it, my cell phone suddenly rang, I ran out as if I was running for my life, and then came out of the restaurant door to breathe a sigh of relief.

The phone is Zhou Yankang, said that he has no time today, can not accompany me to spend Christmas, I was stunned thinking when he said to spend Christmas with him?

Zhou Yankang saw that I didn't say anything and asked:" Are you angry?"

I immediately said no, and then laughed:" The festival is between couples do this, I and your relationship is not necessary!"

Zhou Yankang listened to the silence for a moment, and then directly hung up the phone, I looked at the mobile phone, immediately have a feeling of not touching two zhang of the mind, how can there be such a volatile person?

After hanging up the phone a turn back unexpectedly saw Mu Chen, he stood behind me, the eyes hidden some faint flickering things, I was startled, see his person after patting his own chest, and then said to him:" You walk sound?I was scared to death at night!"

"I didn't bother you when you called. What's the matter?"

I shook my head and nodded at what had just happened in the restaurant.

I said I want to go back first, he frowned and asked me what happened?I thought about it and said," My stomach hurts. I want to go back to the bathroom."

He paused for a moment and then burst out laughing!

"Let's go. I' ll take you back!"

"!You're not going to eat with them?"

"'S fine. I' ve already paid the money. They'll eat happily.I don't want to drink any more, or I ca n' t drive!"

I was going to refuse, but his attitude was very tough, and finally I couldn't hold back so I agreed. He drove very slowly on the way back. I always felt that he seemed to have something to say to me, so when he was about to get home, he said," What's wrong with you?"

He shook his head and smiled at me. Instead, he asked me," Why didn't you answer the question they asked you at the table today?"

"?What is the problem?"My reaction was half a beat slow, and I was silenced when I realized what he was saying.

"This question put you in a difficult position?Or ……"

"No, it's just that they' re all joking. I'm very embarrassed. Besides, I do n' t want you to be embarrassed."

"Why am I embarrassed?In fact, I also want to know the answer to this question!"

"You..." I couldn't say anything at once, and my eyes shrank back. I felt his burning gaze fall on me, and I seemed to understand that moment.

Mu Chen confessed to me, some surprise, but in fact, the small details of life can also be detected, he said that he first saw me when he liked me, I lowered my head, vigorously stir in a mess.

"I'm not as good as you think!"

"No!You are so good!"

The car stopped at the door of my apartment. I got out of the car and Mu Chen followed me. He grabbed my arm and said to me," What I'm saying is true. I think you can feel have done to you."

"Hmm!"I answered softly, but the mind is still chaotic!

"So what do you mean?Will you give me a chance?"

Mu Chen said he is a more direct person, also hope that his confession did not scare me, I opened my mouth, tongue a bit astringent, but still said to him:" I can not answer you!"

"Why?"He was a little anxious, of course more confused, he asked me a bit uncertain:" You already have a boyfriend!"

I was stunned, body stiff up, that moment in mind immediately jumped out of Zhou Yankang's face.I quickly shook my head and pulled my consciousness back, I said:" No, no boyfriend!"

Mu Chen heard it and laughed immediately.

"I don't have a chance without me, I do n' t force you, Cheyenne, I just want you to know, there is a person like you!"

"Like me?Then what do you like about me?"

"Like all of you, like your kind, your warm, like you play the appearance of the piano, like you sing the appearance, even when you in a daze, I feel special beauty."

"Can...But Mu Chen, actually I am not as good as you think!"

Yes, I don't. I clearly know that what he sees is nothing but external things. He does n' t know me, nor does he know my past. It's like, about Zhou Yankang, if he knows Zhou Yankang's existence, would he still think I'm a good girl?

I dare not think, also do not want to think,'t want to think, my head lowered eyes immediately sour up.

"Cheyenne, although we not known each other for a long time, but seriously, I can see that you are really a good girl, of course, sometimes you do make people feel a little mysterious, but I also understand that everyone has a personal space belonging to everyone, so I have no right to interfere!"

"You said before, you are not as good as I think, I do not know what you have happened, or encountered what, but I want to tell you, a person's essence is not changed, I can see what your essence is, so, if you are now encountering some unhappy things, then it does not matter, you must believe in yourself, believe that you are always that yourself!"

I looked up at him in surprise, that moment there was a special warm feeling, I can not help but think, he did not know what?

He reached out to wipe my tears, laughing so sweet," Well, don't cry, I' m just a white watch, you cry like this, make me very embarrassed!I feel like I scared you!"

I sniffed and shook my head, but I couldn't say a word.

"OK, no, you go home, I don't press you to answer, I just hope you do n' t have prejudice against me!I also hope you can give me a chance to like you!"

I nodded and walked toward the apartment with my bag. Mu Chen called me behind me, and then said to me:" Xia An, if you are now experiencing unpleasant things, then I am willing to hold your hand and you face together, I want to find the real you with you!"

###Chapter16,My mom's suicide note

That nightn't fall asleep at all that night. I lay in bed and thought of all Mu Chen's words.

In fact, to talk about the relationship between men and women, then I do not think Mu Chen is like, but with some worship, so in the daily life of the natural have a lot of good impression.As for his confession today, it is not to say how excited or unforgettable I am, but because of this matter, let me suddenly understand, in fact, I should have normal interpersonal communication.

Since I was with Zhou Yankang, I felt like I was a ghost, and I subconsciously felt dirty, so I rejected many relationships that should have existed.

I hide people,In school,In addition to class I don't want to go to any public place,Even if there are some classmates to show some close to the move,I will immediately avoid,As if,As close to people,I will be found secret seems.

So, I have to admit, in my subconscious, and Zhou Yankang's relationship, is a kind of can not be put on the surface, because to me, this is a.

The thought of this made me even more uncomfortable, and I wailed until dawn.

The next day I took my leave and didn't go to class. I spent my time alone in the apartment looking for something to do. I was listless all day, and I did n' t know how to clean the house at night.

I turned out a small bag in the cabinet, a long time ago, now also do not need, look at the top stained a little ash so found a wet towel ready to wipe, the result unexpectedly found a letter in the bag.

"Ann, when you see this letter I think I am no longer there, you must not be sad, because for mother, death is an extreme relief."

"Mom loves you and loves you, but I never thought I'd be a burden to you someday."

"I'm sorry, that day scolded you, said a lot of hurt your heart words, but An-an, you must believe, hit the body, actually pain in the mother!"

"You have always been a mother's pride, you are smart and beautiful, you should have a good life, so, I can not drag you.More can not be a stumbling block on your way forward, similarly, mother also hope, you can forget the past to start anew, and, you also must remember, the life of people, must not lose the heart!"

The suicide note is not long, write so few words, but I read the moment completely collapsed, I took this letter on the ground, that is, at that moment, I know, my mother really left me to go.

What kind of love is this in the end, will choose to give up their own life, I later thought, more should be my mother to me too disappointed, she is afraid to face me, also afraid to see the truth of everything, so once let her proud daughter, but now has become someone else's child tools, how she can bear.

Before in the camera shot that part of the picture, just feel my mother cruel, so difficult a road she was afraid of going up, now think, that road she should go how painful.

I slapped my face with the my arm, and the guilt and remorse almost filled my heart.

I thought I was doing it to save my mother's life, but now I know it's all that's ruined my mother's name.She would rather die than I continue to do such a thing in the hope of an upright man.

I suddenly thought of the Mu Chen that night said to me, that moment, I immediately made up my mind, I want to leave Zhou Yankang!

I called Zhou Yankang and said that there were some things to talk to him. He actually agreed without asking and then said to me "

I'll be right there. You wait for me at home."

ZhouYanKang said immediately is really a moment, ten minutes to arrive.

He had the keys to his apartment, so he didn't need to knock. He opened the door and saw me sitting on the sofa.

"What?"I looked at him suspiciously, and he raised an eyebrow, motioning me to open it for myself, and took it out, inside a LV woman bag.

What do "give me this?"

"Christmas present yesterday!"

"No, I can't carry such an expensive bag!"

"What's right or not!"He immediately crumpled his face," I bought it for you, you take it!"

I paused and then asked softly," Why give me a Christmas present!"

His eyes flashed a little away." Why are you talking so much?I've said it, take it for you!"He seemed a little impatient and stretched out his hand to pull the tie, and I sat a little to the side. He looked at me, and seemed to sense something wrong with me, so he stopped and sat down beside me.