Taming Inner Desires

Chapter 3 Confused

I found the cafeteria a little too loud for my taste, and a little too full, almost every seat was occupied.

I took a tray and made my way to the line where I grabbed a salad and soda, afraid that my queezy stomach wouldn't hold back the food.

I stood looking around for somewhere to sit since I hadn't made any friends and no one seemed to show that any spot was really open. Damn school clichés, I never fit in but I didn't care so being a loner b***r was my speciality. One of the many perks of being an only child.

I took my food and went to go sit outside under a tree.

I walked over the field where a few jocks where throwing balls at each other (As if they didn't play with balls enough.)

I spotted a nice shady tree and went to sit and eat in peace. I sat down and watched the people around me. They all grew up together here and I felt like an intruder, especially the way they were looking at me as if I had a giant zit on my forehead. I bit into my ceasar salad and popped open my drink and sighed. I was feeling empty all of a sudden, lost.

The sound of leaves crunching near by pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Why're you sitting all alone? Seems kinda lame." A deep voice that made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up spoke from behind me.

"It's rude to sneak up on people while they're eating." I tried to sound annoyed but could only muster up sounding like I was out of breath.

"Well its not so rude to want to join you since your all alone." I turned to Chad with a raised eyebrow. I said nothing while he sat next to me. The sudden closeness of his body made goosebumps run up my thighs.

"I'm sorry for being a jerk earlier I kinda started my day on a shitty note." He smiled but I could see it was strained.

"Okay, fine, apology accepted. I'm Alina." I stuck my hand out. He looked at it for so long I started pulling away when he grabbed my hand crushing it, but I didn't mind because the sensation running through my body was unlike anything I had ever felt. He saw my reaction and let go immediately.

"The names Chad Theseus, its nice to meet you." He winked but it still seemed off.

I answered him before he could think I was being rude.

"Really that's a cool last name is it like from greek mythology or something?" I joked.

"Yeah actually it is Theseus was a hero, he led a war for Athens in those days, its how I see myself, a feared leader." He puffed up his chest like a warrior I began giggling like a 3 year old.

"I'm glad you see yourself as a feared leader, I would rather want my people to see me as a fearless leader." I grinned at Chad but he wasn't laughing.

He actually looked pissed. I felt bad for laughing at him and was about to say sorry when he suddenly got up.

"I have to go....."And with that he turned and stormed off into the direction of the main school building.

Seeing him angry made my stomach churn and I felt like a dog who had been scolded for chewing up something valuable.

I heard the bell ring and slowly got up. The rest of the day went by slowly and I felt I couldn't concentrate although I had noticed many girls were now openly looking me up and down as if I was covered in s**t. I ignored it until it was home time. I got to the parking lot and scanned it to see if I might find Chad and apologizr. I felt like I needed his approval and.....I really didn't want any enemies which was pathetic actually, why should I even care?

I stopped looking for him and waited for Killian to pick me up.

"So who's your lift?"His deep voice was like silk tickling my neck, but his tone was rough as if he found it difficult to speak.

I turned and saw his nose was pulled up and he looked disgusted.

I immediatly felt self conscious and averted my eyes away.

"A friend of my Grandfather's." I answered softly. That's when I heard a whistle and looked up to see Killiam walking towards me with a sort of swagger in his step, I looked up and could feel a sexy smile twitch at my lips and my eyebrow raised.

"And what did I do to deserve a look like that." Killiam waggled his eyebrow at me. I could feel I was blushing again and tingles ran down my arms. I heard a growl sound and turned I actually forgot Chad was next to me.

"So thats your gramps's friend......You should becareful he's trouble." Chad whispered before stalking off. I was taken back by that and just stared at his retreating back.

"Who was that? He seems.....nice" Killiam said with obvious distaste.

"Just some asshole looking for an easy new girl....obviously he's grown tired of the ones here....to bad I'm not his type." I eyed a blonde looking at me with obvious disgust and jealousy . She was his type, short skirt short top and probably short on brains too.

Killian drove us to a nearby diner and we got out and walked in. He guided me to the back booths that were away from all the curious eyes of townsfolk.

Drake held the chair out for me and I sat down. He came around and sat facing me.

"So how was the first day at that school?"He looked devilish with a crooked smile and anything he would've said would sound sexy on his lips. I realized I was staring too long at his lips.

"It was okay I guess, better than I expected, but I still haven't made any friends, it happens so it's okay." I shrugged.

"How about I redo my last year of highschool just to keep you company, if I was still in school I would have wanted to be your friend immediately even your bestie."He fluttered his eyeslids.

I was clutching my side in pain from laughing so hard. I saw people stare but I couldn't stop. Killians grin kept growing and I could feel my heart jump.

Just then a waitress walked up. It was the blonde from the parking lot at school.

Looks like I was right...short on brains.....She was staring at Killiam and I swear the look she was giving him....blegh!!...But he was staring at the menu.

"I will have a hunters beer, the lady a vanilla milkshake and you can come back in about 10 min for our food orders thanks." Killian said it all looking at me, I felt my face blush and I tried to hide it with my hair.

He turned to her when she hadn't said anything.

"Did you get that all doll?"

"Yeah sorry Killian was just wondering if you remember me, Heather? You went to my school last year." She smiled but in her eyes I could see she wanted him to remember much more and I suddenly felt a heat flush over me and I couldn't help my outburst.

"Do you mind we were having an private conversation and those kinda chats make a girl thirsty so.....Heather I don't see drinks!" As my mouth closed I could feel the shock of what I said hit me but my face stayed composed while Heather on the other hand....priceless, she walked off dumbstuck.

Turning to Killian I could see he wanted to laugh. I then realised I was being crazy! What had come over me I couldn't get jealous over him already!!

"Jeez, a guy can't even get a pretty waitresses number with you around, Damn c**k blocker Hahaha."He teased.

I smiled but felt the heat inside me subside and I felt better. I saw something in his eyes as I looked up at him. His green eyes had literally gone a brighter green and the brown flecks had shone Amber but when I blinked he turned away and it was gone.

I rubbed my eyes and shook my head I obviously was seeing things.

"So how are you liking Pennsylvania?" Killian suddenly asked and I could see all jokes vanished from his eyes.

"It's okay though I'm just not in the mood to learn how to shoot I don't want to shoot anyone or anything! I'm not a Damn trigger happy hillbilly."I rolled my eyes and I swear I heard someone clear their throat. I looked behind me and people in jean jumpers were looking at me pissed off.

"We might have an angry mob situation on our hands."I heard Killian say and when I turned I saw he wasn't kidding he grabbed my arm and pulled me out the diner to his car. Drinks forgotten.

"I can't believe you said that! Look I know your some big city girl but if you have any more comments like that please keep it to yourself...some of these folks are good people!" Killian was mad and I felt shitty all over again...it seemed like everything I did or said just always was the wrong thing. I could feel the anger rise and Killian's angry rant carried on until he was gripping the steering wheel so tight his veins looked like hair on his hand, I heard a growl but my anger was so bad I was seeing red. I needed fresh air or I was going to explode.

I reacted on instinct and pulled open the car door and jumped. I rolled out onto the empty narrow road, on either sides of the road was thick forest so when I jumped I didn't see how fast Killian was going. I rolled over the side of the road into the forest where the floor sloped and next thing I knew I was tumbling and tumbling so fast the world blurred green.

My bearings were screwed, I couldn't tell up from down. My body was over heating and I could hear a ripping noise. I then felt the most excruciating pain and I pleaded to die because it felt like for ever till I finally hit a tree and the pain vanished along with my tumbling, vision and I was swallowed in by darkness.