Taming Inner Desires

Chapter 8 Running Mate

CHADS POV

Kissing her was incredible, she was amazing she must have had a lot of practice! My wolf and I growled at the idea. Then as I kissed her hard

But I kept I wondering if I could mark her as mine, then I wondered if she had already slept with another guy and I pulled away immediately.

Her eyes were full of affection and she smiled.

"What's wrong." She blushed and my mr. reacted, she obviously knew what she was doing. So how many has she had, well obviously we are not going to be each others first. That thought enraged me I wanted to be my mates first! She was waiting for me to reply, so I did, I was going to give her what she and I so badly wanted. My hands traveled down the length of her body, I cupped her breast in my hand and massaged it till she tilted her head back digging her nails in my back. I kissed it through her dress and she gave a small moan of pleasure. The urge to claim her was becoming animalistic.

My hand traveled further down and I pushed her legs open and she complied, telling me she had slept with another. Now I was ready to take my mate hard showing her and the rest she was mine, even though she wasn't pure, my father would be disappointed in my mate, I flipped her over and rubbed my bulge against her backside, I didn't care I was the dominant one here.

"Chad?"

"You've already had your passion so now comes the mating baby. I rule you and this is how I want it."

ALINA'S POC

I could hear the anger and sarcasm, I didn't like what he wanted, I refused to have my first time here or like this.

"No!" I kicked away turning to face him pulling my dress right.

"Not no! Yes! I command it as your alpha!"The authority in his voice made me react and I almost turned but something in me resisted the alphas voice which he had told me no one could resist unless they were stronger alphas.

"I will not be commanded!" She shouted and the spell on my body broke.

"No! I'm not a dog, I'm your mate! you will respect me or I don't want to be your mate!"

"We'll I will not have you then, I wanted my mate pure not....impure..."His tone was disgusted and I felt my heart break.....Impure? did he think me unworthy! I refused to let him see me cry, so I started walking away.

"Don't you dare turn your back on me, I'm an alpha!! I reject such a mate who has no respect. I reject you!" I stopped and my wolf howled. I couldn't hold her in and I shifted with such ease. Chad looked astonished. But I didn't care he rejected me and I would not be hung up on him. Come to think of it; I hardly knew this guy and the wolf hormones had almost allowed me to sleep with him someone I have maybe spoken five words to. My wolf was crying in the back of my mind.

"Wait!" Chad shouted after me as I bounded away. I ran feeling my paws hit the ground, I pushed my self and my muscles loved it.

"Alina wait!! you shifted so easily!! that's not possible! and your...."

I cut the mind link shutting him out. Yeah I'm special, only white wolf he knows of and I got into shifting quicker! You lost this one Chad! I tried to feel big and all that but inside I was hurting bad, I hardly knew Chad but my feelings we're obviously strong because of the stupid mate thing. Well he doesn't want me maybe we don't have to be mates then.

I'd been running for hours not sure where I was until I came to the same stream I found the last time. I was thirsty so I drank from the stream. I howled when I was done from the heartache that wouldn't let go of me. The night was quiet. I wanted to stay like this but I had to get home, I remembered suddenly I couldn't shift back I had ripped my clothes.

I sat there in my own hollow sadness.

I must of drifted off for a while when I awoke in the grass the moon was higher. I was still in wolf form but I had become black. Startled I ran to the stream, now I looked like my humanself black fur green eyes, so much sorrow in them. All the rejection throughout all the years now finally reaching a new high.

I was deep in though when I heard movement on my right and slowly turned to see a white bright wolf, it was translucent. It walked with such prowess and dignity, pride! This wolf obviously was an alpha. It bowed and I bowed too, the power it had over me I couldn't deny.

Suddenly it blurred and a woman stood where the great wolf stood. She was smiling and she was gorgeous but....she was white aswell, translucent.

"Do not be afraid white wolf, I am a spirit, trapped here where I died. You are special you know that?"

I was too stunned to move, I shook my head.

"Your a spirit hound child. You can walk in both worlds. It is your destiny to help trapped souls cross over as Luna does, you are her direct descendant. Your blue eyes see into the realm of souls. Your the last of your kind, your also a dark hound, a warrior bound to revenge sudden deaths or murders of some trapped wolf soul. But don't let your dark side dominate......it's dangerous and the heartache you will go through is only going to get worse if you choose wrong."

My mind literally hit a blank....I was unique, different, meant for something great....I couldn't wrap my head around that.

"I don't feel that way. I was just rejected by my mate. I think....I just want to be normal."

I finally decided I just wanted to be normal not a wolf not a Luna, not a spirit hound! Just Alina Harley who wanted to become a marine biologist.

I looked back at the lady and she started to fade, she looked sad and just before she disappeared she whispered:

"Don't ever forget who you are!"

I suddenly felt icy cold through my fur and realized I was all alone, not even my wolf spoke to me.

I ran on instinct till I got home and saw gramps wasn't home thank goodness, he might have shot me in this form. I shifted and ran up stairs naked into my room.

I was freezing and took a quick shower but nothing helped, when I had pj's on and in bed I was shivering, It was way too cold in my room, or.....maybe I was cold because I felt so empty...I fell asleep that night crying.

CHADS POV.

I could feel my wolf rage but I ignored him, I did what I had to do, well what was best for me isn't always what's best for my father and the pack, my dad would be mad if he met Alina. My father was the type of man who was so full of pride, he had rejected my mother when they met as young teens but years later had accepted her when she had become a real woman, my fathers words. He had beat me a lot when I was young because I always wanted to be like other little kids playing around and being young, I had to learn early I was a born leader meant to be a strong alpha.

I had accepted that fact a long time ago my father always said my Luna would be a woman who could lead an army, even though my fatger had many relations with others he only had one Luna, Alina was too gentle she was not a hardcore warrior like most of my pack fighters. I walked back ,but saw something torn, I bent and picked up the shredded material of her dress, I smelt it, it smelt like her, vanilla and something else, the other was intoxicating. I got up and headed for the house, I would have some major explaining to do....