Stolen Innocence

Chapter Thirteen

I watched Ricky leave, and once he did I felt sad. I didn’t want him to go, I liked him being around. I wondered what he meant about “What ever happens you’ll be okay”- did he know something I didn’t?

I couldn’t help smiling as I remembered everything we did last night. I had so much fun, I didn’t think I could feel happy again, but I did; thanks to him. I enjoyed our time together. I couldn’t wait to be out of this hospital so I could see Ricky again.

My parents and the Doctor walked back through the door. So I watched them, Their facial expressions were strange, the Doctor looked concerned, and my parents looked pale white and shocked. The Doctor was nervous, she walked over to me, and cleared her throat as she sat down beside me.

“Emily, I need to explain something to you.” Her voice was soft and gentle. But her tone sounded serious,

As she spoke I felt a lump in my throat, my anxiety started to kick in. Something was wrong with me, that’s all I kept thinking;

“Okay” I nodded as I sat up more ready to hear the bad news,

“Emily, your parents have informed me, that around four months ago, something traumatic happened to you. They have told me that you went to a party, and while you were there someone drugged and r***d you, is that correct?” As gentle as she said it, it still hurt every-time I thought about it or someone spoke about it,

I started to fidget as soon as she mentioned it, I couldn’t bring myself to look at her, so I turned to face the other way. I felt the tears form in my eyes as I nodded my head,

She kept talking,

“Okay, well Emily. While you were unconscious, we had to run a lot of tests, to find out what was wrong with you, included in the tests, they performed an ultrasound. The results of the tests reveal that you have Gestational Diabetes.” She took break, and continued “Gestational Diabetes is a treatable condition, related to pregnancy-“

I cut her off,

“What do you mean pregnancy? I’m not pregnant” I butted in abruptly, and I turned to stare at her, my heart was pounding

The Doctor took a breath in,

“Emily, you ARE pregnant” She said, her eyes were soft, and her facial expression didn’t seem to change.

Doctors don’t lie, so I knew she was serious, she was telling the truth. I stared at her confused, shocked, yet I felt numb. They was three words; three simple words that I just couldn’t seem to acknowledge; I knew the meaning of the words, I knew what they meant, but my brain wasn’t comprehending her words. I felt a wave of fear coming over me, what did she mean pregnant?

“But I’ve been having my period since it happened” I said as I stared blankly at a posted on the wall. I knew I had cut her off from talking, but I wasn’t listening,

“A lot of women still get their period while pregnant Emily” She assured me,

I didn’t say anything. How could I be pregnant? Why is this happening to me? I’m too young to have a baby. So many things were running through my head.

“Don’t panic honey, we will work it all out. We don’t want you to do anything your not comfortable with Em” Dad was talking to me,

My life was just starting to feel normal again, now there’s talk about pregnancy, and a baby, what the heck was going on?! Colin had ruined my life, it was a complete mess because of him! I never thought I would be thinking about this! Wake up Emily! Its just a horrible dream. I tried to tell myself.

“The choice is yours honey, its your body. You do what your feel is right.” Mum suggested quietly,

I heard what they were saying, a tear streamed down my face,

“Please, just stop! It’s too much, I don’t want to talk about it right now!” I snapped at them, I didn’t mean too. I had never yelled at my parents before, I was embarrassed, ashamed, confused. My head was full of a mixture of feeling.

“Okay, well I’ll give you information about how to handle G.D, and I’ll also sort out your medication for your injections. Then you’ll be fine to go home and relax. I understand that this is a lot to deal with. But you need to remember this is you’re your body, and your choice. There are a lot of services that offer help these days Emily. You need to remember there are options.” The Doctor spoke to me, before she walked out.

All I could do was nod my head. Mum and Dad came over and hugged me,

As I broke down.

“What ever you decide Emily, we are here, and we will support you. We will be there for you no matter what you decided” Mum was trying to be comforting,

I know they both cared, but I just wanted to be left alone. I rolled over, away from them closed my eye tightly, and cried.

“Oh Honey, everything will be okay.” Mum said as she patted my head gently.

“The Doctor gave us this Em, but we didn’t open it. It’s the ultrasound-of the baby” Dad said as he sat an envelope on my bedside table.

“You don’t have to look at the picture, if you don’t want to” He said,

“No I don’t want to Dad” I sniffled.

“Okay honey, I’ll put it in your bag.” Mum said,

What was I going to tell Ricky? I thought, I was so scared. I closed my eyes and pretended I had gone too sleep. After awhile, I heard Mum say,

“Let her sleep Pete, Do you want to go get some lunch while we wait”

“Okay, I’m worried about our baby girl Stacey” Dad replied,

“Everything will work out the way it’s meant to be honey, lets go get some food before the drive home” Mum said, and I heard them leave,

Once they left, and I heard the door close, I rolled back over and grab my bag. I was going to message Ricky, to see if he had made it home safely. As I dug through my bag, the envelope fell out on my lap. I stared at it for a while, debating on opening it or not.

I started shaking as I picked it up. A part of me didn’t want to look at it, but a part of me did. I know none of this was planned, but this baby had no choice in any of it, so why should he or she suffer?. Taking a deep breathing I slowly opened up the envelope. I pulled the ultrasound photo out, and a wave of emotion overcome me. I cried as I studied the picture, it was a black and white, but I could clearly see the head the body and the limbs. It was a baby, my baby. I slowly put my hand down onto my bump, I knew now that the extra weight, wasn’t from all the chocolates. I felt so confused, I had no clue what I was going to do. It was time to go home and figure out what I was going to do.