Fight To Live

Turmoil

Third Person POV

Sierra was crying as she was thinking that she has also become a cold hearted monster. A monster to whom anyone's pain cant affect a person who was getting peace when she watched a man in pain while he pleaded.

She was having second thoughts on her own resolution that is she even right at what she is doing she was thinking that may be what she thinks is getting justice but may be instead of justice its her sick thinking that she was even getting peace in her mind and heart.

She was just walking around the streets thoughtlessly as she was having a inner turmoil she wanted to know if she was right or if she was mentally sick her mind and heart were having different thoughts as if they are in war with each other with in herself.

Her mind was telling her that she was becoming one of them who was having peace listening to his painful screams and her heart was reminding her that it was for her family because they needed justice their souls need peace and they will get peace when the people who did injustice to them are punished they get what they deserve for the sins they committed.

She didn't knew where she reached while she was lost in her thoughts until she was pushed and she fell down on the side of the road and she scraped her elbows and knees.

"Are you blind what were thinking walking in the middle of road?", an old man asked her while grabbing her from her elbow and making her stand up and she whimpered in pain seeing her whimper the man immediately left her elbow and inspected her and saw her injuries shaking his head on his thoughtlessness he leads her inside a house but Sierra stopped walking and stood stiffly exactly outside the door.

"Its ok child its a church fathers house you don't need to be afraid", said the man as saw her reluctance when he said that Sierra looked up to see his face and watching her eyes he smiled gently at her when she saw him smiling she saw that it was a genuine smile and she returned him her own smile that just made the man happy at what  he saw an innocence in her which he hadn't seen in a long time he led her inside and made her sit in one of the benches and he himself went somewhere behind a door.

When he returned he saw Sierra looking around while sitting on the bench calmly he sat on his knees in  front of her without her notice and brought it to her knees and she flinched back at the sudden intrusion.

Sierra saw him cleaning her knees so she calmed down and let him do what ever he wants to help as she could see that this man was no harm to her and is instead helping her while he was cleaning her wounds he would see time to time at her and whenever he would look up he saw her staring right at him.

Sierra started to look at him and noticed his attire and saw that he was wearing black and had a big cross locket and she understood that maybe he is the father of the church when he treated Sierras wounds he sat beside her on the bench.

 "Thank you Father", Sierra said and looked at him he gave her a warm smile and slightly caressed her hair that were open and slid down to her waist.

 "Now tell me what is disturbing you my child?", he asked her and looked in her eyes and he knew that something was wrong and her first impression didn't leave any doubts in it because when he saw her first time he knew something was wrong that even after being here she was not totally here as she walked in the middle of the road and she was so lost that she didn't even notice or heard the car speeding towards her and if he wouldn't have seen her she would have probably in a hospital.

"How do you know that something is disturbing me?", Sierra was slightly surprised when he asked her because she couldn't believe that someone could see in others mind.

 "Don't be surprised I just know that something is disturbing you because you seem lost", he slightly chuckled he saw her surprised expression with her those violet eyes sparkling in surprise and anticipation as all he could see was innocence in those eyes.

"You wont understand", Sierra mumbled while avoiding his eyes that were staring right at her and were forcing her to tell him everything she was hiding within herself but she had to control herself or she would spill everything about her and that was not good because she knew what she ids doing is wrong.

But whenever she would reason with herself only one conclusion came to her that whatever she was doing is right because there was no other way for her to get justice because no one in their right mind would believe a ten year old child with something that happened six years ago and that too something that is so sensitive.

"If you wont even tell me how could you think that I wont be able to understand?", Father asked her while she just looked at him while shaking her head as if she was determined and knew that no matter what no one would ever be able to understand her.

"I just know it you would think that I am wrong and I am evil while all I wanted was justice is it wrong to hope for justice for my family who faced injustice? while the people who wronged us are perfectly fine and are not punished for their sins for such a long time is it wrong to punish them? I am feeling like I am a cold hearted evil monster who was punishing people for their sins while I don't have any right", Sierra kept on asking questions to the Father while she started sobbing and the Father was stunned listening to her that such a small child had the braveness to accept and ask that even if what she was doing are sins?

To be continued...