I'm In Love With His Son

Revelation

Mariam's POV

I tried hard to comprehend what I was reading, as my head ached terribly. Our examination starts in a few days and I wasn't prepared. History had always been a tough subject and Miss Karen's boring lectures had made it worse.

As I tried harder to comprehend all to no avail, I closed my book and walked out of the library for fresh air and also to rejuvenate my mind.

Rhoda was on her way to the laboratory as I stepped out of the library pavement. I could feel guilt all over me for a reason I couldn't fathom. She was the one who cheated on her boyfriend with his best friend. She should be the shy one and not me. I sighed inwardly although she was the last person I wanted to see with the way my head was already pondering.

I quickly turned to the opposite route and tried to increase my pace but she had seen me already and I couldn't ignore her voice.

"Mariam," she called waving at me and I waved back. Her voice was loud enough that the other students standing close to the pavement could hear her. There was no way I could deny it.

I frowned inwardly as she walked towards me. Although she had lost a bit of weight, I could tell it was school stress. She was a scholar and had always put more effort into her studies. Rhoda will never allow anything not even her emotions come before her grades and I have always admired her for that. I could tell she shredded some weight because of exam stress and not because of her fatal breakup with Fred.

"Hello Rhoda," I greeted warmly as soon as she got close to me.

"Where have you been?" she asked and I smiled.

"I should be the one asking you. You disappeared after the incident at Fred's place" I said and Rhoda took a deep breath. I noticed her countenance became moody.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned that. " I apologized and she nodded.

"No, it's not a problem. I understand," she said faking a smile and I nodded.

"So how's the preparation for the exams? And how are you coping with Miss Karen's outline," she asked with concern and I sighed.

Rhoda has always been my academic lucky charm since lower grade. She had always tutored me in subjects I found difficult to comprehend. I remembered how we would plan a sleepover at her family tree house and just read all through the night. I dozed off most time and woke up to meet Rhoda reading. She was a genius at guessing topics that would be set as questions. Most times I ended up reading her book summaries and also getting a good grade although not up to hers. She had helped me pass Miss Karen's course in my previous grade.

"I'm not coping at all," I said frustratedly and we laughed.

A few minutes later, we were both seated at the chair in front of the basketball field. I realized I had missed chatting with her. Rhoda had been like a best friend to me since grade one and I've missed her hilarious conversations. We giggled and talked about previous memories we had shared as we sat and watched at the open field.

"How is Fred?" she asked calmly and I raised a brow. I wondered why she would be asking after him from me. Hope she didn't see us making out the other day. How was that possible when it was in Fred's parents' garden house?

"I mean, have you seen him? I've tried a million times to reach him but he kept rejecting my calls and doesn't reply to my text messages," she said calmly and I stared at her blankly.

"Fred was hurt when he saw you and his best friend making out that day. I don't know why you did that but it was heartbreaking. If he is avoiding your calls, I think that is because he needs space from you to heal," I said bluntly and Rhoda gave a surprised look.

"Making out? Like having s*x?" She questioned and I nodded.

"Yes, and I've always wondered how you would do that to a boy who loved you so dearly," I grunted and she burst into tears.

"Jeez.. That's not true. I never had s*x with John. How would I do that knowing he was Fred's best friend?" she asked and I rolled my eyes.

"Fred said he saw you guys making out." I said and she nodded.

"John and I never had s*x. We were a bit tipsy that day at your party. I had a bad day because some girls from lower grade had insulted me that I was bisexual and I got vexed and took a bottle of tequila that very day at the party." she explained and I felt my heart rising fast. "What is Rhoda saying? The last thing I wanted was to lose Fred to her or anyone again".

"Yes. I had developed feelings for John before that day. He was always available when this whole letter saga started. I felt so angry and didn't want to talk with Fred so John offered to call regularly to check up on me. And I had a crush on him. An infatuation and nothing more," she blurted out while I struggled to keep my shaking hands under control.

"John and I had gone to the garden that day because the party was noisy and I wanted to tell him all that had transpired between the girls and I. I was already tipsy and I kissed him. I was overwhelmed by my emotions and didn't know what came over me. John was also too emotionally weak and we became carried away when Fred walked in," she said with tears rolling down her cheeks.

I couldn't hold back my tears as I wished it was all a hallucination and not real.

"Mariam, John loves you so much. You are all he desires and I am sorry.... "

"I don't want his love. I don't want him... " I yelled at her angrily with tears in my eyes and stood up from the chair. I walked as fast as my legs could carry me just to avoid her.

She tried stopping me as I walked away but I didn't care to stop.

I know for sure that Fred wouldn't think twice about running back to her arms if he got to know the truth and I would be at the losing end as always. And this time I had lost both myself on his bed and in my heart.

As I wiped off my eyes and walked towards the volleyball court, I saw Fred walking towards me with a sad countenance while John stood by the volleyball court looking sad.

I knew he had come to tell Fred the truth.

"Fred..." I called as he walked towards the volleyball entrance.

"Not now please Mariam," He said with a shaky voice and walked passed me.

I felt my heart sinking and all the happiness I had felt for days vanished into thin air within a jiffy.

"Mariam, please we need to talk," John stuttered as he stood behind me.

"Go to hell, John. I don't want to listen or have anything to do with you. Leave me alone bastard," I yelled at him as I ran off to the ladies' bathroom with tears rolling down my cheeks.