Invisible Alpha

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Alpha

The way back up the hill is tough on me. It is the most pain I've ever felt and it makes me almost vomit more than once. Additionaly the mating pull is working against me. Every step I take is breaking my heart and making my wolf whimper in the distance. I try to fix it and talk to Dameon but he is being strangely stubborn. He has always been by my side no matter what deeds I've done, the feeling that I might have lost him makes my feel weak and sad. I'm half way up the hill as I see Mac coming past me with a huge wooden barrel shortly, after Johnny follows. It looks like they are going to get water from the stream near by. I try to stop them but I forget that I'm still invisible. I'm too weak to concentrate enough to drop my invisiable coat, before I can say a word they are gone. I hate being this weak and slow little man. Nothing left to do but get to my tent and wait for them there. I pull strength from somewhere deep inside and start to push myself up the hill. A task that should take me roughly 3 minutes takes me nearly 30 minutes. The pain is getting unbearable. I'm beyond relieved as I reach the top, heaving and holding back vomit I unzip my tent and I'm grateful for my bed. Immediately I fall down face first in the middle of my very comfy feathered pillow, with the very last energy I can muster I mentally drop my invisible coat and look sideways at the mirror to make sure that I'm visible again. I see my feet in the mirror, lay my head on my pillow and give in to exhaustion and darkness.

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Luna

The last couple enter the tent and I smile, finally, my shift can end. Bella and Tommy went home with their parents about an hour ago and since then I've been so antsy and wanting to get out of here. I dish the last beans on to their plates and ask them about their day, to which they seem completely surprised, we talked about training and when I was planning to start, which confused me. Mental note: ask Luisa what the deal is with training. They finally leave and I carry the empty containers to the oppisite side of the tent where the washing team are already cleaning up a storm. They take my containers happily and continue to chat, I catch bits and pieces of what they are saying but I don't know the people they are talking about so I'm not as interested. I want to get out of here anyway. I wish them a good and relaxing night and tell them I'm off to sleep. As I walk out of the tent I spot Mac and Johnny near a small fire with a big wooden tub sitting on an iron grid raised above the fire. I raise an eyebrow.  "Mac, Johnny, hi. If both of you are here who is guarding the tent?" Both of them look up in surprise but it takes a moment for Mac to say, "It's not far Luna, we can sense him sleeping."  I feel aggravated for some unknown reason.  "And intruders, can you sense them, too?" Mac must have seen that I wasn't being myself because instead being defensive he comes up to me, puts his hand on my shoulder and asks, "Luna, is everything ok? Did something happen?" I feel bad instantly and I don't have a clue what came over me to speak to them like that. Rubbing my hand over my eyes I say as apologetically as I possibly can, "Jeez, I'm so sorry guys, I don't know what is wrong with me. This day just feels so strange, I'm on edge and I'm just blurting out random things. They look at each other and nod. "What was that look for?" Johnny widens his eyes like he is unsure of what he's about to say but says it anyway, "We have been feeling more um nervous,too Luna," He clears his throat and finally lets out: "We,well we have a strong bond with our Alpha and we sensed him today, he must be getting stronger." I'm confused so I have to ask "Ok, but what does that have to do with my mood and being agitated, I don't get it?"  "The mate pull is the strongest bond there is Luna, you must be sensing him,too. It is very well known that the personalities are entertwined and this agitated side of him could be rubbing off on you as he gets stronger." I blink several times and deep down some part of me is terrified. I know what it's like when that man is awake, truth be told I wanted him to be somewhere in a hospital if he did have to wake at all. "Here's the good news, the male is usually softened by the female...taming him in many aspects, so please don't be scared, Luna. Once you are marked and the mating process is completed you will see the change in him and your own unsure feelings that you have now will disappear." Johnny says as if he had just read my mind. I simply stare at him amazed that he was able to read my emotions like that. But I don't have the heart to tell them that just before all this happened, Eric decided not to mark me, what ever that means. He promised to send me back. I was so happy the day he left my room saying very arrogantly as soon as he has kicked some ass he'd come pick me up and take me back personally. Relief washed over me in that moment, I felt over joyed. To be free of all this confusion I constantly felt. But that's not what happened at all. I look at Johnny and see that he is worried about me now. I was probably standing there with a very strange frown on my face." Thank you for shedding some light on a topic I still know little about, Johnny. You are both very kind and I appreciate you trying to keep me positive. I guess only time will tell when he wakes up."I turn and say "I'll be up there" I point to his large tent. Then I turn to the now boiling water and ask, "Is that for him?" Both men jump up and take the tub down from the grid, "Yes, Luna it sure is." Mac says. They carry the tub by the handles on the sides and follow me up the hill, I unzip the tent and let them in. It's dark  now so I cannot see him but I hear his snoring and roll my eyes. They gently put down the tub and Johnny who entered last looks for the little switch on the battery powered lamp that stands at the entrace, on a little bookcase . It gave the tent a glowy feeling making it feel warm and homey. I look over to see Eric laying on his stomach and stark naked. "Hm, strange... did you guys roll him on his stomach today?" " No, Luna." They say at the same time and both of them start to look nervous. "Maybe he just turned in his sleep" Johnny offers.  This is not good enough for me, I frown, "Mac, please call the pack doctor on your wavelink thingy,  I think he should come check him out just in case." They both stare at me and Mac answers,"You mean mindlink ,Luna and yes, of course I'll do so immediately." I blush and put my hand on my head," Sorry ,sorry I'll get the lingo right,  I just need time." They don't seem to mind and we stand in silence looking at Eric as he lays there snoring, naked. I stare at his perfect, surprisingly tanned butt for most of the time,  thinking that he was so handsome it was a pity he was such an ass all the time. I almost drool at his features, black hair with a wave slightly to the right side, that's grown long but he usually likes to keep short and neat, perfectly shaped black eyebrows long and naturally square at the ends, a very defined jawline and those lips that are just full with a natural almost light red color, his shoulders are broad and strong. His back is muscular and all I want to do is lay down on it and hold him. I catch my breath as the pack Doctor enters and smiles at me warmly," Worried about your mate, my dear Luna?" Stupid question if you ask me but ok I'll play." Why of course doctor, he has been passed out for well over 3 weeks now with no sign of recovering whatsoever, I'm worried about his treatment and progress." I hit him where I know it hurts most, by questioning his "healing abilities ". He inhales deeply and acts very hurt," Well if that wasn't a dagger to my heart..." I roll my eyes and simply gesture to Eric saying, "Please,please what can you tell us?" He does a variety of different tests and lifting Eric's limbs, listening to his heart and breathing multiple times. He finally turns and says, "He does seem te same as the day before, Luna. It could be that he just rolled over because of a muscle spasm." He quickly adds when he sees the three of us clearly disappointed. "I have faith that he will wake up, a few more days is all he needs, trust me." I try my very best not to roll my eyes at him. This little man is getting on my nerves.  He opens the medical bag that he always carries with him and takes out 5 bottles of home made oils. He gives me 3 and says, "These you put in his bath water tonight, make sure he soaks long and good, his bones and muscles need it." The other two bottles he puts on the nightstand next to the bed these two are to be applied on the head and skull only, massage his head with them lightly for about 15-20mins it is also a pain reliever." I nod and smile as much as I can muster, "Thank you, Doctor, for coming so quickly, your services are appreciated by all of us. He mumbles something but I'm so distracted that I don't hear a word. Great. No change. My patience is starting to run out. As the doctor leaves I look at the two men standing next to me and say, "Well f**k, let's get this over with, into the tub he must go!" They half smile while walking over to the bed. They turn him around and carefully carry him to the tub. Meanwhile I open the little bottles the doctor had just given me and pour some of the drops out into the water, I stir the water with my hand and watch as they put him into the tub in a sitting position knees to his chest, and head laying back against the handle. I was surprised that he fit, the tub seemed smaller on the fire grid. I watch them leave and Mac says, "We'll be right out there so just shout when you are done, Luna."  "Thank you Mac, you are a star." He nods and they dissapear through the tent flap. I look down at Eric and he starts to snore again.  I sigh and turn to get the towel and sponge off the little cabinet that holds all of his bathroom supplies. I start to wash his shoulders and chest and I feel the oils in the water start to smeer onto his body, touching him feels so good and I instantly hate myself for enjoying it after all that he has done to me. A tear rolls down my cheek and I hadn't noticed how upset this made me feel. With the sponge I go over his thick black hair, I can't stop myself I have to smell it, so I bend my head down close my eyes and take in his scent, he smells fresh something that reminds me of the oceans breeze, I exhale. "No ,no you better not do things like this!", I say to myself. It was completely confusing I've never felt so drawn and repulsed by someone at the same time, my feelings were so tangled and I didn't like it one bit. All I want to do is be back home in my comfy little house. Stealing a glance at the clock I see that only 5 minutes have gone. I wet the sponge and go over his face and neck careful not to get anything in his eyes and ears. I feel so turned on by just touching him, and somewhere inside it feels wrong, too. I let both my hands go over his shoulders and massage the oils into his skin, he is beat up badly black and blue marks everywhere. Moving the sponge slowly down his chest I stop and wonder if I should really wash his intimates or if simply soaking was enough. I wash his stomach and suddenly find myself staring at his huge member, it's large even when not errect, I feel fully turned on now. It takes all my will power not to touch it, instead I move the sponge to his legs washing them quickly, deciding that I'd better get this over with so I can stop feeling like a p*****t. I let the sponge fill with water and squeeze it out from chest to his knees so that he is covered with the water and oils.  Drying my hands on the towel I get up and exit the tent with the hopes that the fresh air will help me calm down. It's a bit chilly and there is a slight wind blowing that I appreciate, inhaling deeply I stare at the stars, it is an amazing feeling, it feels like I'm standing in a fairytale every night. "It's a wonderful sight, isn't it Luna?" Mac, sitting on his chair next to me offers. "Mm spectacular" is all I manage to say. I close my eyes and try to get the image of Eric's naked body covered in oils out if my head. "Perv." I say to myself, I am a p*****t. "Are you done then, Luna?" I've forgotten that Johnny was here and as he spoke I jumped a bit. He throws his hands in the air and says,"Easy, easy." As if I'm some wild animal he is trying to tame. I laugh and hold my hand to heart. "Sorry, Johnny, it's just been a day, I didn't notice you standing there in the dark. He chuckles and asks again."Is he ready to be taken out, Luna?" I get the feeling he has somewhere to be. " Give him a few more minutes, just incase the oils actually do work, I want to give him every chance possible." Mac gets up and makes a hand gesture offering me the chair. I take it gladly, I have been on my feet the whole day, as I sit my shoulders slump down and I yawn. " All of this is not easy for you, is it Luna?" Mac is staring down at me with a very concerned look on his face, it feels like he is staring into my soul and I feel very vulnerable.  I swallow hard, not really knowing what to say. So the truth leaves my mouth before I can stop it. "The toughest thing I've had to do. I miss my own people,  my job and my pets. There wasn't a chance for me to say goodbye to any of them, I mean I'm trying my best to make the situation as positive as I can,  but it is hard that I was tied up and brought here against my will." My words are harsh and I say them fully meaning Eric, but I see Mac bending his head slightly and looking ashamed. "Oh,no,no Mac, you were following oders, I'm sorry I didn't mean to take my frustration out on you!" He seems to perk up a bit but I see I have made him uncomfortable now. Johnny sighs and slaps him on the shoulder. "No one knew what his plans were that day, Maci boy, we were all stunned when you arrived with her in tow, don't beat yourself up man." Something in his words made me feel strange like Eric really is a one man show, unpredictable and angry and that is a terrible combination. Mac doesn't say anything for a long time and finally turns to Johnny. "You are right,  we had no idea that his actions that day would lead us here, but even if it was wrong,  I'm glad I brought you here Luna,  you are so good at being our Luna and everyone agrees. Some say they haven't seen one as good as you." He must be feeling very guilty showering me with a compliment like that. I blush and am thankful that it's dark and that he cannot see the effect his words has on me. "Oh! What a beautiful compliment, thank you, Mac!" Even when I'm very sure that it is a little white lie, I say, "I'm just keeping my head above water." Johnny raises an eyebrow and says. "Don't be so hard on yourself,  you managed to bring peace to our pack within 5 days of being here we don't have to break up fights and can acutally concentrate on training now, don't sell yourself short, Luna."  I'm not so sure but smile at Johnny anyway and thank him for his kind words and just then I decide to ask them the question that's been bothering me most. "Guys, can I ask you something?" They both nodd and I ask, "Is it absolutely necessary to always call me Luna? I mean I get the whole he is the Alpha I'm the one who's supposed to be by his side ting and all that, but we have become friends, I feel at least?" They look very uncomfortable and Mac keeps shifting his feet from side to side. "Well, ofcourse we have to call you that, it's just how we do thigs here," Johnny offers, but I sense there is something else going on. Suddenly I get it, I narrow my eyes and look at Mac. "You don't know what my name is, do you!?" Both of them staring at the floor now. Well f**k me, Eric never told any of them and they must be to ashamed to ask. Argh that man is such an i***t. Wait a minute does he even know my name? I put my fingers on temple and try to remember the day he took me. Trying to block out everything else from that day. He never even asked. He just kept calling me his mate. "Well, this must have been very awkward for all of you. I don't think he knows my name and that must be the reason he never told any of you." I clear my throat, stick out my hand and say, "Hello my name is Emmi Whithers, it is only a pleasure to meet you." Mac kind of giggles to himself takes my hand and shakes it. "It is my pleasure to meet YOU,  Luna Emmi." He bows down and kisses my hand. I laugh and sigh, so glad that I finally asked them.  Johnny pushes Mac out if the way grabs my hand and does the same, "Johnny Mark, my pleasure to meet you Emmi Whithers." and then he added."Luna." almost reluctantly. I smile happy that atleast the two people I have come to trust most now know my name, I hope they spread the news! Johnny looks at his watch, "Oh, we better get him out of the water Luna, it's been a good 25 Minutes."  Snapped back to reality I turn and enter the tent. Eric was laying in the exact position I left him, his skin shiny from all the oils making him look like a model. I feel aroused just looking at him and start to feel grossed out with myself again. Get it together,Emmi, just get it together.  Next to the tub I lay out the towel. Mac and Johnny put his sleeping body down and I dry him off with a second towl. They look away as I do this and I wonder why, I've seen them walk around naked more times that I can count it must be out of respect for me. Mental note: Ask Luisa about this nudity thing, rules and so on. I get some underpants slide them up and my hands brush him member, I blush and again I'm glad it's dim in the tent. When I'm done I get up and say "Ok, boys lift him up." They smile but don't move, Mac elbows Johnny in his side "You" he breathes. He looks at Mac kind of annoyed and rolls his eyes. "Fine" he let's out.  He takes a step towards me, "Luna um, Emmi at the risk of being very direct, we thought we could make a suggestion." I feel nervous because of how nervous they seem. "Oookay, I'm always open to suggestions, lets hear them?" "So um, it's..there's..he swallows hard and tries again, "Luna Emmi, we told you earlier that an Alpha and his Luna have a special bond." I nod , he continues,  "Well we be believe that our mates have the ability to help us when we struggle. For some it's calming just having their mate's smell near while others need to feel their mate's touch. We also believe it helps to be near our mate to heal better." "Oookay and your suggestion?" He can't look me in the eye, "Well we thought maybe if you are close to Alpha Eric that there would be some kind improvement in his health." Confused I try to get him to look at me. "Johnny, I know this already that's why I've been sleeping here with him in his tent." I hear him swallow. "But I mean even, closer,Luna." Ohhhh now I get it, they want me to sleep right next him,  skin to skin kind of thing. "But his bed hardly has space for him, Johnny?" He looks very relieved that I finally got what he was trying to tell me. "Yes, we know, that's why we brought the feathered bed," He points to the dark corner of the tent and I turn to find a huge white fluffy circle. It seems to be some kind of firm material stuffed with feathers. Lots of blankets and pillows layon it covering the round bed, it bascially looks like a cloud ...inviting and comfy. "What I want to know, Johnny is why you're only bringing me this piece of heaven now?" I turn, walk towards the bed on the floor and plop down arms in the air.  So fluffy and comfy oh I could just sleep right this second. "So can we uhm, can we ..." Mac is pointing to Eric still laying on the floor, "Oh, yes, put him in the bed, I'll give it a try." They smiled broadly at each other,  clearly pleased that their plan worked. After putting him on the circle bed they move quickly taking the tub outside and I hear as they empty it, water running down the opposite side of the hill. Johnny brings the empty tub inside, smiles and just as he is about to leave says, "It works best when both mates are naked." He gives me a devilish smile and disappears before I can protest. This place is unreal, the things I'm doing are crazy. Sleep naked next to a psycho to get him out of a coma so he can reject me and I can go home? Yeah . Mental. I sigh once again. I'm so tired but I need a shower asap. Grabbing my soap, towel and a summer night gown I head out the tent towards the little shower cubicle Mac had set up for me. I have to make it quick because we only have cold water here. It's basically torture but it's the only time I have so freezing is my only option. Cold water hits me and I gasp, "f**k,f**k fukety, f**k!" I rush to finish and wrap my towel around me, shivering and covered in goosebumps. I dress even faster and head towards the tent saying goodnight to Mac on my way in. Once inside I take off the gown and crawl onto the round fluffy bed, lifting the blankets I move towards Eric, I put my leg over his leg and my head on his chest, throwing my arm over his stomach, I'm too tired to think about this. I close my eyes and enjoy his body heat. I hear voices in the distance but all I can concentrate on is his heart beat under my head. The thumps his heart is making is like a lullaby and within seconds I feel myself drifting away into sleep.