Invisible Alpha

15

Emmi

He bends down and says in my ear, "Don't you dare ever say that I don't want you again." He is breathless and his hot breath on my ear is a major turn on. "You are all I've ever really wanted, do you understand?" I notice he is using his command voice so I decide to play my cards right, "Yes, Alpha I understand." He moans into my ear then turns me around and just as I'm ready for him to take me right here he takes a step back, "You reek of Johnny, take off his shirt." He is mad and the tender man that woke up from his coma seems to be gone. I oblige and give him the shirt, he comes a step closer but he isn't as close as I want him to be. He looks very serious and says," You smell of alcohol, Emmi,  how drunk are you?" I bite my lip and look up to the ceiling, "Hmm a little bitty bit." Showing my most sultry smile. He closes his eyes and puts a fist between his eyes,"You don't know what you're doing to me." "Eric, please, come here." I hold out my hand for him to come to me, but he takes a step back instead of toward me. Closing my eyes, I try to hide the pain of being rejected by him. He turns around and very harshly says, "Get dressed, I'm taking you home." He's gone before I can say a word.

Drunk Emmi, takes the clothes out of the dryer and walks out without putting them on. He's talking to Johnny when he hears me come out, ignoring both of them, I walk to Gav, sitting at the side of the pool with his legs dangling in the pool water, "Gavi, I'm going home, I've called a cab, thank you for trying to cheer me up, you're the best." Gav is so into the girl he's chatting to he doesn't really look at me. "Sure thing Emmi-bear, see you tomorrow. Walking out I feel Eric behind me. He comes closer, "Emmi, I'm sorry for how I spoke to you in there, I'm really having trouble keeping everything under control these days." The sports car that Johnny was driving makes a beeping sound and I get in without saying a word. Once he's in the car he reaches over me making me hold my breath but he only buckles my saftey belt. Just being so close to him gives me tingles all over. He's about to start the car when he drops his hands in his lap and says, "It's not fair, Em, you ran from me, you left. Which I get, but then sending me texts when you're drunk that's not ok, in my letter I told you that zero contact is the only way to go,after rejection and that counts for before,too. This kind of..." I cut him off. "Stop right there, first off, I wrote you that text hours before I got drunk, infact I wrote you that text a few hours after I read your letter, so one could say I got drunk because you never responded and when you did reply boy,oh,boy it was hours later and with one word. One word to end what never even started. Can you even imagine how it felt for me? I was kindnapped by a man who was always enraged and had almost no emotion in him but I still felt some form of affection for my kidnapper, I still want ..ed to be close to you, and craved your touch even if you tied me to my bed and burned down my house." I stare at my hands, I'm shaking, "I've been thinking that there's something wrong with me, hell there is something wrong with me, to be treated like dirt but giving in to your every need, and still wanting to be with you... I mean I let you finger me in a f*****g car, all my self respect went flying out the window that day, I should hate you or dislike you at the very least but no I can't,  I just want .. " I cut myself off, he doesn't need to know every one of my thoughts. "But you don't see these things, you can't understand me because you don't want to, anyway, what just happened in there hurt me, to finally feel your arms around me only for you to push me away again, and talk to me like I'm trash.." My emotions take hold of me and I know I'm babbeling but I need to let him hear it, "I've never denied you to touch me, not even back then when you were consumed by evil, not even when I was scared to death, but you don't want to hold my hand because I've had a few drinks?

He reaches in his back jean pocket and his head drops at my words, I've clearly hit a cord. I can feel his sadness now, but he does not say a word. My head feels fuzzy. He's not even going to react to me being painfully truthful? Nothing? I might as well have a closing argument if he isn't going to say anything, "It's like I've been saying to Johnny the whole night, you just don't want m...." He puts his finger on my mouth, "I told you to never say that again, remember you promised" I roll my eyes. That's it, I'm done, I've basically served myself to him on a silver platter, and nothing. "Please just take me home, now." This is pointless. He doesn't want us to be an us. This would have been his chance to fight for it to tell me or show me, but he's cold and hard and it reminds me if the Eric that I got to know in the beginning, plus he's treating me like the person who messed it all up, after everything he's done. Why did he come here, then?  The questions start to swirl in my head and it's making me angry, I decide to push it all aside and put on the radio, he in turn puts it off. He's about to say something but starts the car and pulls away, we drive in silence the rest of the way and when we're parked outside my parents house he locks the doors from the inside, "Emmi, if you were sober this conversation would be a lot different but I don't think it's a good I idea to be talking about this when you're not thinking straight." "You know, Eric you're right, let me out of the car, I don't need to talk, after all. I meant every word I said, do with it what you want. If you want to go through with this whole rejection thingy then so be it, I'll live just fine without you, I'm sure there's someone out there that will make me happy" He's silent again and unlocks the doors, I've got one more thing to say, "Do you know what pisses me off the most? Before you found me and took me, I slept FINE , just f*****g fine. Now? Now I can't sleep without you, and your snoring, and your smell. It's like my soul needs some part of you to sleep. I find myself waking up everyday wishing to be held by you. And it pisses me off because I slept FINE!" I get out the car, run to the front door and stand there tears in my eyes, I whisper, "That's it then, you're letting me go without a word, not even goodbye? Aaargh!" As fast as I can I look for my keys and stumble through the front door, then I hear the car door open but I've had enough. Turning I walk into the very dark house and half sway half stagger to my bedroom once inside I lock it from the inside still wearing just the towel I fall onto my bed. "You'll be fine without him, you'll be better off." I say asif to convince myself, and I'm so happy that I feel sleepy already.

Alpha

She's standing at her front door, her last words cutting through me like a knife. She said all the things I've been wanting to hear, baring her soul and her feelings. But she's intoxicated and I know humans act out of the norm when they have had, too much to drink, we can't have that conversation if she might not even remember it in the morning. No I need her to be 100% her and 100% present. She seems to think I don't want to be with her, she feels rejected by me. As soon as she wakes up in the morning I'll have to set her straight, she misunderstood a lot of what has happened. I need to explain mating and why I need to be careful around her. Keeping silent was the most difficult thing I've ever had to do, I broke out in a sweat holding my tongue, but I refuse to talk about such important things when I'm not sure of her state of mind. Dameon is still whimpering because of her words, all the hurt and pain and she still wants us. We are undeserving of her. I get out of the car but she's inside already. Slipping into my invisibility I sneak onto the porch and push through the door. I've never been inside so I have to rely on her smell, not hard to find, it oozes from her room. Again I try to push through the door, but it's locked. I knock once and whisper "Please open for me Emmi." I hear her groan but she gets up and opens the door, it opens slowly she's standing eyes half closed and stark naked, my manhood is awake and alive immediately, she plops back onto her bed snoring, did she just open the door for me in her sleep?! Locking the door behind me, I step into her room and undress, I'll be giving her at least one wish tonight. "Emmi...my Luna, are you awake? I'm going to hold you, is that ok?" Her bed is big and I love the feel of it, it feels like I'm in an Emmi cloud. Rolling her to me, into the little spoon position I say," Goodnight, my Luna" I squeeze her tight and give her a kiss on the cheek, I feel how her body relaxes and a huge smile stretches across my face, I love my inpact on her even when she's asleep. I close my eyes fighting all my urges, fighting against Dameon's screams, fighting our urge to mark our mate, fighting waking her and making love, this will be the most difficult night of my life but I have to be strong because when morning comes she'll wake up in my arms and that's what she needs most, at least tonight.

*******

Morning comes and I've never been so grateful. This has infact been the most difficult night of my life. No torture I've endured has ever been this painful. Our naked bodies never moved an inch the whole night. My member never relaxed even as I slept and Dameon's howls were always in the back of my head. She kept pushing her back side against me and I had to control too many urges at once. I'm exhausted. Sunlight falls on her face and she groans. It's well after 8:00 am . The night has been very long. She pushes her behind into my groin and I exhale loudly. Using my thumb I make small circles around her n****e, her moans are very subtle and I realise she's still sleeping, so I stop. She's coming to slowly. "Hmm Eric.. your arms.. tight.... yes." I grin , she's a little out of it, she probably thinks she's dreaming. Placing soft kisses in her neck I whisper, "Wake up beautiful creature, I need you." Her body breaks out in goosebumps and she pushes her back against my chest as tight as she can. "Hmm, come on Emmi, wake up, I can't control my urges any longer." She makes a groaning sound, then turns her head around swiftly her nose touching mine. "Eric, you're here in my bed... it's not just a dream?" Grinning I shake my head "I'm here, I've been here since last night, my Luna." Her eyes close and she groans again. "I have a hangover." Chuckling I stroke hair from her face, "I'd be surprised if you didn't," suddenly her eyes fly open, "Wait a minute! She's trying to escape my hold but I keep her right there. "Last night, you,you... I mean ..I .. wait how did you get in here ? Why,why are we naked? Why don't I remember? Was I drugged... I never have blackouts!" She's becoming hysterical, I have to calm her "Emmi, hey, I need to tell you something ok?" She has a bewildered look on her face but she stops squirming in my arms and simply says "Speak." This is it. My chance my last chance. "Ok. Last night... I got your text and Johnny's message from you at the same time, I just assumed you'd sent it while hammered. I'm very sorry for making that assumption, I'm not much of a 'texter' and barely look at my mobile phone." She wants to speak but I put my lips on hers and say, "Please, let me say what I need to say." Pulling away from her I sense her need for me so I kiss again her before continuing, "Secondly, you were very upset with me last night for not saying anything, but you were very drunk and I refuse to talk to you about something this important if I'm not sure if you'll even remember it in the morning. I know that humans don't always do what they intend when they're that drunk,  I didn't want to reveal my true emotions and have a meaningful moment with you if it wasn't sincere from both sides. That is why I snuck in, I wanted to be here the second you wake up to clear all of this, and I couldn't be apart from you for one more second. You opened the door for me in your sleep." Her face turns red and she can't look at me. "Thirdly, I couldn't take your hand last night because I saw the lust in your eyes and I couldn't take advantage of you in that state, I had no idea what you were thinking, days before you left me asking me to let you go and then there you were practically naked, drunk and bascially begging for a f**k, and that is not what I plan to do with you ever. In my mind I was not rejecting you I was protecting you and myself." I stroke her cheek and move my head to the side to force her to make eye contact with me, "and lastly, there has never been a second since I've layed eyes on you that I haven't wanted you body and soul, it is all that consumes me. It drives me mad, the need to be with you is stronger than my need to breathe, but being with you means more than just s*x, Em, our instinct is to mark and mate and I've been trying to suppress those needs and urges, my wolf, Dameon wants to make you his badly" Her body is covered in goosebumps once again, "Pushing those needs down and ignoring them has a huge effect on me, making me aggressive and irritable all the time, the thing is you don't know even half of what it entails, there hasn't been any time to talk to you about these things." I kiss her again "I'm not even sure if it's something you'll ever allow..." She's staring into my eyes, "Now that wasn't so hard was it?" I half smile at her. "So what does it mean to be marked?" She presses her groin against mine and I feel how wet she is, moaning I kiss her passionately. In between kisses I say, "Well I have to bite you," I flip her in her back and kiss the spot on her neck above the collar bone ,"right here," she crosses her legs around my back, "That doesn't sound, too bad." "Well, some of my wolf will come out,  fangs, claws and maybe some hair here and there, we will be merged when marking and mating with you, it can be scary and ... painful... not only the bite but the mating process...other parts of me might become wolf like,too and my wolf is large, in the department,too." I put my elbows next to her head and lightly rest my body on hers, looking into her eyes I sense lust, excitement and fear. I sigh. "See, it's not that easy." She kisses me and I feel her wetness being pressed against my stomach again. "So what happens after marking and mating?" She asks her mouth still on mine. She's trying to be brave but I feel her fear. "Well it will give you the biggest o****m of your life and then we will be connected for as long as we live, aaaand you'll probably become a wolf,too. We're not sure since I've only ever known two Alphas that had human mates. One turned into a wolf and one stayed human so there's no way of telling." A frown spreads on her face, "and uhm if I don't turn into a wolf, do I um mm is it ... do I have to have s*x with a half human half wolf again or is it the one time only?" Clever girl. Closing my eyes I just say it. It may be the deal breaker, "It won't be just once, Dameon will want to mate with you on a regular basis and I'd have to let him merge with me to give him that opportunity, his needs are just as strong as mine. Ofcourse if you do turn we'll be having human s*x and wolf matings, no merging. She blinks, "And you want to be with me?  I mean you, Eric, not your wolf or some mandatory pull ,you the person you want me to be yours ?" I'm confused, how can she not know after all I've said " I raise my legs and push my member into her very wet opening ,"I " I thrust into her, "Eric", I thrust again, "want you Emmi," I thrust and kiss her, "all of you, every piece of you forever," I say it loud so I'm sure she hears me. I thrust deep into her again and she kisses me fiercely, our lips still joined she says ,"Good , because that's all I've wanted since the second you threw my over your shoulder the day you found me, three months ago." She is tight and the feeling being inside of her is like being on a high, I thrust into her again and she moans, "I'm coming" her body tenses and she let's out a slight scream, "shhh I say you'll wake your parents." She grins and kisses me again. I keep thrusting until I'm as deep as I can go, her movements synching with mine quickly, she looks into my eyes and says, "Eric, mark me, do it now" Dameon howls and his screams become intense, "Emmi, don't,  you've only learned what it is seconds ago, you need time.. "No, Eric do it, before I become afraid of the unknown, again" She keeps moving under me and arches her back, "Alpha Eric I'm begging you to mark me and mate with me right now," That's it in a matter of seconds we've reached the point of no return. I thrust deep into her one more time then slip out of her and look at her very seriously, "Emmi, I hope you know what you've done because I can't stop it now." Her eyes are daring, "Good,I don't want you to." I kiss her one more time before letting Dameon merge with me. She tilts her head up giving me free access to her neck and I feel his fangs, claws and memeber change, Dameon licks the spot on her neck, he cannot wait any longer, his fangs dig deep into the skin making her scream, I put a claw over her mouth as her body starts reacting to the o****m, I slide into once more. This time it's tighter and I can't thrust into her too far, I'm already as deep as I can go the feeling is pure bliss, I've never felt this way before, and Dameon is breathing low and fast. She starts to move under us and soon we're insync again. I let Dameon take control of our movements and soon after she's climaxing again, Dameon lets out a howl of pleasure, he keeps moving with her and she puts her hands on my back digging her nails into my skin. She's moaning again with an excited look in her eyes, Dameon can't hold out much longer he licks the spot where he marked her making her thrust her hips up towards us making us go deeper into her and both of us let out a moan of pure pleasure and we empty out into her furiously,  under me I feel her body become tense again, she's reached yet another c****x, but that's normal while marking. I fall on top of her breathing out fast and hard. Then I take control and it's just me again, fangs, claws, and hair dissapear. Laying on top of her I kiss her mark, and she says," Eric I need one more"I look up at her confused and ask, 'o****m?' she nods her head and I smile, there's only one way we're reaching that goal, I slip out of her and she groans, "Who said you could do that?" She asks. I smile at her, it won't stay hard long enough, but there are other ways, my Luna".... I go down on her and start to lick her fiercly from top to bottom, she moans and arches her back, spreading her legs wider, her eyes are daring and she's lost in passion. In the back of my head I hear Dameon's voice and I pause, not sure if it's, too soon, she grabs my head and tries to push me back down, I take my chance, "Wait Luna, I want to ask you if I can merge with Dameon, he wants to taste you?" She's biting her lip and nods yes. We merge and I feel his fangs and large tongue come out first, he starts from top to bottom as I had and sticks his tongue deep inside of her when he reaches the entrance, she gives in to us completely and is moving her hips to our movements. He takes the tongue out and starts licking from top all the way past her entrance to her bottom, she moans again, showing him that she likes this, he keeps licking from top to bottom every time he reaches her bottom she moans louder, I urged him to stay there and he does so happily, licking it fiercly then as I feel her c****x approach I urge him to stick his tongue deep inside, his tongue is larger than mine and does not fit completely, she lets out a scream, reaching yet another o****m. He stays there for a moment and takes out his tongue slowly but then he keeps going and slowly moves up again, I have to stop him, she's exhausted and we'll have lots of time to explore her. I push him back until it's just me and look up into her eyes, which are fierce, she pulls me close to her, "You, and Dameon fit in me perfectly, you did not lie, that was the best s*x I've ever had." Her cheeks flush red, I enjoyed every part of it, with both of you. She's caught me by surprise, I'm tingling from head to toe, happiness must be pouring out of me. Dameon is very satisfied, he's making purr like noises. She pushes me off her, and moves onto her side, asking, "Big spoon?" "Luna, there is nothing I'd like more." I take her in my arms and she says "Eric, we're mates now. We belong to each other forever, I can feel it, feel that we belong to each other." My heart almost skips a beat, "Yes, my Luna, from this moment on,  we are one in all that we do." My heart is full and I don't know what the future holds but I know it's with her, and that is all I need.