Invisible Alpha

10

Alpha

"It's truth time," Johnny says as Mac enters the tent. Mac takes a deep breath and the obvious smell of our love making is still in the air, he looks directly at Emmi with a look of betrayal. My wolf growls at him and I'm just as surprised at this as Mac is, the problem is Dameon has been in hiding and only pokes his head out when he sees fit, so I haven't been able to control him . He didn't even badger me to mark Emmi while we were being intimate. He just pushed me to be intimate with my mate, and enjoyed our time with her equally as much as I had. Mac looks embarrassed and I wave my hand at him, "Dameon" I say, "Only there in the worst moments, as always." He still looks embarrassed and can not meet my eyes. I'll have to talk to him later. "So, let's get it over with, shall we?" I say and gesture for everyone to sit. Emmi is standing and I pull her to the armchair to sit on the armrest. They exchange looks and I can feel the atmosphere change, everyone seems tense at once. Alex looks at me thoughtfully, "Eric, it's not a pretty story, I'm just wondering if it won't be a step backwards for you. You're doing so well, I haven't seen your spirits up like this in over 50 years. I just think you should take a minute to really consider if knowing is important?" He askes me carefully. I feel my frustration rising, "Alex, what ever it is, what ever I did or didn't do, you have to tell me. I'll deal with it, there is no other way." Using my Alpha voice I say "Now speak!" Alex almost looks disappointed in me. "As you wish, Alpha". He clears his throat and looks at me with sad eyes."Just stay as calm as you can." His eyes moving over to Emmi then back to me. "You already know that you went to the beach and found the Skylin pups. The mother was missing so you tracked her to a small beach town. She was captured by the Rogues." He takes a breath. "Seth was the Alpha of that pack, Eric." My heart sinks, my long lost brohter that we've been looking for, for the better part of 25 years is an Aplha to rogues? I frown but tell Alex to continue. He sighs, "You arrived as they were r****g her," This I can't  believe, Seth in charge of men r****g a mother of 6, he knew her! "All this information is correct?" I found myself asking in a very accusing tone. Alex looks at Mac and Mac still can't make eye contact with me. He just stares at the same spot on the tent floor and says, "100% the truth, Alpha. I arrived shortly after you did," I nod my head but it doesn't make a lick of sense to me, "Continue" I hear myself say angrily.  Alex rubs his forehead but continues, "You entered with Mac and killed 4 of 15 rogue warriors, the two that was caught in the act and the two that guarded the house. It seems your rage took over completely,  you hurt the mother by accident. He stops to look at Mac then continues, "Mac had to pull you off one of the rogues, you were ripping his heart to shreds." I interrupt him not caring that I killed a r****t. "How did Lilian get hurt?" He looked taken aback "Lilian?" He asks looking confused. This angers me, he was my Beta and yet did not know her? My tone harsh now. "Lilian Skylin?" I almost hiss at him and it takes a while for him to make the full circle. "Oh, yes, of course, it appears as you attacked you bit her in the leg, they tried to use her as a shield thinking you would not attack but you went through her to get to them." I hang my head and look at my shaking hands, I'm more than angry now. Emmi takes my shaking hands kisses them then says, "You did what you could Eric, you were driven by fear and I've spoken to her. She thinks you're her hero. She has healed along time ago, just a small scar on her leg." She points to a small table with wild flowers in the far left corner of the tent and says," She brings you fresh ones once a week." Then she bends down and throws her arms around my neck saying you need to get over this one rather quickly, because this part looks like a fairytale compared to the rest of the story." I take her advise and sniff her neck then squeeze her tight but I can't say anything. After she pulls away I blink at Alex and he hesitates, he doesn't want to be the one that angers me. "Alex, continue now, I want to get this over with." "You went through the house finding other captives, all from different packs. Some were impregnated by the rogues that kidn*pped them. There was no time to free them as you had to find Seth and his other men, but you sent for us to come help. When we arrived however they were all gone, like they've vanished into thin air. They are gone still and no one knows what or how they could have left. "How many were there?" My voice is not steady anymore and I can feel the veins in my neck rising as my anger climbs again. Why would my brother do these things? It makes no sense. Alex looks pained and I sense the he feels sorry for me. "We have no way of knowing, they were locked in various rooms of the house. You didn't have time to...." he looks to Mac for help and finally Mac looks at me, "We got Seth's scent.. you sensed him close by, we had to move." Alex spoke again, "We soon found out that it was a trap. The Skylin pups were "working with" Seth. He wanted to capture your warriors and have a bargaining chip to make some sort of deal with you". I feel Emmi tense up next to me and suddenly wonder where she fits in to all of this, taking her hand I feel her shaking, I let go again as I don't want to be the cause of her fear. She bends down and kisses me on the cheek, lingering a while to whisper, "I'm so sorry for what you're about to hear". I frown, more? There's more? My heart races and I'm not sure what to expect. I struggle to get my thoughts straight, "Wait, how did he influence the pups to turn against their Alpha? How did he get to them?" Alex looks at his fingers, "You're not going to like this... it seems he never really left our lands. He managed to hide in caves and because he never really left he could bring rogues onto our lands unknowing to us. Every time you sensed him in all those years he must have been close by, right here in our mountains. The pups are as we all know explorers and they must have found him in our caves. Seth had plenty of time to change their impressions or they probably thought it was all a big game. They moved between our lands and the beach town for a few years and it seems they made the house or rather the mansion where we found them their pack house". I'm confused my feelings are a mixture of sadness and anger, my brother woke up one day and vanished we searched for him for years, 10 years that was my main purpose I led countless search parties all over the country sensing his pain and convinced that he was captured and being tortured. Searching for him is what fueled my anger and made my wolf soul touch a bit of darkness. I lost a lot of my humanity over those 25 years looking for him. Suddenly sadness takes over me, he left us and led a rogue pack that kidn*pped and r***d women? There must be a mistake, what had happened? Alex's voice is soft and I feel his sorrow, too. He loved Seth like a brother and was at my side every step of my search for him, "Should I continue or maybe we'll take a break here and continue tomorrow?" I shake my head no, "If there's more that I should know tell me, tell my everything" I say trying to hide my emotions.  Alex gives me a short nod, "At the rogue pack house we entered but only you and Mac could exit, the mansion was laced in black magic, we were stuck in the house,  for some reason Mac was the only one that could leave with you. We think it's because of his strength. The magic couldn't hold him. That was dark magic, it seems Seth made connections with the mountain witches, they are the only ones strong enough to pull off an entrapment spell like that. My mind is racing now, there's so many layers to what happened that day. Alex continues "Anyway Seth was not far. He was ... in the house next door. Waiting.... he thought it would be me or another warrior, you surprised him, he never thouht the Alpha would take care of this kind of business." He looked at Emmi and said in a cautious tone,"Come over here Emmi, we don't know what will happen after I tell him this." My body can't move and even when I want to protest to keep her with me, I don't do a single thing as she gets up and walks toward my men. My heart aches and I feel empty but I know Alex must be trying to protect her, I feel my anger rising and my fangs are already showing. "Eric, the house next to the rogue pack's house belonged to Emmi.." It takes several moments for me to connect the dots. "You said earlier that Seth was close by, so that means..." He doesn't let my mind wander for too long, "He was there with Emmi...wait I'm going about this all wrong let me tell you the whole story of why he was there. With the help of black magic he somehow found out who your mate was. He must have known for a couple of years because Emmi says they've been neighbours for the last 5 years. There are some uhm other details Eric but I think we should skim over them and get back to what happened that day". "NO, ALEX. I NEED THE TRUTH." I'm almost shifted now, fangs out claws showing and hair raising in my neck.  Mac gets up fearlessly,"Alpha, we need to take a break, this is not good for any of us". He walks out with Johnny and Alex following him. I hear Mac in the distance saying, "He can't handle the full truth Alex... look at him". I'm trying to drown out their voices when Emmi takes a few steps toward me she whispers "Eric, I want to hold you". Before I can stop her she's infront of me. She takes my hand in hers and pulls me up from where I'm sitting. I can't help but pull her to me, burying my face in her neck, I fill up on her scent and kiss her neck again and again until she let's out a faint moan and I start to calm down, I smell her arousel again. "Eric, how do you do it? " I'm still caught up in taming my anger,I've no idea what's she's talking about. "Hm?" She puts her head to my chest "How do you turn me into putty in your hands?" I feel my anger drift away and kiss her head half chuckling "You have the same effect on me, love". She doesn't move but says "I'd like to tell you everything, let's go sit on the bed?"

She's staring into my eyes, she kissed me very passionately and said that after she tells me nothing will be the same again. I take a deep breath and pray to the moon goddess that I stay in control.  Emmi is nervous and she's a bout to cry. I rub her hands "Ok, I'm just going to just say it". I smile at her and give her one last kiss. "Eric it's very important that you know I never had any idea that Seth is your brother. Anyway so I moved into my little house about 5 years ago. The mansion .. erm rogue pack house I mean was empty but a few weeks after I moved in a group of rowdy men moved in. It didn't take long for me to become acquainted with them. Seth took an interest in me and was always asking me out and well after a while I gave in". I growl a low and pained growl. This must all be a joke. Tears rolling down her face now, she sniffs "Eric, we dated for 2 years. We were in a serious relationship". Air is knocked out of me and I feel dizzy. Why would Seth do this to me. Why use black magic to find my mate and then move into the house next to hers and then date her? Why would he torture me in this cruel and heart breaking way. "Three years ago we had a pregnancy scare and he proposed but it didn't feel right. I just never saw us being togehter in that way. So I rejected him. He took it badly, always having  huge parties and lots of girls over. It didn't bother me in the least. Until I heard girls shouting for help. I reported it but they had connections high up at the local Police department. He told them I was the jealous ex and sadly nothing ever came of my reports. After that he was bad tempered and our interactions were limited". I pull away from her slowly, my insides are boiling with rage the only thing keeping me from loosing control and tipping over the edge is her smell. "Keep breathing,Eric" she says crying fully now she sniffs and pulls me right back to her then she continues". The day you came I was out on my porch painting the porch steps. Seth came up to me saying he would like to clear the air and that he still loved me after all this time. I never had those feelings for him and that's what I told him at that exact moment you burst through the bushes butt naked , Mac behind you. You walked right up to me kissed me and said "Mate "  I was so scared and confused I had no clue what was happening.  Seth took the chance to strike you from behind causing a fist fight between the two of you and before I knew it Mac was picking me up and carrying me into the house, he locked me in my own house. I-I don't know what happened out there but when I .." Mac was standing at the entrace of the tent and said "I'll be the one to tell him". Emmi squeezed my hand but I couldn't move it was like I was frozen I couldn't even feel my anger anymore. It was like I was dreaming, I moved my eyes from her to Mac and listened attentively. "You ordered me to take her into the house and assure her safety. When I returned you had already shifted and Seth was injured. He was laughing at you talking about how you would never have your mate to love or care for you, with purity because he had already had her. He said that sharing a woman between brothers was against the Moongoddess' rules and that your love would forever be haunted by him. He confessed to having a packt with the mountain witches,  they needed an Aplha to sacrifice and he tried to lure you to him, but you came with us that day and surprised him, he was caught off guard... " Mac looked at Emmi and mouthed "sorry" then looked back at me and said "He tried to make you angry, he was saying things he had done to her uhm sexually and that he been rough with her, making her beg for mercy. You had already bitten one of your own which as you know can turn a wolf evil. He knew you weren't far from the edge so, he pushed you always rising the anger he knew you had inside. He told us that he'd marked her without her knowledge and that she had given him a child, making a mating between you and her impossible. He knew that you were looking for your mate for so many years,  he knew you so well. He pushed every one of your buttons. It was a brutal fight and both of you fought well. You were however the stronger brother and Alpha." He says looking upset now. I can't react to any of this my body is not responsive at all. Then Mac says as if he was ready to finally get it off his chest: "Eric, the fight was life or death... he wasn't letting you walk away from that fight alive. Which means that you killed Seth."

It was enough, Alex was right it was too much for me to handle the hard facts were tough. 1. My brother a rogue,Alpha 2. He was a r****t and murderer 3. He made packts with evil witches 4. He found my mate, took her as his own and tried to have pups with her 5. I killed my brother meaning my wolf soul must have turned evil. I have so many questions and at the same time my heart feels broken, Seth took a lot from me. He had no reason to, his actions makes no sense. I can't make eye contact with either of them but I sense that there is more. "Mac you are one of my best friends I would never hurt you. Please come in and speak, there are stil a few unanswered questions here,  pointing to Emmi and then the tent. He comes in walks to where we are sitting on the bed and sits infront of us on the floor.

"If you're sure, I will continue Alpha but you're not looking so hot right this minute". I can feel sweat dripping from my forehead. Controlling my anger is becoming pschically exhausting. "Tell me Mac, so I can let it out." His eyes grow big as he realises what I'm doing "Uhm yeah o-ok ..After the fight your wolf collapsed but only for minute, we assumed that it was the evil in you taking over. The pack doctor explained to us that killing your own blood can turn a wolf to 85% evil and since you've already bitten Lilian out of your own free will and for your own personal gain we thought you would be over that edge for sure". That combined with your already existing anger problems... well let's just put it like this  you were certainly a changed man from the second Seth died under your claws." I close my eyes and hang my head. "What did I do".. Mac looks worried and I see he regrets telling me. "Mac don't stop there, I need to hear it all, so that this is over, I need to take it in ,all of it  hear all of it and let go of my anger once, I can't go through this twice." Mac knows what I mean, he knows what I will do, he shruggs his shoulders and I see that this is hard for him, very hard. "As you wish Alpha, you were different, you spoke to me in a harsh tone and I assumed it must have been from taking a life within your direct bloodline. You shifted and went right to see the Luna, but she was terrified. You were naked and bloody with eyes that burned with anger. She did not want you to come close to her, she didn't want any of us to come close to her,  ofcourse she was very scared. After trying to calm her down for over 4 hours you'd had enough, you carried her over your shoulder out of the house and to the car, you ordered me to tie her up and bring her to our pack house while you went into the city in search of a witch that could free Alex and the other warriors from the rogue pack house where they were still not able to leave. You found Esmere in town she was unwilling but you threatened her and she was forced to accompany you. It took her 3 days to break the spell, she collapsed after and the last I've heard she was in a deep sleep for almost a month. She did wake but many say she is still weak and she has an axe to grind with our pack. Luna Emmi still didn't want anything to do with you after we arrived at the pack house, so you locked her in your room, making her your prisoner. You only went to her at night when she was sleeping and slept next to her. I guess you had to do this because you would become weak if you were separated from your mate after finding her. She didn't understand this and every morning when she woke she tried to kill you in your sleep. Your evil wolf soul was always prominent and you decided to punish her because of this after the first week. She would be tied to the bed hands and feet and given very little to eat. After the second week you could not handle your need for intimacy any more, but she would not even look or talk to you, so you fell back into your old patterns and started having wild nights with the young and willing pack girls that always admired you. The pack doctor tried to get you to build a better relationship with her but it seemed a lost cause. You barely went to see her anymore and when you did, you spoke to her about nothing important. But you wouldn't set her free, you needed to atleast be close to her to stay strong, so once or twice a week you would have her tied to the bed, and go in to sleep next to her. I guess at some point you did have a conversation where she talked about her house and how she'd had so many memories there. You couldn't take the fact that she had those kinds of memories with Seth, it drove you crazy,your jealousy took over and two days later you ordered us to pack up her house with all her belongings, put them in storage and burn the house and the mansion down. You showed her the pictures of the burned down buildings making her hate you even more. She begged to be killed or let go and you couldn't decide how to handle it, so you appointed Luisa to be her Beta, to talk to her about pack stuff, help her understand the way we live and what we are, but she did not take our lifestyle well. She was always crying and sickly. Meanwhile you were still looking for the pregnant women that just disappeared from that packhouse, you were restless. You ordered every single warrior to search, with no luck on our side to this day. The searches did however lead us to find what was left of Seth's rogue pack. He still had up to 100 rogue warriors and they were pissed that you killed their Alpha. They were out for blood. Something in you snapped and you played a lot of games with them always having them come for a meeting but not showing up or convincing their women to sleep with your warriors, setting up wolf traps close to their camp and much more. We begged you to stop but your evil wolf soul would not hear it. Finally the rogues had had enough and attacked us, we have more than triple their numbers in warriors and we came away from the attack with not even one fallen warrior. Even though the attack was not a brutal one and we came away clean this was finally reason enough for you to ask for a one on one meeting with their new Alpha to come to some sort of understanding and put a peace packt in place. The night before this meeting was to take place Luna Emmi says you made a blood promise to her, that if you survived she would be free to go, the packt doctor was your witness. The next morning bright and early we met as per your request on top of the big mountain he came with his closest and you with yours, they were clever. As we met at the top of the mountain we saw our pack house burn, they had planted bombs there. You shifted and attacked the new Alpha even before he could introduce himself to us, killing him instantly. The other four warriors started heading toward you all at once. You backed up and went back further until you were at the edge. It happened so fast I pulled their throats out but one was standing right infront of you and with a very quick move he pushed you over the edge where you fell into the stream. When we recovered you you were barley awake Alpha. Your last words to me was that the Luna can not go free and that she had to stay by your side until you woke or died. You fell into a deep sleep and the pack doctor started the healing process an hour after your fall. We got back to the pack house and found it destroyed, burned and still in flames 18 of our family members had died because of the attack. Most of them died on impact, thankfully." My wolf is whimpering now and tears streaming down my face, I'm shaking. Mac stops talking but I move my hand in in rolling motion, letting him know I want him to continue talking, and he does. "Alex, Johnny and myself set up the camp here for the pack until the building team has finshed rebuilding and we can move back home, but we don't have high hopes of that being any time soon. It looks like we'll be camping for a couple of weeks, months even." He lets out air and drums his fingers against his head "Oh, yes, Alex, Johnny and myself found and killed the rest of the rogue pack, we didn't leave one warrior alive". He looks at me and shruggs and  says "And that's the whole truth,Alpha, the whole story of what happened in the last 12 weeks". "Thank you Mac, I know this could not have been easy." I try my best to keep my voice steady but I fail. My voice comes out shakey and weak. I turn to Emmi, and all that I can do is kiss her on the head. I get up walk out of the tent quickly, as soon as I'm outside I shift and Dameon seems relieved to finally take reign. I start running into the mountains as fast as I can howling at the sun. I need space, fresh air, I need to clear my head and figure out how to fix this, this mess. I have not one memory of any of this. As Dameon runs he whimpers and says "I'm sorry Eric, I tried but we were turned evil and I couldn't control you or myself, it was a very dark time for both of us, losing pack members, our brother and Emmi, rejecting us day for day, we were dark inside and I am glad that you had no memory of it. I need to hunt." 

I can't say anything I give Dameon control and fall back trying to forget the truth.