Erased from His Memory

PROLOGUE

It all started when he arrived at this pub that I worked in, I am a band vocalist and one of my passions aside from my other profession was singing. He was good friends or let’s just say very super good friends with my band mates and that’s exactly how we met. I really dislike him as he was this cold, arrogant, cocky, that he feels like he owns the world kind of person, but as the saying goes “The more that you dislike the person, the more that you are going to fall for them.”

One night after our gig was finish and we all packed our stuff from the pub he suddenly came up to me and asked me a favor, I was hesitant at first because like what I said I dislike him but then again I agreed to it. I don’t know what was I thinking; maybe I just want to have fun with my life? Or maybe there is something with this guy that just pulls me towards him. I don’t know, but still I agreed to it.

The favor that he asked me was to act as his fiancée, to make his b***h ex get jealous. I wanted to tell you why they broke up but this will make too long, maybe some other time. I was totally shocked to his proposal that I wanted to back out but then again there is something in him that just keeps on making me say yes.

We started our acts one night in this prestigious event, I could see every elite person in the country, the CEO’s of big companies, movie stars, you name it and they are all in this building. Bad thing about what I did, I haven’t even asked anyone or even got to know him and like what I said I don’t really like him that’s why I didn’t even bother asking anyone especially him, until that night that I found out from my dear friends/ band mates that he is one of the biggest business men in the country and this building that we are right now is his. I was super nervous that night that I keep on playing with my fingers and I can feel that my palms are starting to get sweaty; he must have sensed it though because he suddenly took my hand as we walk holding hands when we entered the building. He greeted a lot of people and keeps on introducing me as his fiancée then I just smile and greeted them back as well. I can also be lady like you know. While we keep on moving forward and greeting everyone we ended up to this particular couple I could feel that he tensed up a bit as he saw them but composed himself and hold my hands like it says don’t let go, as we go forward to them I could see now why began to tensed up and I concluded that the girl beside the guy was the reason why we did this act. I could feel that she was sending death glares at me and oh boy if looks could kill I would be dead by now, and when he introduced me to them as his fiancée her face paled and she stormed out all of a sudden that the guy with her was in shocked at what she did, he excused himself to us and run where she headed. I would be lying to myself if I said I haven’t felt any sparks when we hold hands but oh well like what I said this is just all a show and it will be over soon.

I was so relieved that it was totally over but guessed not. We still keep on acting after that night because a lot of people keep on asking him about me, his workers, investors, business partners, so every time they got like a business or work party I am always there with him, but the one that I was skeptic to meet was his family. When he told me that his family wanted to meet me I can’t even compose myself at that time, how can we be so reckless that his family would one day know about us and will learn that this was all an act and that we were not really a couple, he just told me to relax that all will be fine and nothing to worry about. I did what he told me and oh boy I was really nervous but it all faded when I got to know them, they are the humblest persons that I know. Even though they have that power to build an empire they look like an ordinary family, joking around, annoying each other and so much more. All I can say at that time meeting them was that I miss my family very much! The time that I met his family and spending time with them was the time that I saw his soft side, his smiles that are genuine and his laugh that gives butterfly to my stomach, seeing this side of him just makes my heart happy and because of that I started to fall for him.

I really hold back my feelings for him even if it kills me inside, I noticed as well he keeps on going to the pub every night and every time that he was in there I kept on busying myself or talking to someone on the phone or if our gig finishes I would give excuses to my band mates and head home after even though I felt bad that I am not helping them packing up, what can I do I just need to be away from him so that this feelings of mine would fade away. Until one night after our gig one guy approach the manager of the pub and asked for me, when the manager approach one of my band mates, I don’t know what they were talking about but he furrowed his eyebrows and looks at me like telling me that everything that he asked you to do say NO, I just smiled at him then the manager came over to me and asked me if I could come to this table, when I was about to talk I suddenly felt his presence behind me and I remember his exact words to him ‘My fiancée is very tired after this gig so I am bringing her home so that she could get some rest, and for that guy on that table tell him to keep away from my FIANCEE!!!’ my managers face was in shocked when he saw who was talking and kept on apologizing that he didn’t know that I was already taken. He then took my hand and started to drag me out of the pub I was looking at my band mates mouthing them ‘HELP’ but the aholes just smirks at me and waves bye! Urgh!

When we were already at the parking area, I could see he was angry, frustrated, or maybe it’s just my imagination. I can’t hold my emotions any longer that I snapped at him and told him what his problem and what kind of reaction was that? He didn’t talk at first and then asked me to get into his car but as stubborn as I am I crossed my arms and said NO! I started to head back to the pub but I was too slow that he grab me by the waist giving me a slight gasp and he just swiftly pushed me inside his car then we head off. I keep on yapping a lot that night but he didn’t even budged and just went on driving until I said something to him that made his jaw clenched and made the car stopped. I sighed and told him that we need to stop this whole act, I just can’t do it anymore, he just stared at the road in front of us then looked at me, shake his head and said something with his low tone husky voice that made my eyes narrowed looking at him ‘NO!’ he then told me about his feelings towards me but I just keep on looking down and eventually got my voice back and told him we are not meant to be even if it tears me apart telling it to him, and as well he still had feelings for his ex. He shakes his head again and told me he will prove to me that his feelings are really true that the whole act thing made him realize that his feelings for his ex wasn’t real unlike what he really feels for me, I let him see a different perspective about life, but I was still having doubts about what he said. For 3 months he keeps on showing his feelings towards me and we end up eventually.

We’ve been together for a year and a half now, I even moved in to his house already after a long debacle that I’m not ready yet but I still moved in with him. My feelings at that time were on cloud nine that finally I have my happy ending, but those thoughts went into the drain in just a flash.

It was our two years anniversary and I told him to get home early for dinner as I am going to cook special for him. As I was about to get ready because he might arrive from work soon my phone rang, I noticed it was a random number but I still picked it up, as the other person talked in the other line my whole face turned pale and I felt the whole world was turning.

I head straight to the hospital were the paramedics took him, the police came up to me and told me that his car was brutally crashed and the suspect behind the crashed was an irresponsible drunk teenage driver, luckily that his car is luxurious and the safety equipment is on point but he still got bruises and cuts and his head was full of blood. After the police told me the whole report, his family and our friends came to the hospital and I told them about the situation, that he hasn’t regained consciousness yet I wanted to cry next to his mother and sister but I hold it in and just hugged them and prayed that he would open his eyes and give me his signature smirk that I love the most.

Until one day as I was in his bedside holding his hands, his thumb suddenly move and I looked up to his face and saw that he was trying to open his eyes, I called the doctor and the nurse immediately and lucky his family was there as well at that time. When his eyes were fully open he then checked his surroundings and smiled at his family, as he gazed towards me he then said those words that tore my life apart.

“WHO ARE YOU?” with an angry tone as if that I am a thief in the room and going to robbed everyone in the room. I explained myself who I am but he just got mad at me and told me that I was a liar that I am not his fiancée. He knew his family and friends, except me. The doctor told us that he has a retrograde amnesia that he can just only remember his past but not the present time.

I felt helpless at that moment, every time that I was in the hospital he keep on yelling at me and telling me to get out, at first I’m just letting it go but it got worse when he got discharged from the hospital and got back home. He keeps on saying mean stuff to me, words that I knew that the love of my life won’t say to me. For now I am staying at the guest bedroom of his house and yes I am still here after how many attempts of his family and friends telling him not to kick me out.

Until one dreadful day, I went back home from our gig at the pub and that’s when my whole life shattered. I saw him and her at the couch lip locking like they were hungry for each other, to my shock I stepped back and haven’t noticed that there was a table and a vase behind me that fell off and broke into pieces same as what I am feeling at that time. They recover themselves and saw me and what happened to the vase. He yelled at me about the vase and how much it cost and I just looked up at him with watery eyes. I’m telling you I am really at the verge of crying but I still hold it in and asked for an explanation of what I saw, but what he did he turned his back at me and told me to leave his house immediately. Days passed by and it’s still the same, I kept on seeing her at the house so mushy with him and him just stayed like he was bored or something, and by then to keep hold my sanity I decided to leave not just in his house, but in this city and give him some space. I packed all of my stuff and put all of it in my car, lucky they weren’t in the house and who knows where they are and what they are doing, I can do this! Before driving off in his house I gave a deep sigh and drove off to work, I will still go to work and say goodbye to everyone. As well, I still won’t give up on him, NEVER! I would never give up on him until such time that he will regain his memory of me. I will open wide my arms for him.

Working at the pub that night was hard but I still give everyone my smiles and still jokes at them, but my heart felt like it sunk much more and it’s getting harder to breathe at what I saw, he was here at the pub with that woman and to top it all of his family is here as well but they sat in a different table. The whole night is just breaking me seeing them kissing and hugging on the table that they sat but I just swept it off and just kept on singing and be professional, blocking all my emotions and still give everyone smiles. I know with this façade only his family and friends see right through me and they know that I was just keeping my emotions locked. Before our finale song I gave a little sigh looked at our friends/ my band mates, his family, then lastly, both at them, I could see that he looked at me as well but I couldn’t saw the emotions as it was dark on their side, so before I proceed singing I put up my hand signaling my band mates and not to put the song on yet, the saw my gesture and didn’t play yet as they were waiting for me to speak, I made a little bit of joke first and thanking everyone that came and listen to our band, I can still remember what I said at the pub ‘Hi to all that came tonight, hoping you had a good time tonight and didn’t got bored of me and my band mates playing on the stage.’ I can hear some of the guest giggle. ‘Thank you all that came in here tonight to listen to us, unfortunately, this would be my last song to you’. I sighed. ‘Series of events are happening to me at the moment and to keep me stable I will be having an off for the meantime, don’t worry the band is still here but there would be a different person singing to all of you. How I’m going to miss all of you especially our valued guests. I know some of you will be sad but don’t worry I will be back but I don’t know when, and before I leave I will sing you all a song, hope you all enjoy it.’ they were gasp everywhere and I could feel my band mates at the back were annoyed at what I said I just closed my eyes inhaled then smiled at everyone and started singing.

After the song I quickly ran to the back and didn’t even care who’s looking at me, my band mates ran behind me and kept on yelling my name, I halt then turn around at them and that’s it I broke down and just cried everything out. My band mates just hugged me and they know the reason why, so they let me cry everything out until they know that I am going to be fine. As I head into my car at the parking lot his family came up to me and gave me a sad look, his mums eyes was starting to get watery but I told them that it is fine and I will be fine I gave all of them a hug, his dad, mum, brother, sister-in-law, and most f all his sister and wave at them goodbye, as I was about to go and drive I saw his figure out of the pub with her locking her arms into his like a leech, he saw his family and as he was about to go near them I drove off already and didn’t look back.

While driving I didn’t know where I am heading until I saw the sun shining and myself standing in front of my parents’ house. When my dad saw me she called my mum straight away, I gave them a cuddle first, and they try to settle me in my room, as my mum came up to me and started to ask what happened I broke down again and cried. My mother then called my best friend Eliana or Elli for short and told her everything, as fast as a lightning bolt my bestie is here with me with the looks of a person that wanted to murder someone without mercy. She told me that if I wanted to move on I will go with her to a different state or country and left everything behind me, and before I knew it Mum arranged everything for us, is she that excited to send me away? But I know that she wants me to forget everything that happened here and move on with my life.

We were already at the airport waiting for our plane to board. Elli kept on telling me that last night she kept on googling how to murder someone with high position and get away with it, she kept on yapping all about it but didn’t even process it into my mind as my mind was fully occupied about him. I was still hopeful that he might show up in the airport and tell me that he remembers me; I gave a deep sigh and kept on praying that he will soon have his memories with me back, not soon enough that giving up was my only choice. As we heard that we are going to board, my bestie and I stand from our seat then head to the cue but before I knew it she snapped a photo of me and her and captioned ‘bye big City and its heartaches, hello different country and new beginnings!’ I smiled at what she did and went inside the plane.

Oh by the way! I haven’t even introduced myself. So rude of me, hi! I’m Margaret Summers and this is the story about a woman that was erased from the memory of a guy that she loves, and yes! The girl that was erased from his memory was me!

~Authors note: Hi everyone! so this book of mine was published way way back like 2011 in a different writing and reading website but I havent finished it in there. When I got the inspiration to write, that website said I need to update my password and I totally forgot the email that I used from that website, hahaizt! then dreame and stary came so hopefully with this apps I can finish this book, and hopefully no one would come up to me and tells me I plagirise someone elses work but its just me. I promise! I just got the inspo from everyone to write again from this platform. I revise some words from the story to make it sound like me rather than my younger self… hehehe! Or did it? :) So to my readers please be good to me! :) leave any comments, reactions, or anything jn the comments and let me know about my book! Thanks everyone!

Xoxo Ravin:)