In Too Deep

Waterslide of Emotions

Twin, I don't even know where to begin with all of this. I mean Nick and I are in a complicated situation and Bishop just confessed his love for me. I am still trying to get my head together, it's like a lot twin. I don't know what to do.

How selfish is it for them to blindside me like this. How selfish is it for me to have feelings and emotions regarding both of these men!

This weekend was supposed to be fun and stress-free and now its more complicated than ever.

Emma walks over to hug me and tells me it's going to be okay. She asks me a series of questions and pulls out a notepad, she writes both the guys' names on the pad and the questions she asks determines who I am going to put more into consideration. She tells me that this might help. I decide to humor her and play along. I mean what could it hurt, and I mean you never know. It might actually help me figure out who I should give a chance to and help me get the answers I am seeking but I don't know how to decide on.

I look at my twin and say omg I have the best idea ever!

NO TWIN! She responds firmly, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING AND YOUR NUTS! I am not going to date one of the guys in your place. That is messy and gross and dishonest, and not to mention I have a man! I laughed loudly, and immediately stopped. What what?

WHOA WHOA WHOA WAIT, RUN THAT BY ME ONE MORE AGAIN!! I said to Emma. When did this happen??

Okay, forget my problem for a minute ! SPILL!

Tell me all about him. I knew I saw a glow when I saw you today. I thought it was a reuniting glow, I say, crossing my arms, letting out a deep hump sound, pretending to be offended.

Emma tells me all about her new boyfriend and how they met, what he's like, all the activities they have done together and everything. As she finishes telling me about him, my phone rings, it's Liz. I told twin to give me a minute and answer the call, hey girl. Hey, best what's up? She asked.

Just hanging out with Em. Hey girl, she says, Liz and TJ were the only ones in our group that knew about my twin.

Liz and I convertase about the night we had and all the little details, well, everything except the Bishop's situation. I'm not ready to talk about it yet. Liz, Emma and I had a fun conversation for an hour. We share a lot of laughs and Emma tells Liz all about the new man in her life. Liz fills us in on what she has been up to and how the kids have been doing. After we say our goodbyes, Eemma and I take the time to try the question game. She told me it would help me figure out what I'm going to do. It helped a little, but I still feel lost. Em looks over at the clock, alright twin, it's 4 am! We have to get to bed, or we'll be exhausted. I couldn't agree more. me without sleep is never a pretty sight. I get snippy and straight up mean. So we decided to go to bed. Tomorrow is another day. I can figure it out, then think to myself, and get comfortable enough to drift off to sleep.