In Too Deep

Twinning in the City.

Nelly and I walked around the store and I helped her choose the different color M&M's she wanted, and I picked up a little pink M&M plushier so she had a souvenir. I found the boys with their candy selections waiting in the check-out line with the associates that had assisted them. We walked up standing in line, which had moved surprisingly fast. We were in the process of leaving the store when someone ruffly bumped into me. I looked up, and before I had the chance to go off I noticed it was my twin sister Emma pulling me in for a hug. We both screamed and squeezed each other completely forgetting we were blocking the exit.

What are you doing here??? I asked her? Well, TJ had texted me and told me you guys were doing like a total group reunion and i thought that it was so freaking cute! I loved that for you and I mean what's a night in the city without your twin! sooooo here i am ! SUPRISEEE she squeeled with a smug smirk spread across her lips. Oh my god twin! This totally made this night 100 times better! She proceeded to hug her niece and nephews and hands them each a 10 dollar bill as she literally always does. I stopped bugging her about it a while ago, it's their thing and Im so tired of being called a "party popper". I smile at how excited they are to see Titi Emma. She joins me as we hit a few other stores. The Disney store was next on my list. Emma decided she was going to buy each of the kids 1 toy or stuffed plushie from this store and, of course, the kids were ectatic, as she walked off with them i decided to walk around and grab a few items myself for them. The kids were super happy with they're purchases and we left, heading towards the Harry Potter store. I mean I could never be in the city and not stop at this store! I am obsessed with it. My family book and movie series of course. We decided to hit a few other stores, like Victoria's Secret, h&m ,Gucci for some cute shades and of course we had to go into Pandora to get each other and little Nelly a new charm for our matching bracelets, every year and for every milestone of memory, we get each get a new designed charm that represents the occasion or event remembering. The kids had requested we go into one more store I looked at the clock ,we have a few more minutes to spare, so we headed over to the ice cream shop and the children got their favorite flavors and what ever mixing they wanted. Ofcourse twin and I got an ice cream as well once we were all paid for we headed over to the Macy's to meet up with the group. We all basically arrived at the same time, so what's next? Bishop asked and TJ and Angel said okay, so we planned on doing something exciting like clubbing, but since we have the little people with us we got everyone tickets to the new Broadway show!!!!! Omg!, Awesome, What!! YES! we all cheered in our own way, clearly expressing the excitement we felt, Emma looked around and TJ smiled at her. Don't worry twin, you got a ticket too. She perked up right away excited. Twin? Nick eyed TJ and I suspiciously. Bishop raised an eyebrow. HUH? He said, Emma stepped out from behind me and everyone draw dropped, well everyone except TJ. They've known each other just as long as I've known TJ. Double Trouble is all Bishop had to say and everyone laughed. WHAT THE WHOLE f**k! Nick shouted," dude, why did I never know you had a twin? Well, Emma said I told her not to tell you. Just in case she needed to "swap out", she said with air quotes displayed with her hands. Wait, did you guys twin swap one me back then? Emma and I smiled at each other and winked. We looked at him and said simultaneously" I GUESS YOU'LL NEVER KNOW". We both took great pleasure messing with Nick. Bishop looked at us both with that same look he gave me earlier but stayed quiet for a moment,he then walked over to where Emma and I stood and kiss her hand and introduced himself.

It all made so much sense at the moment as he looked over at me and back to her, it was like all in one moment I could read his mind. I most definitely did not like the thoughts he was having. I felt a pang of jealousy which I didn't quite understand why I would even feel. Angel cleared her throat and introduced herself breaking the tension between us all. Okay guys lets go, the show starts in less than twenty minutes and i don't want to be late and miss even a single moment! We all linked arms and walked down the street in two rows, we linked arms so no one would get separated. Nick looked at my ice cream and asked if he could taste what II smirked at him and said You already have with a wink. He began to blush furiously. I filled the spoon and fed him while looking intensely in his eyes, he made an exaggerated mmm sounds indicating that the flavors were appealing to him. the vanilla ice cream with rainbow sprinkles and estra gummy bears. I knew someone was watching intently, as it had felt like someone was burning a hold in the back of my head. I had figured it was safe to assume it was Bishop since him and Trey were behind us and Emma was next to me pushing the stroller. It always bothered me so see him upset, but it's weird the last few times we were together and he had gotten mad or even looked safe or disappointed. It really effected me more than it should. I guess deep down I did really like him and maybe that why but he never really indicated or even acknowledged me in that kind of way or said he liked me back so I kinda of just choked it up to me having a crush back then and maybe a little of those residual emotions lingered, but why would he be so upset about me and Nick I mean I know he has someone but is it really that bad? Is he disappointed in me or disgusted with my current behavior? Im going to have to ask him soon, I decide my final thoughts as we walk over to the show. Nick rubs small circles on my hand as we walk there hand in hand. I guess I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't even really realize that he grabbed my hand, I knew my hand was kind of stucky since we had just had that ice cream and it melted a little on me. I quietly apologized for the stickiness on my hands and I guess Emma had overheard because she had tapped my arms and handed me a wipe from the side of the book bag/diaper bag.

Thanks Twin I said and she just nodded and smiled. Nick pick Twin she said quietly in my ear with a wink. When we arrived at the show we were let in once the last ticket had been scanned on TJ's phone. I was pushing the stroller since Emma and I decided to switch when we got there. My phone binged and I unlocked it to see a message from Bishop, I looked up from my phone and looked around but didn't see him, I asked TJ where bishop was and she informed me he had slipped off the bathroom, oh I replied. I continued to read the rest of the message :

*Imessage*

Bishop:hey, when we get back I think you and I need to talk.

Tara: Okay, yeah I was thinking the same thing earlier.

Bishop: yeah?

Tara: yeah... Things had feel a little off with us and I really hate it and I planned to talk to you when we got back to TJ's

Bishop: I had wanted to talk to you the first night here but uh Nick had other plans...

Tara: Uh yeah..It got kind of uhh..

Bishop: It definitely did.

Tara: do you want to ride back with us and we can talk?

Bishop: No. I want to have a conversation with you without anyone else around. I have to explain something to you and I'd prefer not to have NICK there listening to our conversation.

Tara:YEAHH uh okay... I can ask Nick to ride with TJ and the kids ride with Emma. I really want us to have the time to talk openly and Im curious about what it is you want to explain to me... can I have a hint?

Bishop: yeah we can do it like that and ....NO! lol

Tara *rolls eyes emoji* ugh fine, you never give me hints hump! *arms crossed emoji*

Bishop: *shrugging emoji*

We all are seated, and the show was absolutely fabulous, definitely worth every penny! The show was about two hours long, but in my opinion, it wasn't long enough, it had so much heart and passion, and we all stood for a standing ovation.

Once the show was over, we were all talking about it and mentioning our favorite parts on the way to the car. The kids loved every minute of it and couldn't get enough of the tiger and the tin can man. Watching OZ on broad way tugged on your heart-stings in a way that the original movie never could. Seeing this live was something I'm sure the kids and I will remember forever, especially considering they were surprised that they were actually here seeing the play they had asked me for months to see. TJ had clearly listened when we talked about it and made the kids' dream come true.

In the Car: Bishop POV:

I watched from the side of Tara's car when she explained that I would be riding with him and that Nick would drive my car. Nick is a good driver so I didnt mind, but I didn't miss the dirty look he gave me and the sad puppy eyes he gave Tara when she explained the change in the seating arrangements. Emma was more than excited to take her niece and nephews for the ride. She had told Tara she will stop off and get them some McD's because that was something she always did with them, and she would get Tara her favorite shake.

Tara gave Emma the car seat for the kids, and she got them situated, kissed the top of their heads and came back to the car. I looked on at her. She's an incredible mother and I admire that about her.

I secretly imagined what it'd be like for her to have my child growing inside her, imagining seeing her so swollen with my child and glowing the way she always does made me smile. I was shaken from my thoughts when i heard her shout" B let's go" and her door shut.

This is the moment, my moment to finally tell her how I feel. She's expecting to talk, so there is definitely no going back now. I feel dread about if she rejects me and I feel some excitement that she may feel the same way I do and that will lead us one step closer to the life i had always envisioned for us. If I'm being honest here, I've wanted her, dreamed of her, loved her even since the first time I laid eyes on her. The moment was now finally here. I didn't forget she was with Nick, but I mean he had a whole fiancé! I mean for goodness sake Tara was never the type of woman that went for an unavailable person, especially someone who was already spoken for!