Chapter 7
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Chapter 7
Antonella
I don't understand what's happening to me! Today was supposed to be my wedding night with Daniel. I kept myself away from any kind of s****l contact both with him and with ex-boyfriends, in order to give my virginity to the man who would bear the label of "husband", and that was to be starting today, Daniel!
But look at me here, in a luxurious hotel room, with a man whose name I don't even know!
I provoked him, I don't accuse him of anything!
I pulled him with me and filtered with him until I got to the point of being in Eve's suit in front of him! Not even Daniel has ever seen me in all my naked glory!
If I knew that I was an easygoing and outgoing woman, I could take everything as an adventure and move on as if nothing had happened! But what scares me to the core is that I'm not like that! I've had enough boyfriends to count on the fingers of one hand, with fairly stable relationships, but not even an affair! However I may appear in the eyes of others, I have always been a woman who considered marriage holy, and for that an offering must be brought to her: virginity!
I Know! I'm very old-fashioned, but I didn't care that I was laughed at! Thinking of the honor I would be giving to my husband and maybe the extras it would bring, I always thought abstinence was worth it!
But now? What am I doing now?
Why do I feel from the bottom of my soul and with every pore of my body that I want this stranger to have that honor? He certainly wouldn't appreciate it one bit... Although the way he looks and behaves with me, I tend to think he deserves the gift for the few hours of happiness I'm sure he'll give me!
"Don't waste sunsets with people who will leave at sunrise!"
"Don't waste nights with men who will be gone before you wake up!"
The words of my beloved grandmother begin to invade my mind and somehow bring me back to reality!
Will I really be able to handle what I'm about to receive? An empty seat next to me in bed the next morning? Will I be able to get through this without suffering?
What matters? For today I know what I want!
I know I want him with every cell in my body! I love the way he looks at me, the way he kisses me, and the fact that he doesn't rush the pure act of s*x!
I will make sure that today I forget Daniel with luxury details! With all that he means! I want the drops of sweat that will flow from this man, here with me, to be so many that they can wipe away everything I had with that unfaithful bastard!
I am determined to be happy today!
I'll take care of the rest tomorrow!
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I feel his strong arms pick me up and carry me to the foamy tub. I feel like he’s wearing a feather. He lowers me into the warm water like a trinket, with such care that I feel valuable!
After I'm up to my neck in the scented foam, enjoying like a child its gentle caress, I notice Mr. I-don't-know-what's-your-name flop down next to the tub and start washing my body.
He is so thoughtful and kind! His caresses feel like butterfly wings on my sensitive skin.
He does not say anything. He just looks at me so intensely and intently that I feel like an ant being analyzed under a microscope. My skin crawls under the caress of those crystalline eyes.
Have I ever seen such warm and beautiful eyes on any man before? Of course not! Otherwise they would have remained imprinted in my memory as his will surely remain!
I enjoy his touch to the core and feel an unfamiliar warmth settle in my lower abdomen. I curl up under this pleasant sensation and look at him without realizing that I'm holding my breath.
I wonder what's going on in his mind? What is he thinking? What does he think of me, a betrayed bride who throws herself into his arms as if there were her oasis of water in the middle of the desert? And I'm even more impatient to see his reaction when he realizes I'm a virgin!
Oh no! I was so engrossed in him and everything going on that I didn't consider a very plausible outcome: what if he freaks out thinking I want to tie him to me and runs away eating the ground?
I sincerely hope he won't…
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