KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 14

Since we got back from the slope, I felt uneasy and my whole body hurt and I was 100% sure that I would have bruises everywhere later. Whenever I tried to move a little faster, the pain paralyzed my whole body and it seemed to me as if I had no control over it, as if my body was suddenly so weak that it could not move on its own.

It was an unpleasant feeling, the only thing I could do was walk slowly, but with every step it hurt. I thought snowboarding would be fun, but so far it's just horrible, and all I want to do now is go home.

I lay on my bed and closed my eyes, the image of Rebecca and Jasper appeared in my head and my eyes sprung open. I felt really weird, like I was being betrayed by my best friend, and feeling such pain is more painful than a fall down the whole slope. I wanted to cry, but at the same time I didn't want to, it was as if I had lost everyone around me and I was left with only my mother, who is miles away and I can't hug her and cry on her chest.

After a moment of thinking, I was interrupted by a strong knock on the door and without being able to say come in someone opened the door abruptly.

„Ria...are you okay?" Jasper ran to my bed with a startled look on his face.

I abruptly sat down on the bed, my body ached and tears started to form in my eyes. Maybe this is the better case since I could have broken all my bones, I was glad I didn't, even though I wasn't far from it.

„Don't move so much" he said quietly, gently rubbing my shoulder and slowly pushing me back to lie down.

I didn't perceive his touch as before and it occurred to me that all the warmth I had felt from him before had disappeared.

„Jasper please take your hand off of me"

His expression was surprised, but he slowly moved his hand away and put it back to his body. I know that his gaze indicated to me that he would like to hug me now and never let go, but I wasn't in the mood to hug him. I never thought that the thought of not hugging Jasper back would flash through my mind, but it just happened, I don't understood what is wrong to me.

„Are you okay? I heard you fell" he took the chair that was behind the table to my bed and sat on it.

Of course he didn't see how I fell, as if he could when he had his hands full with Rebecca.

Anger and sadness flowed through my body, it was as though I felt disgusted by him just sitting next to me.

„I'm fine Jay..." I said quietly but there was a hint of anger in my voice.

"You don't look like it, I was really worried about you and now I feel like you're angry at me, it's as if you didn't want to talk to me" his words were soft as if he was afraid of what he was supposed to say to me and how far he can go without hurting me.

„I'm fine, but how were you Jay? Were you good? Was it fun with Rebecca? It looked like you two were really close..." my eyes met his and tears were falling down my cheeks.

His expression was surprised for a moment, but after a while it turned into hurt and sadness, he probably could tell where my questions were going and was aware of what I wanted to tell him. I know he's sorry and hurt at the same time, but he was the one who once said that he would never smile at anyone who hurt me before, even if his mother told him to.

„Ria...." he leaned in closer to me.

„I'm sorry..." he said quietly, placing his hand on my cheek.

„Why did you smile at her like that and hold her hands Jay? I thought your words about how much you hated her were true" I said coldly, refusing to look at him.

„Ria, you know how much I hate her, but should I have just let her fall down the whole slope? Do you think I'm capable of doing that? To hurt someone and put their life in danger?"

She deserves it......

„I care about you Ria, a lot...." he put his arms around my body and pulled me closer to him until it forced us to lie down on the bed where he was holding me in his arms.

I wasn't entirely sure what to say to him next because he was right. I can't expect him to let go of her hands and let her fall, even if she deserves it more than Chloe. I know Jasper wouldn't be able to do anything like that because he's too nice to everyone, maybe that's his weakness. I felt embarrassed that I was angry that he taught her how to snowboard and helped her when she fell because I would have done the same if was teaching someone to snowboard. He was responsible for her at the time.

„Forgive me Jay" I put my arms around him.

„It's okay..." he patted me on the head.

"So my little princess was jealous that I was holding someone else's hand and not hers" he chuckled.

Jealous .....this is a feeling of jealousy? Jealous of holding someone else's hand and not mine is a feeling of jealousy? I didn't understand my feelings and it seemed like I didn't know myself.

"I can't stop holding her hands because I'm teaching her to snowboard, but what if I promised you that I wouldn't smile at her anymore and that I will never touch her after the trip?" He took my face in his hands and wiped my tears with his thumb.

I nodded in agreement.

It still hurt but less than before, it hurt a lot less and I felt like I could finally calm down and all my anger that I held in me was slowly going away, even his touch seemed more acceptable to me and I felt calm after his words.

„I love you Jasper"

„I know, now sleep we can talk later" he kissed my forehead and I closed my eyes.

I heard his heart beat and my body was incredibly tired and I was slowly falling asleep.

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After waking up, I found that Jasper was still sleeping peacefully. His eyes were closed and his long lashes gave him a cute expression. It reminded me more of a woman's eyelashes, I wanted to laugh at the thought. Whenever he sleeps, he looks very calm like a small child who is happy.

I looked at the watch I had on my hand and it was 7 p.m, so it was slowly time for dinner. My stomach was rumbling, I was afraid that Jasper would wake up because of it, but he was still sleeping like the dead, it looks like he is pretty tired after today's snowboarding. I decided to go to the hotel restaurant and bring us something to eat. It was quite difficult to get out of bed because he was holding me in a hug, but I finally got out of bed. I tiptoed slowly to the door and went out into the hallway.

I exhaled and was glad I didn't wake him. The way to the restaurant was through a long corridor to the elevator which was on the left. The hotel restaurant was on the top floor.

My steps were slow due to the pain and led me through a long corridor filled with rooms on each side where the students were accommodated. I heard laughter or the words "chug, chug" from many rooms, which only indicated to me that they were probably drinking alcohol and they were happy. On the left side was an elevator and on the right was a long terrace where people usually smoke, at least I think, because it is on each floor. As I walked into the elevator, I pressed a button and the elevator door closed.

I looked at myself in the large mirror that was in the elevator, and my gaze was focused on a fairly visible cut on my neck. It was distinctive and quite red, so it was clear that it was a fresh wound.

I had chills when I thought about what I actually said to Zero on that slope. I was completely not myself because of Jasper and I was telling Zero complete bullshit, but I still laughed at one thing, although he won and I did what he told me, at least I told him he was an i***t and that he should go to hell.

When I got off the elevator my body was no longer flooded with chills but I felt embarrassed. All the people sitting at the tables wore dresses and suits and I was there in a long T-shirt and sweatpants. I felt like a homeless person and I prayed that no one would see me. It seemed to me as if we were at a wedding and everyone has to be dressed completely formally, but I missed one important thing and that is that this is the most expensive and best hotel so only rich families come here. Of course, they won't go to a restaurant in sweatpants and a T-shirt like I do.

I quickly went to the other room where the food was served, I don't even remember what I was putting on our plates, but it occurs to me that in this restaurant they could serve anything and it would look good. I quickly turned away so that no one would notice me.

When I was almost at my room, I heard strange voices from outside, as if someone was arguing, but I didn't pay attention to it much and went back to my room and placed plates of food on a small table. When I walked to my bed where Jasper was, he was still sleeping peacefully, I didn't want to wake him up just for food. I decided to go look at the terrace and get some fresh air.

It was cold outside but I didn't mind, I looked at the stars that were in the sky and the moon that was shining. It was really nice. I saw the constellations in the sky and it reminded me of a time with my mom when I was younger, this is exactly how we looked at the sky almost every day before I went to bed.

„Why are you acting like this towards me?!!!" I heard the screams of a girl and when I looked down under the terrace Zero and Chloe were there and it looked like they were arguing.

It looks like the voices I heard belonged to them and the quarrel they have now seems to be very serious.

„And how is that exactly?" Zero asked.

„You don't even touch me or tell me anything nice, it's like I'm just a piece of dirt to you" she shouted at him. I was afraid that all the windows would c***k because of her high pitched, squeaky voice.

„Yes Chloe you're just a piece of dirt, I'm surprised it took you this long to realize" Zero said without emotion and remorse. It was clear that his words were true, and it was also clear how it had hurt Chloe.

„You f*****g asshole!" she slapped him and left.

It may be stupid, but this scene seemed extremely funny to me. I really thought they were meant for each other and that it would last them a long time, but after Zero's words I'm sure Chloe will find someone new in a few days.

I stepped away from the terrace so that Zero didn't notice me, and I continued to look at the stars and kept thinking because I was disturbed before. I stood there for about another 10 minutes but I was so cold that I went back inside. On the way back, completely frozen, I wondered if Jasper was still asleep or he woke up.

„Weren't you the one who said eavesdropping on someone else's conversation is rude?" Zero said, leaning against the wall.

It was as if he had appeared out of the darkness and I jumped slightly because I was frightened and my heart started pounding, it felt like the whole hallway was suddenly cold and my body began to shake.

„I didn't hear everything" I said quietly while stuttering.

„I know, you didn't come until the end of our conversation. You don't have to tell me things I already know" he said coldly.

I'm afraid there is GPS or something in my body because it looks like he always knows where I am and when, but I remember that in one book I once read the theory that murderers notice absolutely everything and I think that I'm starting to believe this theory more and more.

„It looks nice on you" I didn't even notice how close he was to me, and that his cold fingers touched the cut on my neck. I whimpered in pain.

„It hurts" he pulled his fingers away from my neck and placed them against my frightened face.

„It's supposed to hurt, but if you let me do it more often, you'll be pleased" he smiled.

I felt like I was going to throw up that's how dizzy I was. The only one who is pleased about that is him. I think it's insane.

„Don't look at me like that, it was just a joke pancake" he put his hands in his pockets.

„Ha ha" I said quietly and sarcastically.

„I'm glad you're all giddy, I hope you'll feel the same way on the slope tomorrow. I'm excited for our lesson together" he didn't look at me and left.

When I entered my room, I closed the door behind me and leaned my back against it. Whenever I'm near Zero, I feel like my body is cold and I'm always freezing. I tried to calm my heartbeat even though I didn't do very well. Jasper was still asleep, and I walked slowly closer to the bed and shook him gently.

„Wake up, I brought some food" I said quietly.

He turned to me and took my hand.

„Get up Jay....the food will get cold" I laughed.

It was obvious how he didn't want to get out of bed, but he still went to the table where we started eating together. His hair was messy and I wanted to laugh at it because it was cute but I held my laugh in.

„Why are you smiling at me like that?" he asked and looked at me as if he didn't understand what was going on.

„Your hair is really funny" I couldn't hold it in any longer so I laughed.

„Ria..." maybe my comment wasn't so funny because Jasper didn't laugh. He leaned closer to me and extended his hand to my neck.

„What happened?" he asked frightened.

Again, my body was overcome by panic and I didn't know how to react.

„That's from when I fell" I laughed shyly and tried to quickly change the subject.

„How can something like that happen to you just from falling on snow? If you fell into some bushes or you're dragged through a forest I'd understand, but this looks like..."

„Jasper it's nothing, I swear" I smiled and refused to hear the thought that came to him right now.

„Tell me honestly Ria, Zero did that to you, right?"

His expression was serious and he carefully waited for what I would say.

To be continued...