KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 15

„What does zero have to do with it?" I asked and laughed shyly, still looking at my plate where I was playing with food.

„He was in charge of you" his gaze was serious and the atmosphere was tense.

Jasper had his hands on the table, holding them tightly in fists as if he were ready to stand up beat the s**t out of Zero. My heart was pounding and my face was pale, could it be that all these lies would break out soon? I don't know what to tell him but I should choose my words carefully because Jasper is on the verge of exploding out of anger.

I was afraid to say something, even a small word, and I kept thinking about how to get out of this. I know he sees through my lies and he doesn't like lying. Right now I wished I was a good liar.

„Ria....I'll ask you again and don't lie to me. Did Zero do this to you?" he said seriously, and it occurred to me that his face had turned cold, as if I were talking to Jasper's dark side again.

„N-o" I said quietly and refused to look at him.

I didn't want to look into his eyes, they would be filled with disappointed that I lied to him again.

„Why do you keep lying Ria!" he shouted and you could hear anger in his voice.

I don't blame him because It's my fault for the most part, and I can't even imagine how I would feel if Jay lied to me like I'm lying to him right now. I want tell him everything from top to bottom. I would like to trust him with my feelings, but the fear of Zero was greater and the fear of him killing Jasper if I told him anything was even bigger.

My heart ached as I looked at Jasper, his eyes weren't full of happiness as before, they were full of disappointment and pity. It was as if he no longer believed me but at the same time did not understand what was happening between us. All these quarrels are because of one person, and maybe I started to regret not killing Zero in that classroom before. Maybe these quarrels would finally end.

„So you still won't tell me the truth?" he said quietly and refused to look at me.

I felt my heart breaking at the thought of losing him and drifting apart from each other. I wanted to hug him and be in his embrace until morning or to laugh and eat our favorite food like we did before we were in the room. I wanted him to smile at me and pat me on the head. All these memories came to my mind and slowly left with Jasper.

„I think I lost my appetite, good night" he said coldly and went to the door where I stopped him.

„Don't leave, please" I said quietly and hugged him from the behind.

My body was weak and tears streamed down my cheeks. My hands were shaking and the pain I was in hurt. It was as if they had taken away something really important from that has been there all your life and then it just disappears and you try to keep it with you for as long as possible and you are afraid that it is already long lost.

I held Jasper tight and refused to let him go even if he ordered me to push him away, I would still hold him and refuse to let go. He is too valuable to me and losing him is like losing yourself. I know Jasper feels the same way, but now he's too angry at me to be able to realize it. I know that when he gets angry he will get over it after a while but now I had the feeling that if I let him go and he left, he would never come back.

„Then tell me the truth Ria...." even though I was hugging him he did not touch my hands. He just stood there and didn't move, he didn't move towards me or away from me. As if he was stuck thinking about what to do.

„I want to tell you the truth, but I can't Jay" I buried my head in his back and hugged him tighter.

„You don't trust me?" he said quietly.

„I trust you more than I trust myself" my words were true and pure.

„Then where is the problem?" he grabbed my hands and squeezed them tightly.

„I'm scared" I said quietly with a shaky voice.

There was silence in the room and none of us said a word. Fear flooded my body and my whole body began to shake. My head began to spin and the only thing I perceived at the moment was the silence that was all around us.

I had never realized how much I was scared of Zero, and him killing Jasper was my biggest fear. There were many things I was afraid of, and I never thought this would become my biggest fear.

I felt so weak and it hit me that I couldn't take care of Jasper the way I should. He's always been here for me and he protected me as much as he could, and I can't do anything to keep him safe, I'm really stupid. Just like Zero said.

„Are you afraid of Zero?" he asked quietly and turned to me.

I didn't even want to look at him, so I buried my head in his chest. I refused to answer his question, so I preferred to be quiet.

His arms wrapped around me and he stroked my back.

„You're shaking so that means yes" he kissed me on the head.

But he was right, I'm afraid of Zero ... I'm afraid he'll hurt me and hurt the people around me, and I have this fear every single day.

„So the cut is from Zero after all, right?"

There was no reason to lie to him again, he already knows it's true, but I can't tell him he's a killer. If Zero's secret came to light, I'd be dead. I have to figure out a way to get him behind bars before it's too late.

„Yes, but it was an accident" Although I told the truth, I adjusted it a bit, I can't tell him that he was holding a knife to my neck.

Jasper's embrace grew stronger, it was as if he was wondering what to do, until he let go and his steps headed to the door. It was obvious how angry he was and it occurred to me that I had completely lost control of the situation and began to regret what I had told him.

I grabbed him tightly around the waist but it didn't help, so I quickly stood in front of the door and refused to let him out of the room because I knew exactly where he would go.

„Jasper please..." I said in a shaky voice, begging him not to go anywhere. That would be the end of everything.

„Move out of the way Alexandria!" his voice got louder and his eyes were full of anger.

I knew Jasper had lost control of himself, and I didn't know what to do. I know he had trouble controlling his anger in the past, but I thought this dark period was over, but I was probably wrong.

„Jasper please believe me, you can't go to Zero" adrenaline rushed through my whole body, and my heart pounded, and all the bad things that Zero could do Jasper's were going through my head.

„Why?!! I am supposed to be protecting you not the other way around Ria! Do you think this is normal?!" he yelled at me.

„You promised me you'd stay away from him Jay...you promised" I cried and with almost every word my voice cracked, I wanted to bring him back, and I wished that he calmed down.

„So you just want me to sit here and watch? Is that what you want from me Ria?! Have you lost your mind?!" he never shouted at me like this before.

His eyes pierced mine, and i realized that this was the worst argument we ever had.

„I'm telling you the last time, get away from that door Ria, I don't want to hurt you" every single word he said was serious.

„I'm sorry Jay...." I gave him a sad look and still stood at the door.

His body moved towards mine and he grabbed me by the shoulders brutally and tried to push me away from the door, my body ached with every sudden movement but I still tried to pull him away. He pushed me away from the door and I fell to the ground, I groaned in pain, but he didn't give me a single look and opened the door sharply.

„Look at what you're doing Jasper! This isn't you! If you leave right now, I don't think I can stop you!" I screamed after him and prayed that my words would get through to him.

His body froze as if he had been paralyzed. I think he realized what he was doing and went back to the room and slammed the door behind him. He just stood there motionless and looked at me. Anger kept flowing in his eyes, but slowly faded when he saw that I was lying on the ground and that he had caused it.

The feeling of guilt overtook him and he covered his face with his hands. I know how he feels, exactly the same way I do. It took me a while to stand from the ground because of the pain. But then I hugged him and waited for all the anger to go away. This has happened to us before, I know that every year Jasper explodes and no one can stop him. He doesn't think about what he does and always regrets everything later.

I know he is not to blame and I am sorry that he has been struggling with this problem for many years. I remember him coming to me crying that the doctor had prescribed him pills because he could not control his anger.

I also remember the times when we were in elementary school and whenever he didn't like something, he hit something so hard that his knuckles started bleeding just so he wouldn't hurt others. He always keeps his anger inside just so he doesn't hurt others and that's what makes him an amazing person and I'm proud to have him.

I caressed his back and pulled him closer to me.

„Everything is okay now..." I said softly, trying to calm him down more because his body was shaking.

„Please forgive me Ria, I'm very sorry for hurting you" he said quietly, holding my shirt tightly in his hands.

„Everything is okay Jay"

After calming down, he broke away from the hug and looked at my face, which was covered in tears and my mascara was everywhere under my eyes, but it was not important at the time.

„I'm sorry" he took my face in his hands and caressed my cheek.

„I know but you have to listen to me Jay... I can't tell you what's happening between me and Zero, but I will tell you one day so for now you have to trust me okay?" I held his hand tightly that was placed on my cheek.

He has to understand that him and I have to stay away from Zero because going to see him is like asking to get killed, and today we were not far from it. Yes, I didn't want to think about what would happen if I didn't stop Jasper.

„Why should I just sit here and watch how someone keeps hurting you Ria?"

„Because I'm protecting you"

„You're dumb" he leaned in towards my neck and placed a gentle kiss on the cut I had.

My heart pounded and it reminded me of the old days of our childhood. Whenever one of us fell, it was our habit to kiss the sore spot. We were small children and we thought it would help even if it didn't help at all, but after that we didn't have tears in our eyes anymore and we felt a bit better.

I smiled.

„Don't smile at me like that, I'm still angry" he went to my bed where he turned his back to me.

It seemed funny to me because it rarely happens that Jasper is offended and seeing him in this situation is funny.

„Shouldn't you go sleep in your own room?" I laughed.

„You said you're scared, no? So I'm staying here tonight" he yawned.

„As you wish" I smiled and took out a book from my backpack.

I didn't want to sleep, so I decided to read, it was one of my favorite books that I read maybe 10 times already and I would still read it again. A lot of people would get bored, but for me this book was a way to escape reality and immerse myself in my own imagination.

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Zero's POV

I was standing in front of the hotel, it was cold but I didn't mind at all and I was looking up at the snow that was falling all around me. There was darkness and silence everywhere, a wonderful time to kill someone, don't you think? I smiled and waited for Noah to call me. An hour before he texted me saying he has essential information for me, I clearly remember how I told him not to disturb me when I was on a trip, but it seemed that it was important.

After about 10 minutes of waiting, my phone rang and I answered it.

„Quickly, get to the point" I said.

„Yes, sir, all evidence against you has been erased, and Miss Smith's statement did not reach the media or other police colleagues. The lady who was at the reception is taken care of, but yesterday a proposal came that the case would be assigned to the FBI, which would mean cooperation between them and our district'' Noah said, waiting for what I was going to say.

FBI huh?

„Thanks Noah, let me know how it turned out with the proposal and when its official, contact me"

„Yes Sir" he said and I ended the call.

I exhaled and looked at the stars that were above me.So the FBI started poking its nose where it doesn't belong.....

To be continued...