KILLER EYES

CHAPTER 12

After our meeting in the main lobby, I rushed back to my room angrily and slammed the door behind me. Why does everything have to be ruined! Why couldn't I just enjoy a nice trip, instead my partner is a bloody psychopath! In anger, I threw a pillow across the room.

I sat down on the bed and looked at the ground, my anger suddenly turned in to sadness, and it seemed to me as if I was going to cry my eyes out at any moment. I felt really bad, and i can only imagine what Jasper feels like. Just from his facial expression, I saw how sorry he was.

There was a faint knock from behind my door, and I didn't even have the strength to answer. After a moment of silence, the door opened quietly and Jasper entered my room. He had exactly the same look on his face as I did, he was angry and sad at the same time.

My heart hurts seeing him in such a state, to see him sad and hurt is what I really don't want. Even though he was sad, he still tried to smile at me and walked over to my bed.

„I'm sorry princess...I tried to talk to Mrs. Bolton, but she told me she's not going to talk about it anymore and that I should not question her decisions" he knelt in front of the floor while I sat on the bed.

„That's okay" I said quietly.

„Look... the last day on the trip we are free to do whatever so then we could go snowboarding together I can teach you or we can go somewhere for lunch and have your favorite spaghetti ''

„Yes...that would be nice" my words were completely lifeless and did not sound very convincing.

„Ria..." he said quietly and cupped my face gently in his hands.

His touch was warm ... full of compassion and sadness, as if he feared he would hurt me even more. He started stroking my cheeks with his thumb while looking at me with his beautiful smile. I didn't even realize how pretty and cute Jasper's face is up close. His eyes were also beautiful, they were the color of the ocean.

I smiled even though this wasn't our plan but I'm happy he's here with me now.

„Thank you for coming to check up on me, but I'm fine" I laughed slightly and grabbed Jasper's hands, trying to push them away.

His head leaned in closer to mine and my heart began to race. His gaze was no longer on me but on my lips and I didn't know what to do. I felt the world around me stop and everything was suddenly in slow motion. All I heard was the strong pounding of my heart.

„Jasper?" I said nervously, well he completely ignored me.

Jasper's hands shifted from my cheeks to the back of my neck and he tilted his head to the right until our faces were only inches apart. I felt his breath on my lips, my body completely froze. I couldn't move, and there were a million thoughts in my head, but I couldn't concentrate on any of them, the only thing I could focus on was Jasper's breath on my lips.

I closed my eyes tightly and waited for Jasper's lips to press against mine. Although I'm not entirely sure this was what I wanted to experience with Jasper.

His soft lips gently grazed against mine when suddenly his phone rang and he quickly pulled away. His face was red and I can imagine how embarrassed he felt, not to mention how embarrassed I feel.

My heart was pounding and my fingers were touching my lips. No Jasper .... this isn't how it is between us...... at least I think it's not.Why do I feel like this trip is just getting worse by the minute, nothing is going according to my plan!

„I'm sorry" he said quietly as he put the phone back in his pocket, rejecting the call.

It was as if I was in a trance and I couldn't say a word. I know that it is normal for us to kiss each other on the cheek or forehead, or hold hands but a kiss on the lips? That's pretty much beyond our friendship, my thoughts haven't gotten that far yet and I wasn't even even planning on thinking about Jasper and I being more than friends.

„Ria...I—...sorry....you were sad and i wanted you to unwind and I couldn't think of anything else then to kiss you" he laughed shyly.

I think you did more then well, Jay...

„It's okay, I wanted to unpack some stuff and go to sleep soon, so..."

This is really embarrassing...

„Sure, I'll go now but Ria it won't be weird between us now, right? You are one of the people I really don't want to loose and I don't want it to be weird between us" he said nervously.

„No...at least I hope not" I laughed and looked all over the room, trying not to look at him because I'm not entirely sure how I could look him in the eye now.

"I'm sorry, my bad pancake, but it looks like you didn't quite realize what Jasper was trying to tell you, did you?" I kept replaying Zero's words in my head.

Maybe in the end it is possible that Jay has feelings for me, that would also explain the question he asked me in the hallway.

„Jay wait!" I shouted at him when he was about to leave.

„Yes?" he turned to me and paid attention to me.

„Nothing....good night" I smiled.

„You too, princess" he closed the door behind him.

Maybe it's not the right time to ask him ...... it wouldn't be a good idea to make it even more awkward between us than it already is.

But in love with Jasper?

Now that I think about it, what exactly is love? I never felt that way for any man. I've never felt butterflies in my stomach as they describe it in books, and my heart didn't race over some nice gesture that someone had done for me. I know I like Jasper, but I don't think I've ever thought of him as more than a friend.

I feel like the best trip is becoming one of the worst trips I've had.....

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I didn't even want to get out of bed in the morning, and I kept thinking about what happened yesterday. I don't want to lose Jasper, and I don't want it to be weird between us at all. We have been together since we were kids and to stop being friends over such a dumb thing like love is stupid.

Love..... is just stupid and only idiots believe in it...

After putting on some warm clothes, I went downstairs to the cafe where a few students were and my eyes were searching for Jasper. I saw him standing by the window, looking at his phone, so I ran up to him.

„Everything okay?" I asked.

It can't be weird between us...

„Yes just... a couple a things with my mom. How did you sleep?" he smiled at me.

„Pretty well" I smiled.

Even though I couldn't sleep at all because of what happened yesterday.

„You're a really bad liar, you know that?" he laughed.

Really? You don't say, I've already known that for years...

„Ria... about what happened yesterday, I'm sorry okay?" I know he couldn't put into words what he was about to say, so I just hugged him.

„Nothing happened between us yesterday, I don't know what you're talking about" I laughed.

I think the best option is to pretend nothing happened between us. I know that he doesn't want it to be weird and that's why this is the only thing we could do.

„I almost forgot..." he grabbed my shoulders and broke the hug.

„Come, we have to choose a snowboard" he looked at me and with excitement he smiled at me.

Despite all this, I forgot about it and that's why we went to the first floor of our hotel where there was a ski and snowboard rental. There were a lot of snowboards and they had different colors and I just couldn't choose one, although in the end I opted for the dark red snowboard. It was completely ordinary but I really liked it.

After renting our stuff, Jasper and I went to see the other students and teachers and gathered in front of the slope. I held my snowboard in my hands that hurt really bad. It's not as easy as it looks and especially going uphill to the ski lift dressed like this is a pretty good work out.

„Don't worry, you will get used to it" Jasper laughed at me and helped me take my snowboard at least a short distance to the students who were standing by the ski lift.

My gaze was drawn to the high slope, and the idea of ​​snowboarding down it was impossible. It was freezing outside, and the mere thought of going down the slope quickly was hell for me.

I'm supposed to snowboard down this?!!!

Fear overcame my body and I began to regret that I went on this trip.

„Please find your partner" Mrs. Bolton said and pointed at my group.

„I'll see you later princess" Jay waved at me and walked over to Rebecca.

With slow steps and total disgust, I walked closer to the ski lift, looking for Zero. Along the way, however Chloe stopped and looked at me with a murderous look.

She was looking at me as if she was about to spit on me, if the two of us were there alone. Her outfit was all pink from top to bottom as always I expected her to like a different color but this color fits her perfectly. She reminded me of Barbie, I wanted to laugh at her, but I remember what happened last time I laughed at her, so I preferred to be quiet and hold back the laugh.

"Try doing anything stupid and you're dead, it was a coincidence that they put you together with my boyfriend, and if you try to touch him, you'll regret it, do you understand me?" She tilted her head toward me.

„Yes"

„Fine, I hope you break your leg on the slope, b***h" she laughed and walked away.

I sighed and tried to keep my anger at bay. My eyes were still looking for Zero, who was standing nearby with a group of students and was looking at me. I reckon he saw the conversation between me and Chloe because he just smiled widely. Looks as though he's also happy when Chloe hurts me, but I didn't expect anything else.

I have to admit that the black suits him, since his outfit was all black, it gave him a really intense impression and it made me feel colder, even though I had quite a few layers on.

„Did you dress like this on purpose?" he asked and raised an eyebrow.

I didn't understand the question until I looked at myself. My jacket and pants were also black and just like me, he had a red snowboard. Almost the same, the shade was a bit different. We looked really similar, I regretted leaving my purple jacket at home.

Perfect I feel a lot better since we look the same!!!

„Let's go have some fun, what do you say pancake?" he said with a deep voice and a smile appeared on his face.

"I'm here to learn how to snowboard and not to have fun with you so please we can go now" I said quietly because I have respect for him and I dare say that I respect him more than Mrs. Bolton.

"Who said snowboarding isn't fun, darling?" Of course it will be more fun for me when you find out how much it hurts when you fall on your ass at full speed''

These are exactly the eyes ... the eyes that long to see me helpless and in pain ... the eyes that look at dead victims without remorse and empathy. The eyes of which I am so afraid that every time I look at them my body is filled with fear but I'm still somehow able to look at them ...

To be continued...