***Kade***
I feel like I'm in a haze and can't escape it. I know she is avoiding me, and I can't say I don't deserve it; I watch her from a distance; my wolf will not settle if we don't put eyes on her once a day; her scent drives us mad at night when I know she is in her room. I was going to start staying in one of the training cabins, but I can't bring myself to stay away.
Leo and Lor have been giving me the third degree since that night on the field; I heard the disappointment in Leo's voice that night. I can't say I blame him,
That's why I dont want another mate. Im not the nice, sweet, loving mate they wish to have. My heart doesn't want love in it. The last time, it nearly killed me and my wolf. I cant be want she needs and deserves, but then im a bastard for not letting her rej
