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"You can't change your destiny, but you can alter your fate"
And what's that suppose to mean. Of course the voices.
" You can't decide what you are, but you can create who you will become"
Did you smuggle Fortune cookies into my head?.
"All I'm trying to say is that, you have been given a chance to correct your mistakes, to do the right thing, to regain your honour"
As much as I hate to admit it, I have regrets, things I wished I had done, things I wish I hadn't done. And I would gladly accept the offer to change a lot of things.
But I can't do it alone, I can't do it my self, I can't walk into high school like this.
"Exactly, that's where the little boy comes in"
I was getting a hitch of what they were saying they wanted me to use the smaller version of me to change time to create a new existence possibly one where i won't get to meet the Omega again, as badly as I didn't want to believe the voices in my head for once I actually saw The sense in what they were saying or in what he was saying.
There are a lot of things in my life that I'm really need changing at the moment, a lot of things i have done in the past and a lot of things I had not done when I had the chance to, this was going to be my last chance in correcting the mistakes I made and making the mistakes I corrected. I didn't know what was ahead, I wasn't even sure if Sydney was going to come with me, he just couldn't possibly help me, but what i now was sure was the fact that I was going change a lot.
Well I needed a place to stay tonight, at least before I meet Sydney there was no hurry anyway, since i knew wherre he was going to be, i knew his every move, except you of course had changed that already by talking to him. But surely I was going to find him, so for now I'm going to take my time and enjoy the past while I still can besides there was some drinks I couldn't drink because they were extinct but they should be existing around now, im just joking, I'm not getting drunk tonigt. I'm just going to find a nice cozy hotel and spend the night and tomorrow I'll go check the foster home I was adopted in to get Sydney.
I drove by a bank then it hit me, I could just go get some money right now then get myself a place to stay and then buy some few things I needed oh yeah that was a perfect idea.
"That would have been a great idea, except that that would be called stealing,which is not a thing you should be doing"
Since when did I start caring about things I shouldn't be doing, this where the things I did in my everyday life, what the hell was even saying he couldn't just stop me from walking to the bank, but I really need this second chance and I wasn't gonna mess up, and I was beginning to trust this guy in my head
"You know you can just walk in there and take a loan right"
Na, that wasn't happening, no one was gonna give me a loan, so instead, i went with my first idead, but this time, i was gonna pay back
I went to a grand class Hotel and rented a suite, at least I pay for a whole month that should be enough time till i get out of here. I still have some cash on me so I went down to the bar and bought some red wines they looked classic. I don't drink much but once in a while I take a little alcohol, but it wasn't part of me, just to while away time
I sit on my large bed when I thought about my life so far, it has really been bad I've never really achieved anything, just got wealth without anybody knowing about my Riches, I never had anything, I never spoke to anyone, I was just a lonely piece of rubbish living in a warehouse with more than enough to care for a city, I had everything I wanted I had cars but I couldn't drive them freely, and money and i didn't need cause I could steal whatever I wanted.
This was not in the life I wanted, I wanted a much better life, I wanted a normal life when I will leave my house in the morning and come back home to meet my beautiful wife and kids. But this is what I got and I got to blame everything on the voices in my head the cause of all this, I'll be in the present today without them, I didn't ask for all this, I know I've said this like a thousand times but its just too painful to know that I am being forced to take a role I never bargained for there are a lot of people out there that would have happily taking this, why me and they will tell me cause of my heart, my heart is full of Fear and there is no courage in my heart.
I kept on tormenting my self with anger untill i slept off
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